Chapter 66
Seo Won slowly moved his gaze that had been lingering around Baek Rak’s mouth. Past his lips pressed into a straight line, his neat nostrils, his prominent nose bridge, and finally he looked into Baek Rak’s eyes.
The moment their eyes met.
“……”
Seo Won couldn’t say anything at all.
Dry eyes that felt devoid of emotion held him meaninglessly. As if there was only one answer anyway. As if telling him not to expect anything.
“Ha.”
Seo Won let out a deflated laugh and averted his gaze.
Baek Rak had built a wall higher than the barrier built high to protect the shelter. From him of all people.
That wall, which was not just solid but steadfast, absolutely refused to allow any intrusion. It also firmly pushed him away, saying it would never collapse or let anyone in.
Standing blankly in front of it felt like floating alone in a vast ocean.
“…How typical.”
He felt like he had experienced this feeling before, but he didn’t know why he couldn’t get used to it. Maybe it was because he forcibly avoided recalling it. He should have remembered without forgetting.
No, perhaps he knew unconsciously. That’s why he had poured his heart out to the alpha that had turned into Choi Gi Beom.
Seo Won swallowed the hollow laughter that kept leaking out and took another step away from Baek Rak. Another step, and another. After backing away several more times like that, he could no longer see Baek Rak’s feet.
What on earth had he been expecting? Like an idiot.
All his worrying up until now had truly become a pointless act. What had he been doing by himself, clinging to someone who had completely closed the door to their heart?
At this point, he had nothing to say even if he was criticized for being arrogant. He had been absurdly confident that he could change someone’s heart. With Baek Rak as the target, no less.
Seo Won rubbed his face once more and shook his head. A headache arose, making his head throb. His stomach felt queasy too.
He would do as Baek Rak wanted from now on, but right now he just wanted to escape from here. To a place where Baek Rak wouldn’t be visible to his eyes, where he wouldn’t be visible in Baek Rak’s sight.
“…I’ll do as you said. I’ll make sure you don’t have to worry about me until the awakening is over, so just for today… please don’t touch me.”
Despite his earnest plea, Baek Rak still didn’t answer. It seemed like he didn’t even want to have a conversation anymore. Truly heartless.
Why did he keep wanting to throw up when he hadn’t even eaten anything?
His mouth was bitter to the point that even his throat ached. He was afraid he might retch in front of Baek Rak.
Seo Won hastily turned around and ran off. His legs had no strength, but he tried desperately to get away from Baek Rak.
But at that moment.
“Ugh!”
His body was roughly spun around. Before he could notice what was happening, he felt pain in his caught arm.
He was about to shout asking what he was doing, whether it was so difficult to grant even one request to not touch him for just one day, but before that, Baek Rak’s face filled his entire field of vision.
Just as he was about to gasp in surprise, hot flesh rushed into his parted lips.
“Hah!”
His mouth, conquered in an instant, could only be swayed as the invader pleased.
The flesh that filled his mouth licked at his mucous membranes and roamed freely as it wished. The tongue tip scratched his palate, pressed down on his escaping tongue before sucking it up, and even attempted to invade his throat.
“Mmph! Hng!”
At the rough kiss that wasn’t gentle for even a moment, Seo Won squeezed his eyes shut.
What on earth was happening?
Saliva he couldn’t swallow overflowed from his mouth. Each time tongues and mucous membranes rubbed together, wet sounds flowed out. It was a violent act that completely stole away his senses.
“Hah, Baek! …Hng.”
He pushed frantically at Baek Rak’s shoulders and shook his head, but with his jaw and nape firmly caught, he couldn’t move an inch.
Thud.
Before he knew it, he had been pushed against a wall with no corner to escape to. Because of that, the kiss became a little deeper.
“Hng, mmph.”
His entire mouth was crushed and ground as it was thoroughly soaked by Baek Rak. He felt like he might forget how to breathe. The stimulation continued endlessly. Wet sounds violently shook his eardrums, and the flesh that clung persistently began to covet even the root of his tongue.
It felt like all his senses were concentrated in his mouth. His vision grew dizzy.
As his resistance gradually decreased, the flesh that had been roughly driving him also became just as gentle.
Baek Rak alternately bit his lower and upper lips before once again largely swallowing his lips. He took Seo Won’s tongue and rubbed it to his heart’s content, and licked his mucous membranes while swallowing saliva that belonged to who knows whom.
The kiss that seemed like it would continue forever only ended when Seo Won grew weak and swayed.
Chup. Until the very end, the persistent sound of sucking and releasing his tongue flowed out.
Even in his dazed state, Seo Won’s body trembled. The kiss was so intense that he couldn’t easily escape from it, and it was stimulating. His mouth was numb to the point that it still felt like something was stirring inside it.
He carefully rubbed his lips and wiped away the overflowing saliva. Seo Won looked up at Baek Rak who was still holding him.
The eyes that hadn’t shown a speck of emotion were, if he wasn’t seeing wrong, swirling more roughly than a storm. As if he could no longer hide it.
“……”
“……”
What, what does this mean…
Each time hot breath touched the back of his hand, Baek Rak’s chest rose greatly. The hand supporting his nape was also burning hot like boiling lava.
Baek Rak still kept his mouth shut as he persistently stared at Seo Won. It was a gaze that was stickier and more viscous than before. Then he slowly bent down and cornered Seo Won between his two arms. His sculpture-like delicate face gradually approached Seo Won.
Thinking he was going to kiss him again, Seo Won tensed up completely but froze like stone when Baek Rak buried his face in his shoulder.
“……”
As he could neither do this nor that and only panted, goosebumps rose at the breath flowing through the fabric. His jaw trembled unstably.
Bang!
At that moment, Baek Rak struck the wall forcefully, spat out a short curse, then turned around and disappeared somewhere.
Without even having a chance to calm his surprised heart, he slid down to the floor and sat down. The floor was definitely as cold as ice, but strangely, he didn’t feel the chill.
“…What the hell.”
He could only mutter blankly at Baek Rak’s incomprehensible change.
He had said he would do as Baek Rak wanted, so why did he suddenly kiss him? It was as if he was holding him back, telling him not to do that. And what about the look in his eyes? In the eyes that he thought held ice, an unexpected storm was raging.
He was only confused because he didn’t know how to interpret this.
Seo Won buried his face in his hands and curled up his body. His heart was beating like crazy, but he didn’t know how to calm it down.
It seemed like Baek Rak had stirred up not just his mouth but his mind as well. He absolutely couldn’t continue thinking.
Perhaps Baek Rak’s heat had transferred to him too, as he was slowly turning red from his nape to his face.
Just moments ago it felt like he had soaked his body in an unpleasant puddle, but now it felt like he had completely melted after sinking into hot water. Making it meaningless to drive out the Baek Rak that had settled inside him, his insides felt full again with things Baek Rak had given him.
“…I’m going crazy.”
Just how long do I have to be swayed like this? Continuously alternating between cold and hot baths, he was reaching a point of mental exhaustion.
Seo Won bit his slightly swollen lips and buried his head between his legs.
Nothing had been properly sorted out, but he didn’t feel as bad as before. It was probably because he had discovered the fact that Baek Rak was just as swayed by him. Just facing the confusion that Baek Rak ultimately couldn’t hide was enough for him to feel relieved.
Of course, he had no idea how the situation would unfold from here on.
But one thing was certain…
Baek Rak’s words that they wouldn’t see each other anymore after he awakened as a guardian were a lie. If he had tried not to look at him, he wouldn’t have grabbed him either.
‘I guess I have no choice but to be satisfied with this for now.’
Even though he couldn’t find out why Baek Rak acted that way toward him, getting even a small glimpse into his inner feelings was a great gain.
Only after the heat had subsided a little did Seo Won raise his head.
Where had the disappeared Baek Rak gone? He couldn’t sense his presence anywhere. In the dim space without a single light, only he sat there blankly by himself.
It didn’t seem right for sleeping. He leaned his back against the wall and let out a long sigh.
His lips were still numb, and his shoulder where Baek Rak’s breath had touched was burning. It wasn’t heat that would easily subside.
As Seo Won rubbed his shoulder and lips while thinking of Baek Rak, he slipped down and ended up almost lying on the floor.
What floated around in his head was nothing but Baek Rak’s eyes and wet lips.
Author: Hyacinthus B
Hyacinthus
