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We returned to the mansion without incident and after exchanging greetings, scattered to our respective rooms.
‘I should sleep early today.’
I soaked my body in warm water to relieve fatigue and finished preparing for bed. Now I was planning to read a book for a bit before sleeping.
But not long after I leaned against the bed headboard and opened my book, I heard a knock-knock at the door.
“Come in.”
I wondered who it was, but the one peeking their head through the door crack was Cedric. Well… actually, I had thought that at this hour, he would be the only one who might come looking for me.
“Eddie, can I come in?”
“You’re going to come in even if I say no.”
“How did you know?”
Then he slipped sideways through the door crack, quietly closed the door, and smiled mischievously at me. It was behavior that didn’t match his build, but I don’t know why it looked cute.
I felt like the corners of my mouth might unconsciously turn up, so I bit my lower lip to control it and closed my book. Cedric, who had approached beside me, sat on the edge of the bed.
“…So why did you come?”
“I kept thinking about you and couldn’t fall asleep.”
I had originally planned to sleep early, but suddenly I was completely awake. Whatever the case, we ended up in the same situation.
Cedric glanced at me cautiously and asked.
“Can’t I… sleep with you tonight?”
I thought about it for a moment.
What was clear was that I didn’t dislike it. Thanks to the fact that much of my denial of the situation had disappeared after learning that Cedric liked me, I didn’t feel uncomfortable or anxious even hearing him express his feelings so openly.
“If you don’t want me to, I’ll go back quietly.”
Rather, when Cedric took a step back like that, I felt a strange impatience. I indirectly held him back.
“No. Since you came, just stay.”
“Is it okay?”
“Yeah. Well, it’s not like I dislike it.”
Soon Cedric, who smiled by pulling up the corners of his mouth, crawled up onto the bed, so I moved aside a little to make room. After sliding his body under the covers, he looked up at me and asked again.
“Can I hold you?”
“…Yeah.”
After getting permission, he wrapped his strong arms around my waist. Then he pressed his forehead and cheeks against my hip area and rubbed against me, and for a moment my senses were drawn there, making me feel awkward.
“Eddie… you smell good.”
“D-do I? It’s probably because I used scented oil when bathing.”
I opened my book again to suppress the subtle emotions. Just when I thought Cedric, who had been quietly breathing while holding me in a comfortable position, had already fallen asleep, he mumbled and continued speaking.
“Aren’t you sleeping? Are you going to read more before sleeping?”
Those words dug deep into my ears.
I couldn’t read the book I was trying to read… I belatedly realized that all my attention was directed toward Cedric.
“…No. I should just sleep too.”
Ugh, what reading could I do in this situation? The white things looked like paper and the black things looked like squiggly letters. In the end, after not being able to read even a single line properly and closing the book again, when I wriggled my body under the covers, Cedric loosened the arm he had around my waist.
As I fidgeted looking for a comfortable position and turned to lie on my side, our faces came close together. I could feel pheromones flowing from Cedric before they faded and disappeared.
Somehow the atmosphere became awkward.
…Maybe I shouldn’t have turned to face this direction.
I avoided his gaze by rolling my eyes around and then dropping them down. Soon feeling embarrassed, I pulled the covers up to hide my face. With the covers creating even a flimsy barrier between us, I felt like I could breathe.
“I want to see your face, why are you covering it?”
“Just go to sleep quickly.”
No answer came back from Cedric.
After a moment, he gently stroked my hair covering my forehead. Somehow, the inside of my chest felt ticklish.
I was just blinking my eyes inside the covers while feeling that soft sensation when suddenly I felt movement approaching.
Then…
Smooch.
An appropriate weight pressed against my forehead and fell away.
At that moment, I quietly drew in an empty breath.
Even though I couldn’t properly see what had touched and pulled away, the place where contact was made was heating up hot as a fireball.
The problem was that the shape of Cedric’s lips that I usually saw came to mind, and the image of that mouth sucking my cock, the sight of him looking up at me, passed through my head one by one…
‘Ugh.’
Blood rushed downward.
Of all the things to remember, it had to be that.
I could tell without anyone saying that my face must be bright red. My heart was pounding so hard inside my head instead of a brain that it felt like it might explode at any moment.
‘This is driving me crazy.’
It was a trivial contact. But it was also true that it was an unfamiliar touch I’d never experienced with anyone other than my parents in my life.
Was it because I had no immunity to this kind of thing? It was just a kiss, but I somewhat resented my lower half for reacting to every little thing.
“Your ears turned red.”
When Cedric, who had been whispering softly, poked my earlobe with his fingertip, I covered my ears with the blanket too.
“Cute.”
If he knew about my lower situation, it wouldn’t be cute.
‘Phew.’
I struggled internally trying to calm down somehow.
It was true that the order of our relationship was already twisted, but since I had resolved to think seriously, I absolutely didn’t want to do anything sexual until my feelings toward Cedric became certain.
I shouldn’t do it.
I wanted to get close to him step by step. And since I hadn’t even decided the direction of my heart yet, if I only showed that I wanted this kind of thing, wouldn’t that be rude to Cedric who liked me with sincere feelings…
“Eddie.”
Suddenly, Cedric’s low, soft voice burrowed into my ears. My shoulders hunched from the ticklish sensation.
“If I said I wanted to… do sexual things with you, would you hate it?”
The moment I heard those words, I snapped back to my senses.
No. Should I say I lost my mind?
‘Oh, then should we just do it?’
Because I suddenly had that thought.
It wasn’t something that couldn’t happen.
If Cedric was in the same state as me, we’d already caused plenty of trouble between us, so one or two more incidents wouldn’t change anything… right?
‘No, I can’t! I shouldn’t waver now.’
I’m not a beast who only lusts after this guy. It’s not like I said I’d think seriously just because I wanted his body…
“My cock feels like it’s going to burst right now.”
“……”
Right after that, something snapped in my head. At Cedric’s complaint, I felt a strong desire to pretend not to know and let it slide.
…In the end, I was defeated by his final murmur.
Even knowing that all of this was self-rationalization.
‘Haa.’
When I revealed my eyes from under the covers, Cedric smiled with slightly curved eyes. His eyes, deeper than before, were looking directly at me without wavering.
“Can I pull back the covers?”
I was too embarrassed to death to answer, so I just pushed the covers toward Cedric as if handing them over. Cedric, who gently pulled them away, wrapped his arms around the back of my head and pressed his body close to mine.
When our groins bumped together, I involuntarily shivered. I could feel the heavy, taut swelling touching mine.
“……”
Realizing that I wasn’t the only one who had reacted, heat rushed up to my neck. Because of the fact that my condition had been completely exposed, I couldn’t even lift my face from embarrassment.
“…Is it okay if I touch you?”
“…Y-yeah.”
Soon, a large, hot hand reached down below. I unconsciously became anxious and chewed on my lower lip. The dull sensation rising from below felt good.
…Is it really okay to do this?
A handful of reason cried out lonely in my head.
But that was only for a moment.
“Hng, hmm…”
When the hand that had pulled down my pants touched my cock, a thrilling sensation like electricity shot up my spine and my head went blank.
My cock, caught in his hand, became fully erect and stuck up against my navel. Each ridge of the palm’s fingerprints slowly stroking up the shaft came as stimulation, gradually making me itch with need.
“How is even your cock this pretty?”
“I-I don’t know. Don’t say things like that.”
He said my cock was pretty before too. As I pressed my forehead firmly against his chest while burying my rough breathing, Cedric soon pulled his own out from inside his pants.
His hard, swollen, thick, large cock stuck its head out and touched mine. Glancing down below, I realized anew that there was quite a size difference between his and my cock.
The flesh shaft that stretched straight without any curves, with veins protruding all over it, looked at a glance like a well-made divine sculpture.
…Is this the second time I’m seeing it properly?
No. When we had our accident in the cabin, I was so caught up in the chaos that I didn’t have time to leisurely observe.
It would be fair to say this is the first time I’m properly seeing Cedric’s thing. Suddenly I had a wicked curiosity.
‘Would it be okay if I… touched his?’
Author: Hyacinthus B
Hyacinthus
