Joo Cheong-gyeong had always believed he was rather good at controlling himself. He had spent years concealing his resentment in front of Jang Hee-gang, and he was adept at feigning false emotions while inhabiting someone else’s body, pretending to be its rightful owner. He had endured long-standing pain without going insane, bearing it all in silence.
But when it came to the Guide before him—this was desire.
And without expressing it, he couldn’t endure.
Never since the day he was born had he felt such stability. It was only natural for longing to bloom toward the one who had granted him that.
Moreover, the more he took of his body, the more he realized. It wasn’t just Cha Eun-soo’s body he wanted to possess—but his emotions, too. He wanted them to belong to him.
He looked down at Cha Eun-soo, whose erratic breaths were slowly calming. The haziness that had lingered in his eyes had fully cleared, suggesting that his reason had returned.
His lips, red and swollen, trembled.
“……Why.”
“……”
“Why did you go this far…….”
Tears welled up, and his light brown eyes grew cloudy once again. It didn’t take long for his fractured voice to dissolve into sobs.
“I hate this. Please… don’t do this….”
Cha Eun-soo covered his face. His chest heaved with grief.
He had been forced to take a kind of drug he’d never so much as touched in his life. In a state of delirium, he’d been made to sleep with someone. Blinded by pleasure, he’d even begged for it.
The shame and shock toward what he’d become—and the fear of Joo Cheong-gyeong, who could manipulate him at will—dragged him deep into a thick, sticky swamp of despair.
Joo Cheong-gyeong, staring down at him, grabbed Cha Eun-soo’s wrist and pulled it away. The skin around his eyes was flushed red, fully exposed. Like a flood had burst, tears streamed down his temples.
“I said I don’t want to stop.”
Meeting those pitiful, tear-drenched eyes, Joo Cheong-gyeong murmured low.
“How do you think I feel.”
His brows twisted with a sorrowful contortion. The unexpected reaction made Cha Eun-soo flinch.
“The Guide I waited so long for… the one I finally found tried to run away from me. And the one who helped him escape—was someone under my command.”
“……”
“I lost someone I cherished.”
“…You’re the one who killed him.”
Cha Eun-soo shot back, his face pale.
“You killed him so cruelly…”
How could he say this so shamelessly?
The look on Cha Eun-soo’s face showed clear disconnect, unable to reconcile Joo Cheong-gyeong’s words with his actions. And at the same time, as if recalling that day again, his entire expression was overtaken by fear.
…And yet, guilt coexisted within him.
He believed he was the cause behind the subordinate’s death. Joo Cheong-gyeong could read that in his tear-streaked face.
How incredibly fragile he was.
Joo Cheong-gyeong swallowed down a smile. Then, he murmured in a deliberately somber tone,
“I had no choice. In this place, any kind of betrayal—no matter the reason—can only end in death.”
He was merely upholding the group’s code. Cha Eun-soo shook his head in horror.
“You killed my innocent friends too.”
“I didn’t intend to kill them. Just wanted to stir up a bit of chaos.”
“Don’t be ridiculous—”
“The truth is, most of them were killed by Cha Eun-hyuk.”
Without so much as blinking, Joo Cheong-gyeong told a lie.
“Cha Eun-hyuk… he was blinded by rage. He went on a rampage. He didn’t even care that the targets were your friends, Eun-soo.”
It was a story cleverly laced with bits of truth. Cha Eun-soo froze, as if struck. His eyes widened, disbelief written all over them.
“I understand how he felt.”
Joo Cheong-gyeong brushed the pad of his thumb beneath Cha Eun-soo’s eye, feigning sympathy. His thumb came away wet.
“To Espers like us… someone like you, a Guide, is everything.”
He stacked a twisted devotion atop suffocating possessiveness. His eyes even shimmered with what seemed like desperate affection. Still dazed from the emotional blow, Cha Eun-soo went silent, overwhelmed by what he was seeing.
“Eun-soo.”
“……”
“I know how I must look to you. Scary. Hateful.”
He acknowledged—without flinching—that he was the Esper who kidnapped his Guide, drugged him, and violated him.
“But even if all that were true… I still wanted you enough to not care. Can you believe me when I say that until I brought you here, it was so painful I could barely breathe?”
Pity was an incredibly useful emotion—once it took root, it wasn’t hard to nurture it into something else. Especially when the other person was someone as ridiculously soft as Cha Eun-soo.
The mere fact that he was even listening to the words of someone who had used him like a toy—wasn’t that absurd in itself?
“……”
And yet, the look on Cha Eun-soo’s face wasn’t simple hatred or fear. As he listened to Joo Cheong-gyeong reveal raw sincerity while still holding him captive, something inside him faltered. Conflicted.
“……! Hnngh!”
Cha Eun-soo suddenly stiffened, startled.
The thick shaft that had been buried deep inside him was beginning to slide out.
The pace was excruciatingly slow—so slow that to a body used to being pounded hard and fast, it felt like an eternity.
“Haa…”
Joo Cheong-gyeong, who had completely withdrawn, gazed down at the familiar entrance. The hole, which had stretched to its limit to accommodate the object, remained open for a while. Then, it began to slowly contract, returning to its original state. Through the gap, a white, viscous fluid appeared and started to trickle down.
“Ah…….”
Cha Eun-soo, his face flushed, tried to bring his trembling thighs together. However, with Joo Cheong-gyeong still positioned between his legs, it was impossible.
Joo Cheong-gyeong inserted his fingers into Cha Eun-soo’s opening. The wet, pleasurable inner walls enveloped his fingertips.
“St-stop……!”
As Cha Eun-soo resisted, Joo Cheong-gyeong kissed his cheek and whispered, “If I don’t clean you up, your stomach will hurt.”
The heated voice made Cha Eun-soo squeeze his eyes shut. He already knew the importance of aftercare, but the process of cleaning up the evidence of their animalistic coupling was uncomfortable now that he was sober.
“……”
Joo Cheong-gyeong, intending to finish quickly and let Cha Eun-soo rest, watched him silently. The corner of his mouth twisted slightly.
His long middle finger slowly scraped the inside, causing the semen to drip out. The liquid, warm as it pooled near the tailbone, sent shivers down Cha Eun-soo’s spine. He clutched the bedsheet, his eyelashes fluttering.
“Hngh……! Ah!’’
The white foam generated by the internal contact continued to flow out, soaking Joo Cheong-gyeong’s fingers. It seemed endless, a testament to how much he had ejaculated. Joo Cheong-gyeong hadn’t bothered counting his orgasms during their intercourse; it was pointless. All that mattered was that his cock and semen had filled Cha Eun-soo’s once-flat stomach.
He suddenly felt a pang of regret. If it were up to his desires, he would want Cha Eun-soo to carry his semen forever.
“Ah!”
The deliberate stimulation of the sensitive spot made Cha Eun-soo’s body surrender. His cock, which he thought had nothing left to give, rose involuntarily. A clear drop of fluid slowly dripped from the tip.
Joo Cheong-gyeong stared intensely at the straight, lightly-colored member, so different from his own, and swallowed a sigh. He had always thought… such a beautiful cock was unfair. Just looking at it made him hard.
“Mmph, ah! Mm!”
Cha Eun-soo twisted his upper body in pleasure, covering his mouth with both hands to muffle his moans. Although Joo Cheong-gyeong usually disliked such behavior, he decided not to stop him this time. The sight of Cha Eun-soo struggling beneath him was incredibly arousing.
Even though it was just fingers and not his cock, Cha Eun-soo’s slender body writhed. He shook his head vigorously, muffled sounds escaping his lips.
His body, which had been ravaged by the massive cock, craved more than just fingers. It yearned for that thick, powerful member to penetrate deep into his most vulnerable spots.
Cha Eun-soo didn’t want to admit his own desires.
Joo Cheong-gyeong, closely observing every reaction from Cha Eun-soo, immediately noticed.
“Ha…….”
Realizing that Cha Eun-soo desired him, Joo Cheong-gyeong felt his lower body grow heavy with arousal. He gently kissed Cha Eun-soo’s hand, which was covering his mouth, and slowly moved his fingers in a deliberate, teasing manner.
“Mmph…”
Cha Eun-soo’s hips lifted slightly and then settled back down. He lowered his hand, revealing his flushed face and glistening, parted lips.
Joo Cheong-gyeong leaned in and kissed him deeply. Cha Eun-soo, his senses overwhelmed, did not resist. Wet sounds filled the air from both their joined bodies and their kiss.
After tormenting Cha Eun-soo with his touch and removing every trace of himself, Joo Cheong-gyeong finally withdrew his hand.
“Hngh, ah…”
Cha Eun-soo panted, exhausted from the forced climaxes. His swollen lips glistened with saliva.
“Eun-soo,” Joo Cheong-gyeong whispered into his ear, his breath hot and heavy.
“Remember.”
“……”
“You are mine.”
Cha Eun-soo closed his eyes, trapped in Joo Cheong-gyeong’s embrace.
