#193
Of course, the suggestion that employee made earlier wasn’t particularly welcome. It was actually unpleasant enough that the first thought that came to mind was that he wasn’t gay.
But when thinking about Dan Joo-hyuk, it was different.
Sex with him felt good from the beginning. Even though he’d thought of himself as heterosexual his whole life until now, perhaps he wasn’t.
“Just, enjoying it moderately?”
Lost in thought, Yoon Pa-ran focused only on Dan Joo-hyuk’s body heat against his cheek. He felt languid, almost wanting to fall asleep like this.
In many ways, everything surrounding him wasn’t bad. Considering that his Skill had been revealed, he was safe, and there was no headache-inducing power struggle with the government. Plus, there was this warmth within reach that he could freely extend his hand to. All of this was thanks to Dan Joo-hyuk.
As soon as he thought that, for some reason, Dan Joo-hyuk’s earlier words about ending their contract suddenly came to mind.
“…”
If he still felt this way after the contract ended, would he have to find someone else? Like in the many rumors about Dan Joo-hyuk?
Strangely, the earlier excitement disappeared completely, and his mood sank. He had always thought that someday the contract with Dan Joo-hyuk would end, but for some reason, he felt a deep sense of regret.
…Finding someone else, somehow feels unpleasant.
“Yoon Pa-ran, you only dealt with women before,” Dan Joo-hyuk murmured in a low voice.
Since it was exactly what he’d been thinking about, Yoon Pa-ran shrugged his shoulders casually and answered.
“Thinking about it, I guess I don’t care if it’s a man or a woman.”
As he spoke, he rubbed his chest curiously, feeling an empty sensation there since earlier. It was just talk about the distant future anyway. By then, his thoughts might change again.
However, Dan Joo-hyuk seemed displeased about something, remaining still. Pa-ran had thought they were in the mood, but was he mistaken? It was also strange that he suddenly brought up that security employee from earlier.
In the silence, Yoon Pa-ran slowly blinked, sending his gaze endlessly toward Dan Joo-hyuk’s face. With his eyes slightly lowered, Dan Joo-hyuk somehow wouldn’t meet Yoon Pa-ran’s gaze.
Thanks to this, Yoon Pa-ran’s gaze lingered slowly and for a long time on that handsome face. Then he realized one more thing. Ju-hee’s comment about the security employee being handsome suddenly came to mind.
Isn’t Dan Joo-hyuk’s face the best?
“…”
The sudden thought was somehow embarrassing, making Yoon Pa-ran rub his cheek needlessly. Afterward, he fidgeted uncomfortably and lowered his gaze, like someone whose thoughts might leak out.
Is that why he’s not doing anything more? If I said I wanted to do it today even without needing the Skill, would that work?
Come to think of it, Dan Joo-hyuk had proposed something like being partners before. When the contract ends later, maybe he should casually ask…
“So.”
“…Huh?”
A sharp voice cut through Yoon Pa-ran’s dazed thoughts.
Slowly raising his head, he finally met eyes with Dan Joo-hyuk, who was now looking directly at him. His body trembled slightly at that gaze, which had somehow become more intense than before.
With the sudden change in atmosphere, Yoon Pa-ran unconsciously swallowed.
“You’re going to do it with some other bastard?”
“Huh? Well, later? When our contract ends…”
“Is that so?”
Even Dan Joo-hyuk thought his current behavior was clearly strange.
Yoon Pa-ran opened his eyes wide, apparently finding his sharp questioning attitude puzzling. Even seeing that, he simply couldn’t manage his expression, his face continuing to harden.
It just irritated him. Other guys talking to Yoon Pa-ran, looking at him, even breathing in the same space as him irritated him.
Anxiously worrying that Yoon Pa-ran might go somewhere beyond his reach had become as natural as breathing. Becoming speechless like an idiot at a single glance from him was just part of daily life.
But despite all that, he never imagined Yoon Pa-ran would have such thoughts from the advances of some random nobody.
“Why are you suddenly asking that?”
“…”
His insides were boiling violently. Like he’d forcibly swallowed the sun.
‘Of course it’s because of our contract. What other reason could there be?’
‘What’s the big deal about mixing bodies a bit?’
‘Between adults, just think of it as enjoying ourselves.’
This was all because of the nonsense his past self had spouted.
Someone as innocent and earnest as Yoon Pa-ran wouldn’t come up with such thoughts on his own. Knowing this better than anyone, Dan Joo-hyuk just wanted to slash his past self with a sword.
He shouldn’t have said such stupid things. He shouldn’t have presupposed the possibility of other people from the beginning. He should have made him promise not to even glance at other guys from the start.
Irrational thoughts grew like flames, completely burning away his reason. By the time his reason turned to pure white ash and fluttered to the ground, only indescribable emotions remained. Whether it was resentment or blame toward his past self.
I knew better than anyone how lovable Yoon Pa-ran is.
“I asked why you’re acting like this?”
In the midst of rising self-loathing and regret, Dan Joo-hyuk’s reason finally snapped. A sense of crisis pushed at his back, feeling like he would lose Yoon Pa-ran forever if he didn’t hold onto him now.
With that, Dan Joo-hyuk lowered his head and set his teeth against Yoon Pa-ran’s nape like an animal marking its territory.
“Ah…!”
“How disappointing.”
His vision turned crimson, and a self-mocking laugh escaped involuntarily.
“To think about finding another guy with me right in front of you.”
“No, I’m not saying I would now, ungh…!”
The hand that had been aimlessly caressing his waist now dug into Yoon Pa-ran’s pajamas with clear intent. As he pulled him into his arms, Yoon Pa-ran’s body curled up smaller.
It looked just like Yoon Pa-ran was disappearing, which only fueled Dan Joo-hyuk’s urgency.
“Uwah…!”
“I’ll have to try harder.”
After thoroughly working on his nape, Dan Joo-hyuk promptly bit Yoon Pa-ran’s white ear. Holding it fully between his lips, he mouthed the sensitive spot, making Yoon Pa-ran’s body tremble finely.
His struggling intensified, apparently ticklish. But Dan Joo-hyuk pretended not to notice, focusing on feeding pleasure into Yoon Pa-ran’s ear.
Moist sweat soon seeped from Yoon Pa-ran’s skin. His body scent, now sharing the same fragrance as himself since he’d bathed here, further stimulated Dan Joo-hyuk’s lower half.
When he saw him come out wearing those cute puppy pajamas just like his own, his thoughts momentarily stopped. He felt stupid for being pleased, thinking it meant Yoon Pa-ran was becoming more comfortable in his home.
To think Yoon Pa-ran had been contemplating finding someone else all along.
“What are you saying, hah…!”
“Let’s enjoy ourselves moderately, together, right now.”
This was like the last leash keeping Dan Joo-hyuk in check. Since Yoon Pa-ran was oblivious to such affection, even if such affection was directed at him, he wouldn’t care. That was the leash forcibly restraining his impulses.
Therefore, the words from Yoon Pa-ran’s delicate lips were enough to push Dan Joo-hyuk right to the edge. Even if it was just a vague “possibility” in the distant future, as he had said.
The chilling urgency, like falling, urged Dan Joo-hyuk on.
“Do you like it here?”
“Ah, y-yes…”
Deliberately pressing his lips right against his ear and whispering, Yoon Pa-ran’s shoulders gave a large, reflexive jerk. Yoon Pa-ran’s reflexive moan sounded exactly like an affirmative answer. Even knowing it wasn’t so, Dan Joo-hyuk’s dark intentions blazed up uncontrollably.
He didn’t want to let go of Yoon Pa-ran in his hands. He truly didn’t want to lose him to some other person like an idiot.
This was the first time in Dan Joo-hyuk’s life that he felt such longing for someone. He wanted to make up for everything that had happened until now, but he didn’t know how.
“Ahng…!”
He just wanted to stick close to Yoon Pa-ran’s side and never be separated.
“Let’s go to the bedroom.”
His own low whisper sounded terribly cracked. It was as if his dried-up patience was manifesting in his voice.
Yoon Pa-ran’s neck, with his roughened breathing, had turned pink. The desire to bite that tender flesh again as he pleased raged violently.
Faced with such a beast devoid of conscience or self-restraint, Yoon Pa-ran defenselessly nodded his head.
“Ha.”
At that firm indication of consent, Dan Joo-hyuk let out an involuntary laugh.
His body, moving even before the laughter, embraced Yoon Pa-ran and stood up.
“This is driving me crazy.”
With his jaw muscles prominent from clenching his teeth, his final words barely escaped through his teeth, as if crushed.
Author: Hyacinthus B
Hyacinthus
