Chapter 150
Fei smiled. Seeing his eyes filled with affection made Luwen feel like he might cry. Fei, who embraced even his despicable inner thoughts… was so lovable.
‘…So this is love. I’m in love with him.’
The source of his desire to monopolize someone he shouldn’t dare covet was love. He hadn’t known until now, never feeling the need to put a name to his emotions. Fei was at the center of Luwen’s world, and that alone made him happy.
Realizing it was love, guilt washed over him. He should cherish him more. He shouldn’t desire him this way. He couldn’t defile him because of mere physiological urges.
“I won’t put it in.”
Luwen gently whispered as he caressed Fei’s cheek. But suddenly, Fei began to cry. These weren’t tears of pleasure. He clearly looked sad.
“Why…? Do you not like me? Am I dirty?”
“No! How could you say that? For your sake—”
“If it’s for my sake, then put it in. Please put it in.”
Fei tightened his legs wrapped around Luwen’s waist, pulling him closer. Despite Luwen’s attempts to endure and pull back. Instead, he was being seduced. How could he resist this?
“You’ll regret it.”
“I won’t regret it.”
It was a firm conviction. Had he perhaps regained his senses? But his eyes remained unfocused, still hazy.
Wiping away the falling tears with his hand, Luwen pressed his hips against Fei’s. The entrance twitched against his tip.
Thrust-
Though knowing he was being hasty, Luwen penetrated Fei’s body in one go. He couldn’t hold back any longer.
“Hnngh!”
Perhaps because he forcibly spread the narrow inner walls, his dick felt painfully tight. With the sensation of hot pressure squeezing around him, Luwen felt like he might climax immediately.
“Hah, try to relax a bit.”
“My stomach feels, so, full… Hnng, it’s hard…”
Fei scratched at his own stomach. He seemed unaware that such actions made things even more intense.
Worried he might hurt himself, Luwen grabbed his wrists and raised them. At the same time, he moved his hips gently. He pulled his dick halfway out, then pushed back in while rubbing against the inner walls, searching for the spot that would make Fei feel good.
“Mmm, ah, AH!”
The tightly clinging inner walls suddenly trembled and convulsed. Having quickly found Fei’s sensitive spot, Luwen stroked it with his tip as he thrust in and out.
Squelch- squelch-
Wet sounds echoed each time his dick entered and exited. Luwen teased Fei’s chest with his tongue while continuing to move his hips.
Fei’s body shook. Helpless and forlorn, having lost all control to him. It was unbearably beautiful. He didn’t want anyone else to see it. If anyone other than himself saw Fei like this, he would gouge out their eyes.
“Ah, hnng, wait- AAHH!”
Perhaps due to the persistent stimulation of his sensitive spot, Fei’s gasping grew louder. His disheveled black hair stuck to his skin. Even that was sensual.
“I’m, going to, hah, HNG!”
THRUST-!
Luwen pulled his dick out to the base, then drove it back in with one motion. At the same time, Fei climaxed. Seeing his thrown-back head and arched back, Luwen licked his lips. The inner walls tightly gripped his dick, then released, repeatedly, as if trying to wring out his seed.
Unable to endure, Luwen started moving his hips again. Surprised, Fei flailed his hands while trembling.
“I just, came- ah, hik!”
“The drug’s effects are still present.”
Gripping Fei’s waist tightly to prevent escape, Luwen continued thrusting. Slap, slap. The sound of flesh hitting flesh was loud.
With each movement, Fei’s dick bounced against his stomach, which was already soiled with his own fluid. Clear liquid oozed from the tip of his still erect dick.
Luwen reached out and rubbed Fei’s stomach. The sticky fluid spread across his abdomen. The feeling of his own dick’s movements transmitted through the thin skin of Fei’s stomach was unbearably good. Wanting to feel that sensation more, he pressed down firmly on the stomach, causing Fei to grab his arm with both hands and shake his head.
“That, not, ah, AH!”
“Does it feel bad?”
“No, it’s good, too, too good… hik!”
His forearm stung. Fei’s nails had left marks on his body. Even that satisfied Luwen. Though it was just a moment, it felt like he completely possessed this person. His whole body tingled.
Fei, struggling beneath him, was a more potent aphrodisiac than any stimulant. Luwen kissed his reddened lips.
“Mmph, mm, mph!”
He inserted his tongue between the lips that opened too easily. He sought out and entangled Fei’s retreating tongue, rubbing against it. Even the hands beating his shoulders, perhaps because breathing was difficult, felt erotic.
“Hah, huff, haah…”
“May I do it once more?”
Though Fei clearly looked exhausted, Luwen asked while rubbing his cheek against him affectionately as he caught his breath. Fei nodded.
‘Stop giving permission. What if I devour you with my greed?’
He felt like Fei would still smile brightly even if he kidnapped and imprisoned him somewhere isolated. Because Fei would be certain Luwen wouldn’t hurt him. Yet perhaps Luwen was the most dangerous person to him.
“Young master, be wary of me.”
“Haah, mm, mmm…”
Instead of being cautious as instructed, why was he burrowing deeper into his arms? Luwen stroked his beloved young master’s hair and began moving his hips again.
Thrust! Thrust! Thrust!
Fei’s cries of pleasure as he trembled with ecstasy gave Luwen satisfaction.
“Ahh-”
Fei climaxed again. Luwen held onto his convulsing body and continued moving his hips. Until Fei finally lost consciousness, Luwen handled him according to his own desires.
‘…It’s not enough.’
He wanted to indulge more. He didn’t want this time to end.
But he couldn’t keep holding onto Fei, who had collapsed from exhaustion. Luwen left a deep kiss, as deep as his regret, then got up to clean everything up.
* * *
My head throbbed. It felt like a hangover after drinking cheap, strong alcohol. The moment I tossed and turned, clutching my aching head, my waist sent a stabbing pain. As I tilted my head at the strange sensation of both heaviness and refreshment—
‘More… give me more… feels, good, mmm, so gooood…’
I froze as the memory clearly surfaced. Like a dam breaking, everything that happened last night came rushing back.
Heat instantly rushed to my face. I buried my face in my hands and groaned.
‘I’ve gone crazy, completely crazy!’
I had planned to take things step by step, but suddenly all the middle stages were skipped, and we crossed the final line. And I was the one begging for it!
When the carriage door opened and Luwen wrapped his arm around my shoulder, I clung to him. Begging him to help me. It was as if I wasn’t myself. Trapped in a hazy veil, completely dominated by desire without any thought for the future.
Even though it was because of the stimulant, I was disappointed in myself for not being able to endure it.
…Yet I had some expectations. I wondered if this incident might change my relationship with Luwen.
The repeated “I like it” I murmured like confessions while caught in intense physical desire clearly contained my feelings for Luwen.
‘He’s perceptive, so he might have noticed.’
Somehow I ended up confessing first, but Luwen clearly accepted me. It didn’t seem like just an act to remove the drug’s effects.
‘Though there was something a bit unsettling…’
‘Young master, be wary of me.’
What did he mean by that? I didn’t understand why I should be wary of Luwen. At the time, I was lost in vague pleasure and couldn’t speak properly, so I just hugged him.
‘Maybe I don’t need to worry about it. He was gentle…’
He embraced me and stroked my head. He kissed my forehead while delving deep inside me.
Perhaps by that point, the drug’s effects had worn off. But I couldn’t tell whether the source of my excitement was the drug or Luwen as I floundered in the pleasure he gave me. In truth, I didn’t care either way.
‘Come to think of it, my body is clean, and my hair has returned to its original color.’
I fiddled with my long silver hair as I became lost in thought.
I didn’t remember the end clearly. I was shaken endlessly and seemed to have climaxed several times. Then at some point, my memory cut off. Whether I fainted or fell asleep from exhaustion. What’s certain is that I gave out first.
‘Luwen must have washed me.’
I sighed deeply while fanning my hot, embarrassed face. I wanted to see Luwen soon, but also wanted to be alone a bit longer. But the desire to see him was slightly stronger, so I moved to find him.
However, the moment I got off the bed, my knees buckled, and I collapsed.
“Ugh.”
A sharp pain shot through my lower body. I tapped my aching waist, then used the bed as support to stand up. My legs were shaking.
‘This is harder than I thought.’
But thinking this was the beginning of a change in our relationship made me happy. Honestly, it felt good too.
‘I want to… do it again next time.’
Those dark eyes filled with passion, eyebrows furrowed in pleasure, rough breathing, low moans, wet voice…
I wanted to see that again. I wanted to experience that time when Luwen was completely lost in me, unable to think straight.
‘I might be quite a lustful person.’
Feeling embarrassed alone, I cleared my throat with a “Ahem,” and then heard the door open with a creak. When I reflexively turned my head, there stood the person I was thinking about.
oh my god , what a chapter
so it happened and Luwen is now sure that’s love what he feels, this was perfect, it showed those darker sides of Lu and how he matches Fei in that aspect.
im glad Fei immediately understood what it meant for also Luwen to get this far with him, i just hope Luwen doesn’t try to complicate this any longer or I’ll cry let my beautiful Fei finally get with him!!