Chapter 203
“T-this is a bit…”
“I can’t see well from here.”
Luwen pleaded as he rubbed his cock against my bottom. It seemed like it would properly enter me, but instead it slid between the cleft of my buttocks. My toes curled at the tingling sensation of wanting to greedily knead my bottom.
“Is it not working?”
“Ah… just a moment. Let me try…”
I reached down, feeling around until I touched Luwen’s thick, hard erection. When I grasped it firmly, a pleased moan escaped his throat.
“Haah.”
My heart pounded at the sight of his flushed cheeks and seductive gaze. Quickly, I wanted to make him feel even better. I wanted Luwen to be crazy about me. I hoped his feelings for me would never cool. Like someone addicted to me, I wanted him to love only me, look only at me, forever.
‘Would he be frightened if he knew my thoughts?’
Or would he willingly accept even these heavy feelings? I’d prefer the latter, I thought as I aligned his cock with my entrance and lowered my hips. But at the hot, slick sensation, my entrance reflexively tightened and he slipped out.
Luwen let out a shallow moan and frowned. Seeing his impatient expression, I felt a bit mischievous and raised my hips slightly before lowering them, repeating the same tease.
‘Ah, he’s frowning again.’
I never realized that a face showing restraint could look so erotic. Since I’d been swept away in the moment before, I found it quite enjoyable to see these expressions I hadn’t witnessed until now.
“Are you doing this on purpose?”
Luwen gripped my pelvis firmly, looking up with one eye squinted.
“You caught me.”
“I’m getting desperate. Please hurry and let me inside you, young master.”
Luwen whispered while nibbling my earlobe with his lips. His intention to seduce me was too obvious. The problem was that it worked too well.
His voice, mixed with heat, sounded just like a moan, making the back of my neck tingle. I swallowed dryly and hunched my shoulders at the dizzying sensation.
“Please? Hurry.”
Now he was even pleading with an affectionate voice. I thought about teasing him more, but an idea crossed my mind, and I smiled slyly.
“Call me Fei. Then I’ll properly put this inside me.”
I tapped his cock with my fingers while gripping it, and Luwen’s thing grew even larger.
‘…Could this get any bigger?’
I briefly wondered if I’d made a mistake, but my desire to hear him say my name comfortably was greater. Since he had received the honorary title of Duke, making his status higher than mine, he could call me by name, after all.
‘The nobles who value bloodlines might disapprove, but that’s not me.’
Especially when it comes to Luwen.
But I couldn’t understand why he was hesitating so much.
“Come on, Duke.”
“…What if I can’t control myself once I become too familiar with the young master?”
I tickled under his chin like one would do to a cat and said:
“What’s there to control? I’ll take all of you.”
“You might collapse.”
“Then Luwen can take care of me. Bathe me, feed me, put me to bed.”
Despite going this far, Luwen still shook his head reluctantly.
“I don’t want to create that situation in the first place.”
Why is he so stubborn!
I just want to hear him call my name affectionately. If we’re equal lovers, shouldn’t we naturally call each other by name?
“Even if that’s what I want?”
“That’s…”
“How long must I remain ‘young master’ to you?”
I changed tactics, deliberately putting on a sad expression and avoiding his gaze. I felt a bit of regret about doing this while half-naked, but if I couldn’t hear my name even now, I couldn’t imagine when I would.
“I want to be Fei, not young master. Luwen.”
“I never meant to upset you.”
Luwen tilted his head and kissed my cheek.
“I just worried about burdening you.”
“It hurts me more when you keep drawing lines between us.”
“I’m not drawing lines—”
“That’s how it feels to me.”
When I abruptly cut him off, he looked at me with confused eyes. Seeing me grimace as if hurt, he seemed to wonder if his judgment was wrong, so I continued:
“And be honest. Can you really control yourself by calling me ‘young master’?”
“…Perhaps.”
I gave a haughty look at the uncertain Luwen, who cleared his throat awkwardly. This seemed to prove his stubbornness was unnecessary.
“Then just do what makes me happy. If you call me by my name, I’ll be twice as happy as I am now.”
Luwen’s eyes wavered, and then he smiled faintly. His kind eyes held a familiar meaning. I’m not sure why, but he must find me cute right now.
“You might regret it.”
Taking this as a positive sign, I quickly brightened my expression and declared confidently:
“I won’t regret it.”
“Is that so?”
“Of course.”
He doesn’t seem to understand how heavy the feeling of being willing to die for someone is. Just as my past self did, my present self is no different. But I swallowed those words, fearing the conversation would become too serious.
“Will you call me by my name now?”
“Fe…”
Luwen, who closed his mouth midway, flushed with embarrassment and cleared his throat repeatedly. I understood that first experiences are always difficult.
“Ahem. It feels a bit awkward.”
“Then is there something Luwen wants to hear from me? We’ll tell each other what we want to hear. How about that?”
“I want to hear you say that you love me.”
The request he blurted out without thinking was quite unexpected. I thought I had expressed my feelings enough, but to think he wanted to hear those words.
‘It’s not difficult, so I can certainly do it.’
I lifted Luwen’s chin and tilted my head. Our lips met. Through narrowed eyelids, I could see his dark eyes gazing intently at me.
“I love you.”
“Mmh.”
Luwen wrapped his arms around my waist and buried his forehead in my shoulder. I gently stroked his head and whispered:
“Your reaction is strange. Like someone hearing it for the first time.”
“It still overwhelms me that you are mine and that we are lovers. It feels like I’m having a dream beyond my station.”
“I’ll say it often. So it feels like reality, not a dream.”
Luwen looked genuinely happy when he raised his head. Seeing him happy made me feel good too, and as we smiled at each other, he let out a small exclamation as if realizing something.
“Ah. So this is how it feels. Young mas— no, Fei.”
“…Huh?”
“Just as hearing ‘I love you’ gives me overwhelming emotion, I just realized that’s what being called by your name means to you.”
“Yes… that’s right. I really wanted to hear it. You calling my name.”
Very long ago, in the first life I saw in fragments, I was also begging him to call me by my name. And finally, I was no longer “young master” to him.
“Now it feels… like we’re truly lovers.”
My eyes stung inappropriately.
“I might make mistakes before getting used to it, but I’ll try my best to call you by name.”
“Yes, yes.”
I nodded and hugged Luwen tightly. He soothingly stroked my back.
“Now, Fei. It’s your turn to keep your promise.”
“Promise?”
“Have you forgotten? If I call you by name…”
The hand stroking my back slid down and grabbed my bottom.
“You said you’d properly put me inside.”
“Ah…”
“Honestly, my cock feels like it’s about to burst… Having just a conversation while you’re in front of me like this is torturous.”
I sneakily looked down. Unlike me, who had regained composure, Luwen’s cock was swollen as if its veins might burst. I involuntarily swallowed at its intimidating appearance.
‘Having climaxed twice already, I don’t feel as desperately eager as before, but since I promised…’
‘But now that my rationality has returned, this is… too embarrassing?’
I wonder how I managed to say such brazen things earlier. I must have become bold from being caught up in the moment.
“You’re not going to pretend you don’t remember, are you?”
“N-no, I remember… it’s just, I’m too embarrassed…”
My voice was so small it might have been buried in the carriage noise.
“Can’t Luwen do it today?”
However, I had no intention of neglecting Luwen, who was quite aroused after I alone had been satisfied, so I finished my sentence despite my embarrassment. While I worried about what to do if he refused, Luwen let out a small groan and pressed firmly on my back.
“…I can’t hold back anymore, so I suppose there’s no choice.”
My back arched, pushing my chest forward. As I inhaled in embarrassment, Luwen lightly bit my chest.
“Mmh.”
“Hold onto my shoulders.”
I closed my eyes tight and did as told, feeling his touch parting the cleft of my bottom. The way he probed at my entrance seemed like he was checking something.
“Fortunately, you’re still nice and loosened.”
“Do you have to say it like that?”
“You seem unaware, so I’m telling you.”
His finger entered my hole. I don’t understand why he’s using fingers again if I’m already loosened. I gripped his shoulders tighter at the uncomfortable foreign sensation.
“You need to know how arousing it is when you’re embarrassed like this.”
“I only show this… to you.”
Luwen seemed quite satisfied with my answer and smiled lightly. All the while, he diligently explored inside me.
Before long, I understood why he had inserted his fingers again.
“Ah, ugh. There…!”
He had precisely located the spot that made me feel good. As I trembled and whimpered, Luwen persistently rubbed that point. My whole body tensed and relaxed repeatedly. The excitement that had subsided began to rise again, and my cock started to regain its strength.
“Haa, mmh, ah, no. No fingers this time…”
“That’s not my intention either. If you climax again, I don’t think you’ll last until I finish.”
Author: Hyacinthus B
Hyacinthus
