Chapter 75
He was deeply lost in his thoughts. He could no longer hear Ki Seo-jung’s words in front of him.
Anyone who appeared on this show could meet Ki Seo-jung after filming if they wanted to. So why was he the only one who couldn’t meet Seo-jung? Because they had broken up? But then Seo-jung was meeting Shin Da-bin just fine.
Cha Yoon unknowingly clenched his fist. It felt so unfair. Yes, Cha Yoon felt wronged. The fact that he would never see Ki Seo-jung again after leaving this place.
Was that all? Even the “dirty act” Seo-jung had mentioned was the same. Seo-jung had singled him out, saying he would never do such things with Cha Yoon, drawing a clear line.
The unexpected whirlwind of emotions prevented him from thinking straight. Perhaps because of this, Cha Yoon couldn’t easily recall the words he had said to Ki Seo-jung in the past. In his confused mind, only Seo-jung’s words floated around.
“I believe I’ve said enough for Cha Yoon-ssi to understand.”
While Cha Yoon was struggling with his thoughts, Seo-jung, who had finished saying what he wanted to say, took a deep breath. He unnecessarily massaged his own shoulder. It meant that he was very tired from the conversation with Cha Yoon.
However, in the ensuing silence, Seo-jung’s head tilted slightly. As he was quietly staring at the bowed head showing only the crown, Seo-jung was about to slowly lower his hand from his shoulder.
“…Why not?”
“I didn’t hear you clearly. What did you say?”
Unable to understand the quiet mumbling, Seo-jung looked down at Cha Yoon. As if feeling Seo-jung’s gaze, Cha Yoon raised his face.
Cha Yoon’s eyes were bloodshot. Why are his eyes like this? Just as Seo-jung frowned at the strangeness, Cha Yoon spoke.
“I asked why not me.”
“What? What do you mean why not…”
“When you were nice to women you’d just met, when you acted like you’d give your liver and gall to your ex-girlfriend, I was annoyed and it felt shitty, but I endured it. I thought you’d given up on that homo stuff. But today, you did that thing with Park Woo-jun, that bastard!”
“…”
“If it’s not because I’m an ex, and it’s not because I’m a man, then why the hell am I the only one you won’t do it with?”
“…”
“Why did you firmly state that you wouldn’t do that kind of thing only with me?”
After spewing out words without pause, Cha Yoon glared at Seo-jung standing in front of him, breathing heavily. What is he saying to me now? Although they were clearly speaking the same language, it was hard to interpret, like listening to a foreigner speaking in a different tongue.
However, one thing was certain. It was dangerous to be alone with Cha Yoon in this space right now. Those blazing red eyes, looking like they might explode at any moment, were telling him that fact.
“Um, I’m sorry, but I really can’t understand what Cha Yoon-ssi is saying right now. So let’s go out first…”
Unlike before, Seo-jung tried to soothe Cha Yoon with a gentle voice. But it was unlikely to work on the already highly agitated Cha Yoon.
“Do it with me too.”
Cha Yoon stepped closer to Seo-jung. The already close distance between the two suddenly became even closer. They were close enough to feel each other’s breath.
“That dirty act, let’s do it together.”
With those words, Cha Yoon suddenly crashed his lips against Seo-jung’s. There was no time to avoid it. Despite not matching the words that turned his insides upside down every day, a soft and tender sensation was felt on his lips.
Cha Yoon opened his mouth and sucked on Seo-jung’s lips. That was the beginning. He bit and sucked loudly on Seo-jung’s lips as if they were fruit flesh in his mouth.
After abusing Seo-jung’s lips for a while, Cha Yoon frowned as if something was lacking. His tongue, which had been moving along the line of Seo-jung’s lips, suddenly reached between them. Only then did he realize what he wanted. He needed to wedge between this gap. Only then could he swallow all the saliva moistening Ki Seo-jung’s mouth.
Cha Yoon pushed his hot tongue between Seo-jung’s teeth, strengthening his grip on Seo-jung’s jaw to get what he wanted. Seo-jung, who had been biting and sucking on his lips, instinctively pushed back Cha Yoon’s shoulders and stepped backward at the movement of the unfamiliar intruder invading his mouth.
But that was all. Cha Yoon grabbed Seo-jung’s waist with one hand and pulled his nape. At the same time, all of Seo-jung’s movements stopped. This was one of the habits Cha Yoon had developed over the past 7 years. There wasn’t much Seo-jung could do when faced with a habit that remained like a trace in his former lover who had lost his memory.
When he no longer felt the force pushing him away, Cha Yoon tilted his head to the opposite side and pushed his tongue in deeper. Ki Seo-jung helplessly yielded his mouth to Cha Yoon. Every time Cha Yoon’s tongue moved, a sloppy sound brushed past their ears.
He entwined his tongue in the same way he had firmly grasped Seo-jung’s body. When he strongly sucked on Seo-jung’s immobilized tongue, his body reacted faithfully, and sticky saliva pooled under his tongue. Cha Yoon, like someone who had discovered an oasis, hurriedly inserted his tongue underneath and kept swallowing Seo-jung’s saliva.
After their tongues were entangled for a while, the tightly pressed lips separated. Haa, haa… Rough and hot breaths flowed between the two people’s lips.
Cha Yoon looked at Seo-jung with a face that had become even redder than before. Among the two making eye contact, Cha Yoon was the first to speak. He slowly moved his lips, glistening with saliva.
“…I misspoke.”
Once again, what came out of his mouth was incomprehensible to Seo-jung. When there was no response from Seo-jung, Cha Yoon hastily added.
“I take back what I said about doing it with me too.”
“…”
“Now, do it only with me.”
Although he tried to keep his voice steady, he couldn’t hide the trembling. Seo-jung felt that tremor carried through the air and slowly closed and opened his eyes.
“…Let’s do this, not with anyone else, but only with me.”
Anxious at the lack of a quick response, Cha Yoon urged once more for an answer. But still, there was no reply from Seo-jung. Cha Yoon bit his swollen lips hard and spoke in a more brusque voice.
“Why aren’t you saying anything?”
“…”
“When someone asks you something, you should answer.”
“…Do you understand what you’re saying right now, Cha Yoon-ssi?”
At Seo-jung’s voice, lower than usual, Cha Yoon flinched for a moment and then frowned deeply. Having finally received an answer like this, Cha Yoon couldn’t be pleased.
“Am I an idiot? Not knowing what I’m saying.”
At the rather sharp tone, Seo-jung rubbed the inside of his mouth with his tongue. He lowered his eyes. Seo-jung was just as disoriented. He couldn’t think straight due to the enormous event that had occurred so suddenly.
To regain his senses, he needed to get out of this space first. And then organize his complicated thoughts somewhere without Cha Yoon…
“Hey.”
It was Cha Yoon’s voice that cut off his lengthy thoughts. Seo-jung raised his eyes. Cha Yoon’s clouded eyes came into his view.
Soon, Seo-jung couldn’t help but frown. It was because he noticed that Cha Yoon’s gaze was fixed exactly on his lips. Seo-jung bit and released his lips, which had become swollen and sore like Cha Yoon’s, as if trying to hide them.
“Let’s go out first. Outside…”
“Let’s do a little more.”
“…What on earth are you saying?”
“Earlier, I was too breathless to do more even though I wanted to. Now I think I know how to do it. So let’s do a little more.”
“…”
“Please?”
When he heard the pleading voice, Seo-jung felt his words getting stuck. It was because a forgotten memory surfaced again.
‘Let’s stop now…’
‘Just one more time, Seo-jung. Okay?’
‘Do you know how many times you’ve said that? I’m tired, Yoon-ah.’
‘Were you tired? Alright. From now on, I’ll take care of everything, so you just stay still.’
‘…’
‘Baby, okay?’
‘…’
‘Hyung, please…’
‘…This is really the last time.’
It was always like this. Whenever Cha Yoon clung to him with a soft voice saying “please,” even his firmly set mind would crumble helplessly. Responding to Cha Yoon’s pleading tone. This was an input value engraved during the 7 years Ki Seo-jung had been with Cha Yoon. It was inevitable, even if it was the Cha Yoon who had lost his memories.
Cha Yoon, who had been closely examining Seo-jung’s expression, instinctively sensed that this was his opportunity. It was an animal instinct.
He carefully lifted Seo-jung’s chin. As his face lifted without resistance, his lips, now dry and red from irritation, were clearly visible.
Cha Yoon licked his lower lip and swallowed hard. He couldn’t help but salivate at the sight of the reddened lips that had been bitten and sucked by him. He spoke in a low, husky voice.
“Your lips are really red now. They look very painful.”
“…”
“You know you’re supposed to put saliva on painful spots, right?”
“…”
“Since you don’t know how to take care of yourself…, I’ll apply it for you. So don’t refuse.”
Shouldn’t you apply ointment, not saliva, to painful areas? A silly thought crossed Seo-jung’s mind given the situation at hand. Meanwhile, Cha Yoon lowered his head as if faithfully trying to keep his word.
Seo-jung felt the shadow falling over his face gradually expanding. After staring for a long time at Cha Yoon’s face approaching him without blinking, Seo-jung slowly closed his eyes.
Not long after, their lips met again.
