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I was anxious.
Our relationship, which had been somewhat slanted from the beginning, seemed to tilt further contrary to my wishes as time passed. The more unequal our relationship became, the more I feared Jin Woohyeon’s reasons for staying by my side would grow thinner.
‘This isn’t how it should be.’
Love, while seemingly common and easy at first glance, is actually quite precious and difficult; if you let your guard down thinking you’ve grasped it firmly, you’ll lose it in a moment of carelessness.
I didn’t want to grow distant that way, and I didn’t want to lose him like that.
I didn’t want to drift apart from you.
“I’ll… I’ll change. I’ll think of better ways. It’s something we can adjust together…”
“Hyung.”
“…I like you, Woohyeon.”
Even though I’d sworn never to become pathetic because of love again, I thought it would be okay to be that way for you.
Because I’d come to like you so much after you boldly entered my life.
That’s why I didn’t want to let go of you, whom I liked so dearly.
“I really… really like you so much…”
You’re the only one I’m not afraid to embrace, kiss, and spend the night with.
To me, you are the one and only you, so I wanted to write your name in every blank space of days not yet lived.
“I wish we…”
I wish our relationship was connected by natural promises and willing excitement, not by determination or endurance.
I wanted to say that I love you in that sense, and that I want to be such a person for you too.
“Hyung. Sanho Hyung. Calm down and look at me.”
Everything was distorted vaguely due to the thin film of water covering my eyes. But even with such blurred vision, I could clearly sense that Jin Woohyeon was examining me closely with concerned eyes.
“Look at this.”
Jin Woohyeon smiled, lowering the ends of his eyebrows.
“Just because you shed a few tears, I already feel like half my world is crumbling. How could that be fair?”
“…”
“I don’t know what happened outside, but… hmm, I think we should talk a bit later.”
His black pupils reflected my face, which looked somewhat sorrowful and dazed.
“Hyung, you have a fever now.”
Only then did my mind start working properly and I understood the situation. Why I felt so groundlessly anxious. Why my stomach was churning, my eyes burning, and why his presence felt more distinct than usual—I understood it all at once.
I blinked as I accepted his thumb that had somehow slipped into my mouth.
“I think you’re going into heat, most likely.”
“Mmm…”
“Can I stay with you?”
He cupped my cheek with his other fingers and made eye contact.
“It means I’ll have to work harder than last time.”
In my confusion, I nodded heavily.
I had already resolved to spend this cycle with him. So there was no need for mental preparation, and I thought agreeing was only natural.
But Jin Woohyeon’s thoughts seemed a little different. He slowly shook his head, then raised himself slightly and moved closer to me. His lips touching my cheek were affectionate yet respectful.
“It means it’s okay if you change your mind. If you’re scared, let’s stop now. Okay?”
I don’t want to stop.
“Even if you reject me now, it won’t change our relationship. You understand that, right?”
I want to be with you.
“It’s okay. I’ll still like you, Hyung.”
I like you. So I’m okay too.
I wanted to say this, but my body was becoming limp. I frowned hard. I didn’t want him to back away now, but I didn’t know what to do.
After pondering for a moment, I lifted my foot and firmly pressed it against his thigh. Concentrating on my toes and moving them carefully, I could feel the bulging volume over his firm muscles.
“…Hyung.”
His gaze darkened. When I took a deep breath, I could feel the deepened scent of rain moistening my lungs.
Following his fingertip that pressed my tongue firmly before slipping out to caress my lower lip, I tilted my head and bit his finger again. From his thumb to his index finger, and then I took both his index and middle fingers at once, carefully licking them with my tongue and even sucking them in.
“It’s okay…”
I couldn’t say I wasn’t afraid. Since I’d never done this before, I didn’t know either. But.
I wished for a night where that fear couldn’t stop either of us.
I wished today was that night.
“Let’s go all the way. Okay?”
My pronunciation became a bit unclear, perhaps because I had his large fingers in my mouth.
“Don’t stop today…”
The body heat touching my toes grew increasingly hot. The firmly swollen heat seemed to extend from my toes to the center of my concave sole.
“…Ah, Hyung.”
Jin Woohyeon sighed deeply and pressed his forehead against mine. His other hand came down and grasped my ankle firmly, applying gentle pressure. So that my foot could press firmly against his thigh.
Every time he exhaled excitedly, his pheromones leaked out. As the scent with clear intent spread thickly, the inside of my body began to tingle and heat up.
“You say it’s your first time, but who’s seducing whom? Hmm?”
“Hnngh…”
“Now you’re trying to wrap me around your little toe, aren’t you.”
His fingers slipped out of my mouth and our lips overlapped. When I closed my eyes, my body was pulled toward him and then suddenly lifted.
Jin Woohyeon, who had picked me up easily, moved his steps while kissing me. I wrapped my arms tightly around his shoulders and kissed him passionately.
I thought my thirst would be quenched if I touched him and sweetly swallowed this scent coming from him. But it was the opposite. My throat tightened like I was holding back a sneeze, and my heart pounded wildly.
I wanted to touch him more completely. I wanted to swallow him deeper. I wanted to embrace him with every means possible.
“I just changed your clothes…”
As I was laid on the bed, his hand slipped inside my shirt. As he wandered around my flat chest area, he gently pressed my solar plexus with his fingertip.
“I didn’t expect to undress you again.”
That voice, closer to vibration than sound, floated softly to my ear.
Before I could feel embarrassed by that voice, his pointed fingertips scratched around my chest area. Though it was a casual touch, my waist lifted sharply and my vision blurred.
“…Hng.”
The kisses falling on various parts of my cheeks spread to my ear. As he lightly bit my earlobe while pinching my chest, I couldn’t control my excited body and pressed myself tightly against him underneath, making a pained sound.
“This… mmng, hn…”
“Don’t you like it?”
I didn’t dislike it. That was the problem. My mind became numb as if I’d drunk strong alcohol, making clear thinking difficult. I barely managed to shake my head.
“I like it, I do…”
I felt a sense of discomfort inside my underwear. It felt like something that had been boiling vigorously had leaked out a bit. The problem was that it wasn’t from the front where I was rubbing against him as if clinging to him, but a bit more…
“…So this is the scent Hyung gives off when excited.”
He supported my waist, inserted his thigh between my legs, and pressed up firmly. Just that alone made the inside of my legs tremble and my toes curl involuntarily. As I squirmed, Jin Woohyeon kissed my neck with a “shhh” to soothe me.
“What will we do if you cry already? I haven’t even put my fingers inside yet.”
“Mmng… hng, haah…”
My pants were pulled down smoothly. He grabbed one of my ankles with his hand and lifted it, then removed both my pants and briefs at once. My heartbeat was so strong that I couldn’t even hear the sound of my clothes falling.
His hand moved from my twitching knee to the inside of my thigh, and then slipped to my backside, which was already slick with moisture due to the effects of the heat cycle.
“Sanho Hyung, look at me.”
As my body suddenly stiffened at the movement of his fingertips, his other hand gently stroked my cheek.
“Look here. Do you know who I am?”
At his whisper asking me to say his name, I murmured as if entranced.
“Jin Woohyeon…”
“Say it again.”
“Jin Woohyeon. Woohyeon.”
“There’s only you and me here.”
A gentle yet rich smile spread across his face.
“So focus on me.”
His scent gathered in clumps and fell on me. It seeped hotly through my blinking eyelids, flushed cheeks, parted lips, and overlapping chest, making me boil.
The deliberately poured pheromones weren’t as scary as I expected. I don’t know if it was because my reason had become clouded, or as he said, because no other person or memory could exist here except him and me.
With my eyes closed, I gulped down his scent, which was like a mix of water, earth, and cool wind. Far from being afraid of the growing thirst, I welcomed it, to the point where I wanted to stick out my tongue and beg for just one more sip.
When I finally opened my eyes and met Jin Woohyeon’s gaze, who had been admiring every detail of my face.
“…Ah!”
His fingertips opened up my body.
Author: Hyacinthus B
Hyacinthus
