“I like you too. That’s why I’m asking.”
Alexander said this while slightly raising his body as if organizing his thoughts.
“But I think.”
Kalix looked at Alexander’s hands. He suddenly remembered Alexander sucking on his hands. I want to suck on them too.
“And probably you think so too.”
At the gaze that returned to him, Kalix hurriedly came to his senses. Alexander used the hand that Kalix had been blatantly staring at to brush back his disheveled hair. His forehead, which had been covered by hair, was revealed, and his slightly furrowed brow from thinking created a particularly sensual atmosphere. He had always thought of him as having a quiet and calm atmosphere, but he had hidden quite lewd aspects.
“To know that this is our reality, we need to clearly know it’s different from back then.”
That was also part of the reason Kalix had avoided this until now. In vague imagination, even if it inevitably appeared in dreams, Alexander was always in forms Kalix didn’t know. Come to think of it, even then it seemed less stimulating than now, so reality seemed more intense, but anyway, that’s how it was.
That’s why he couldn’t get closer. That was just, perhaps, maybe Kalix was combining Alexander with memories from the past. But now that it had come to this, there was also a sense of relief. Because it would be completely different from back then.
“Geez, you avoided it because you were afraid you’d remember back then.”
But Alexander seemed to know that too.
“Even if we do the same things as back then, you need to know it’s not the same. You do.”
At those words, Kalix gazed at Alexander. After acting as if he had completely abandoned any modest aspects, now he had quite a clean face again.
“What about you then?”
The reason Kalix wanted to be intimate wasn’t simply to overcome his memories. He hadn’t even thought of such a thing. Kalix just liked Alexander. That’s why he wanted to touch him, but did Alexander have other reasons? Thinking about it made his stomach churn.
“I don’t care about that stuff. I just wanted to do it with you.”
“Geez, I also said it because I just want to do it with you.”
At those words, Kalix pulled Alexander down. Alexander, as if he hadn’t expected it, was pulled along. Kalix pulled Alexander, who seemed about to say something, closer and blocked that mouth with his own. Then he immediately flipped Alexander over and climbed on top of him.
“I didn’t mean for you to treat me so roughly.”
Alexander spoke bewilderedly at the suddenly flipped perspective, then soon gently stroked the chin of Kalix who was staring at him intently.
“Treat me carefully, Geez.”
Even so, his gaze was quite relaxed. As if he would watch to see what he would do. Kalix first carefully interlocked fingers with Alexander’s hands. Then Alexander, as if unexpected, stared blankly at their hands for a moment.
“How modest.”
His face heated up at those words that fell as if he really thought so. Still, he wanted to hold hands, so Kalix didn’t let go of the hands he held and kissed him. Since he had asked to be treated carefully, he carefully and gently messed with the inside of that mouth and lightly tickled the root of his tongue, when suddenly laughter echoed from within. But Kalix couldn’t laugh.
When the usual accompanying laughter didn’t come, that laughter was quickly swallowed and disappeared. Kalix continued to intertwine tongues more deeply and, like Alexander had done, slowly moved his hands down to that body. First he stroked the well-defined jaw, then traced the neckline with his fingertips, passed the Adam’s apple, and reached the collarbone where he placed his palm widely.
“Sasha, I want to do this kind of thing only with you.”
Along with those words, Kalix bent down and buried his lips in Alexander’s neck. It felt like all his senses were paralyzed, and also like all his senses were excessively sharp. Kalix slightly stuck out his tongue to suck on that Adam’s apple, then slid his lips down.
When he bit the straight collarbone once weakly, that skin immediately flushed red. As if Kalix’s traces remained. A subtle sense of elation rose. A body that quickly reddened and left marks as Kalix did things to it. This time when he bit the shoulder and stroked that side with his hand, he could feel the muscles that touched his hand contract through the skin.
“Ah,”
Without realizing he had bared his teeth, at that voice that burst out briefly, Kalix raised his gaze. Alexander disheveled Kalix’s hair.
“Geez, are you trying to devour everything?”
“Yeah.”
Befitting those words, Kalix brought Alexander’s hand, which he had been holding, to his lips. When he bit those firm, round fingertips, he could feel a slight flinch. Then when he put them in his mouth and sucked, Alexander’s gaze immediately approached.
Alexander stretched out his other unbound hand and slowly traced from Kalix’s chest down to his hip bone with a groping touch. At that action of rubbing his cock over his underwear, Kalix kissed Alexander’s hand.
“Sasha, do you like me?”
“Yeah.”
Hearing those words while looking straight into his eyes, Kalix lowered his head again and this time lightly kissed that elbow, then moved his lips along the arm.
“I love you.”
“I know.”
When he eventually lowered his lips to the chest, he could feel the beating heart directly.
“You don’t sleep with people you don’t love.”
He seemed relaxed, but in reality, his rapidly beating heart was not that way at all.
“What about you?”
His pronunciation was muffled as he was kissing his way down those abs, but neither of them cared about such things.
“I love you.”
Kalix removed Alexander’s underwear and lightly scraped his knee with his teeth.
“Sasha, I just need you.”
Along with those words, his body was pulled.
“Geez, you’re really in trouble.”
When they kissed again, he could feel Alexander’s cock rubbing against around his thigh between their entangled legs. And also Alexander’s touch removing his underwear. Kalix rubbed their cocks together a few more times like that, then slowly moved his hand down to grope that lower abdomen with his fingertips. Even through his fingertips, he could feel the well-positioned muscles tightly contracted with excitement.
“Want to touch it?”
The voice mixed with breathing made the already sticky atmosphere a bit more lewd. Of course there was no way he would refuse. While kissing Alexander’s jaw and breathing heavily, Kalix carefully grasped in his hand the cock that touched around his thigh.
Kalix had already known its size even when pressing against it through clothes, but the weight filling his palm was undeniable. Just from the feel of it, he could tell it was straight, well-shaped. As he rubbed it broadly with his palm, Kalix finally lowered his gaze.
He’d known when grinding against it, and he’d been certain when gripping it with his hand—but seeing it directly was something else. It didn’t look particularly modest. And yet, it was beautiful. Kalix traced it with his fingertips, almost entranced.
Even the veins standing out along the lower abdomen and shaft were striking. When his fingers brushed lightly over the surface, the fully erect length twitched, down to the tensed thighs.
Kalix, spellbound, spread those thighs apart and dipped his head. He pressed a kiss to the prominent vein on the lower abdomen, then tried to take the shaft into his mouth—only for Alexander to jerk his leg up and shove Kalix back.
“Don’t.”
Kalix glared, unable to hide his frustration, and Alexander’s brow furrowed.
“I’m not the kind of guy who tells people to do that shit.”
Unfortunately, Kalix was that kind of guy. He pinned Alexander’s legs firmly in place, preventing him from pushing away, and took the shaft into his mouth.
“Fuck, don’t—”
Then he paused. How the hell do you even do this? Just shove it in and suck? But even getting it in was a struggle. He opened his mouth wider, dragging his lips down the length. Now what? He couldn’t take more. Should he pull back? But then why had he put it in at all? And now his jaw was starting to ache. When he glanced up at Alexander, the other man wore an exasperated, I-told-you-so look.
“See? Your jaw hurts.”
Stubborn, Kalix flicked his tongue against the tip inside his mouth. Alexander’s expression twisted.
Wasn’t this how you did it?
“Spit it out. Ptoo.”
Ignoring him, Kalix sucked lightly, and Alexander reached down to push at his head.
“Stop. Be good.”
Kalix finally released the shaft, but not without pressing a lingering kiss to the side. Alexander let out a dry laugh and pulled him up, positioning Kalix over him.
“Try it.”
Kalix, still sulking from being told not to do something and doing it anyway, parted his lips. Alexander slid a finger inside and pressed down on his tongue.
“You don’t even know how to suck properly—you’ll just hurt yourself.”
“Will you teach me?”
He gave the invading finger a experimental suck, and Alexander moved it, scraping lightly against the roof of his mouth.
“No.”
Did he really think Kalix would just pretend to know? Alexander, as if reading his thoughts, grabbed the back of his neck and yanked him closer.
“You’re good at sucking tongue. That’s enough.”
Following instructions, Kalix sought out Alexander’s tongue, sucking and rubbing, grinding his own erection against the other man’s thigh. God, I don’t know what I’m doing. All he knew was that it felt good—too good.
“Can I do more?”
Author: Hyacinthus B
Hyacinthus
