It had been nearly a month, so he wondered if his memory had been romanticized, but seeing it again in reality, the shape was even better than he remembered. Even the veins that stood out on the sides. When Kalix instinctively reached out his hand, Alexander caught Kalix’s hand with his own and stopped him. Alexander subtly caressed Kalix’s abs, then removed his underwear.
Not knowing what to do with his hands, just holding Alexander’s hands tightly for now, Alexander broadly stroked up Kalix’s erect cock with his palm and asked:
“CC, did you do it alone? During this time?”
At the unfamiliar stimulation, his waist instinctively stiffened. Alexander brought Kalix’s hand to his lips and licked his palm.
“What about you?”
“I did.”
The answer was quite clean, but his actions were anything but.
“While thinking of you.”
Ah, that’s too much. Kalix tried to press his body against him again urgently, but Alexander moved the hand that had been stroking his cock to press against Kalix’s lower abdomen, preventing him from getting closer.
“I would have helped if you’d told me.”
It was such a shame that he’d done it alone. Kalix could help well enough with something like using hands. He wanted to help wholeheartedly even now, but Alexander wouldn’t let Kalix touch him.
“You were too busy to even kiss properly, weren’t you?”
That hand leisurely stroked his abs as if tickling them.
“I thought you were hurt.”
Kalix looked at Alexander, unable to hide his gaze that was a mess from thirst, then briefly looked down. Taking in the sight of that cock that was still as erect as his own, he looked back at Alexander. Alexander, receiving Kalix’s gaze like that, brought his hand back to his cock.
“So, what about you?”
The slightly rough palm touched against skin.
“I did it.”
To be honest, Alexander let go of Kalix’s hand that he had licked and made him grasp his own cock with that hand.
“Show me.”
Kalix looked at Alexander somewhat awkwardly.
“By myself?”
“Yeah.”
“Why?”
Really, why? When they were together right now, why specifically do it alone? It was confusing. So he’d licked his palm to make him do this. But did he dislike doing it together? Whether such confusion showed clearly, Alexander stroked Kalix’s shoulder soothingly.
“I’m curious what you were thinking about when you did it.”
What thoughts he had? Obviously.
“You said you weren’t going to think about me originally. But now you say you do, so I’m curious.”
Kalix glanced at Alexander. At just enough distance that their bodies wouldn’t touch at all, that naked body was beneath him. This was exactly what he’d been thinking about. He’d always thought about Alexander. Before they were dating, he’d tried to erase such thoughts as much as possible since it was improper, but now that they were dating, he thought it would be okay.
“What were you thinking about?”
Besides, Alexander said he thought about Kalix too.
“You crying while kissing me.”
At that answer, Kalix paused for a moment. Wasn’t there something better? Why specifically that? But thinking about it, there wasn’t really a memory of not crying. He’d cried when kissing, and last time during sex too. But still, couldn’t he imagine it as if that didn’t happen? Since it was imagination anyway, did he have to add even the crying part when thinking about it? Besides, if we’re being precise, there were far more times when he didn’t cry while kissing.
Kalix glanced at Alexander cautiously, then gently placed his hand on his lower abdomen. If he was just curious about that, then it should be okay to do it together, right? If he didn’t dislike doing it together. Seeing that Alexander didn’t push him away, Kalix carefully grasped that cock in his hand.
“Hey, I told you to do yours.”
At those words that came with a quiet sigh, Kalix nodded while subtly lowering his body.
“Haven’t you ever thought about me sucking you?”
Wouldn’t he have thought about more than just kissing? We’ve already done more than that. If it wouldn’t hurt, wouldn’t he have thought about more? But at that question, Alexander, who had been languidly letting Kalix have his way with his body, suddenly stiffened as if startled.
“I haven’t, really.”
At the voice that became somewhat reluctant, Kalix also felt a bit ambiguous.
“Why?”
It was the same last time. Last time too, he’d said not to do that. While Kalix actually couldn’t do it, Alexander had told him not to even before Kalix failed to do it.
“Hey, why do you want to do that so badly?”
“You,”
At that voice that sounded like he truly couldn’t understand, Kalix suddenly felt choked up.
“You said that.”
Could Alexander not remember?
“You said you were confident it wouldn’t get hard even if I sucked you.”
He was the one who said that. Alexander definitely said that. He said he was confident he wouldn’t get excited even if Kalix undressed to suck him. Saying it wouldn’t even get hard for Kalix anyway. Alexander seemed to finally remember what he’d said, falling silent for a moment.
“I didn’t say it wouldn’t get hard if you sucked me, I said it wouldn’t get hard even if you said that.”
But that answer wasn’t satisfying at all from Kalix’s perspective.
“Either way, it means the same thing.”
Even now it was hard, but still, he wouldn’t get that excited? It wasn’t to that degree with Kalix? So that’s why last time wasn’t great either? Was doing it alone better? Kalix felt good just from touching Alexander, but did Alexander need something a bit more skilled?
“I get hard enough just from you not doing that.”
When Kalix just stared, Alexander pulled him close and spoke as if coaxing.
“Hey, I misspoke. I’m sorry. Let’s forget it, okay?”
Alexander was even treating Kalix like a child and soothing him despite both of them being naked on the bed right now.
“Did you really think that back then? That it wouldn’t get hard even if I sucked you?”
Then what about now? Now it got hard, but still, it wasn’t that good?
“It’s not like that, hey. Even back then, if you’d sucked me, it would have gotten hard.”
If he’d sucked him? It would have gotten hard? But did that mean it wouldn’t have been very good? When Kalix just stared quietly, Alexander finally asked.
“So, you want to do it?”
At that question that followed, Kalix nodded. This time he felt like he could really do it well. From now on, far from not getting hard even if sucked, he hoped Alexander would look forward to it just from saying he’d suck him. He really felt like he could do it well.
“Hey, you’re really going to do it?”
That voice was actually closer to dissuasion than a question. That made him want to do it even more.
“Yeah.”
When he answered firmly, Alexander glanced down.
“It’s already hard, so there’s no need.”
“Still.”
Last time, even after climaxing, he’d said it wasn’t great. So just because it was hard didn’t mean it was necessarily good. Alexander seemed at a loss for words at Kalix’s quite resolute attitude, just watching him, and when he showed no signs of changing his mind, seemed to be pondering.
“Then really just a little. Just a little. Okay?”
At that ambiguous permission that finally came, Kalix immediately kissed Alexander’s cheek and lowered his body.
“Yeah.”
At that immediate answer, Alexander pulled Kalix up with a rather complicated expression.
“Say ‘ah.'”
Thinking he might try to stop him, Kalix shut his mouth tight and shook his head, but Alexander kissed the corner of his mouth.
“I’ll teach you, so just do what I say. Okay?”
“Yeah.”
When he obediently opened his mouth since it didn’t seem like he was trying to stop him, Alexander inserted two fingers into it and pressed down firmly on his tongue.
“Can you suck?”
When he nodded and sucked the fingers, the fingers rubbed his lips while going a bit deeper.
“Don’t go too deep, just as far as you can. Never push yourself.”
The fingers came in slowly, pressing his tongue, and this much was fine.
“If you don’t think you can wrap it with your tongue, don’t worry about it. Not getting hurt is most important.”
Since he naturally wanted to be mindful of it, when he wrapped those fingers with his tongue as if sucking them, Alexander this time lightly touched the flesh inside his cheek.
“I don’t know if this is a good idea.”
Scratching his palate as he pulled out his fingers, at those words, Kalix quickly went down while answering, afraid he might stop him.
Author: Hyacinthus B
Hyacinthus
