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“Ngh…!”
Then Cedric pressed down firmly on the glans. As the glans that had been stirring under the pants touched the hem of his trousers, it gradually became wet with a dark color.
As the weight of reason and desire gradually flipped, even though my head was thinking this shouldn’t happen, my will to resist wasn’t growing – it was actually shrinking.
Was I someone this weak to pleasure? Why on earth did being touched by a man’s hands feel good…
My head was in chaos. It felt like my identity, which I had firmly built up since being born into this world, was being shaken.
The truth was, I couldn’t tell exactly whether it was because the other person was Cedric, or if I was really okay with men too. My head was hot and dizzy.
“Hey… hey, really… stop…”
“Stop? Is that okay?”
“Ngh…”
“I don’t think so.”
Cedric’s low voice murmured with a hint of laughter. That way of speaking was really annoying, but I was angry at myself for not being able to deny it.
“You can depend on me.”
If you’re really embarrassed, just close your eyes. Adding that whisper, Cedric pulled down my pants. The outside air touched my bare skin, making my body naturally shrink. I was suddenly scared that if we went any further, it would really become irreversible.
Yet as if bewitched by something, just like that day we caused trouble, my body wanting those large hands felt like it wasn’t mine.
Is it okay to do this with this guy? Really? He’s helping with something like this? I’m not even in rut or heat cycle.
‘Why.’
We’re friends.
I thought we had finally… become real friends. And why am I reacting to that bastard of all people. I’m crazy.
‘Damn.’
My head swelled with complex entanglements. But the moment Cedric stealthily grasped the shaft and rubbed the reddened glans with his thumb, all the complex thoughts instantly evaporated and disappeared.
“Ah, ngh…”
It felt like being struck by lightning. A raw sensation completely different from rubbing over cloth ran tingling down my spine.
I surrendered to the compulsion that pleasure brought.
To hold onto reason and endure was, damn it, too good.
If it came to this, it wasn’t that my will was weak – it was that Cedric was persistently playing with his hands, so I had no choice but to be dragged along.
Having shifted the blame like that, I pushed other complex thoughts to a corner of my heart.
Right now, I just wanted to come.
Lukewarm pre-cum kept flowing, making the shaft slippery, so the friction area became even more sensitively heated – it was maddening.
But the hand stroking the shaft was particularly slow, making me impatient. I couldn’t stand it anymore and overlapped my hand with his.
“Hah… f-faster…”
“Want to come?”
“Yes! I want to come, so hurry up, ngh…”
Then Cedric pushed my hand aside and spread two fingers like scissors, scratching both sides of the shaft up and down.
The curved part of the glans kept catching on the tightly squeezing fingers, feeling exactly like going in and out of a narrow passage.
“Haah, ngh…”
My toes curled naturally at the pleasant sensation. I took a deep breath and moved my hips instinctively, thrusting back and forth.
Watching this, Cedric’s adam’s apple bobbed. His expression wavered as he licked his lips once. Suddenly he lowered his head toward my crotch and before I could stop him, he took my cock in his mouth.
“Ah…!”
Stars burst before my eyes in an instant.
The wet, hot, moist sensation…
“Hah, ngh!”
When the soft mucous membrane inside his mouth sucked in the shaft with a slurp, my mind became hazy. I grabbed Cedric’s head roughly like claws, but couldn’t stop the pouring stimulation.
“W-wait, ah, just a moment… please, ngh!”
The feeling of climax welled up and my body twisted naturally. I shuddered at the ecstatic sensation that felt like my eyes would roll back, but a handful of reason strongly resisted that I couldn’t come in my friend’s mouth.
“N-no, ngh… m-mouth, let go!”
Stop sucking and quickly let go, I shook his head wildly while gripping his hair. But Cedric, who had been persistently holding on and not letting go, mumbled an answer with it still in his mouth.
“Come. It’s okay.”
Each time he did that, his tongue moved and puffs of air shot out, which became stimulation again, driving me crazy. I squeezed my eyes shut as they became hot and moist.
“Really, ngh, can’t hold back… ngh, ah… ah!”
In an instant, the whole world flashed white.
My body jerked greatly once, then relaxed while feeling an unprecedentedly refreshing sense of liberation. While I was panting for a while in the afterglow of climax, Cedric, who had sucked up even the last drop of semen and taken it all in his mouth, finally pulled his mouth away.
There were whitish traces on his glistening lips. My gaze was particularly drawn to that, and I found myself staring without realizing it… I saw Cedric’s adam’s apple bob once more.
I widened my eyes in surprise.
“Hey, you… did you swallow it?”
“Yeah.”
“Why did you swallow that!”
“You released it in my mouth, so it doesn’t matter.”
“Th-that’s not the point… it’s dirty…”
“It’s not dirty.”
While saying that, he casually wiped his lips with his thumb. His reaction was utterly nonchalant. For me, it was a reaction I absolutely couldn’t understand.
I took a deep breath and rubbed my face with both hands. After the intense, thrilling pleasure came the thick sense of doubt I had expected.
“This… this really isn’t right.”
“……”
“Friends don’t do this kind of thing.”
“……”
This time too, Cedric had nothing to say. I expected he wouldn’t say he “didn’t know,” but still, I had hoped he would at least react somehow.
“…I don’t know what the hell you’re thinking.”
“…Really? You don’t know?”
“……”
“Or… do you want to pretend not to know?”
“……”
I pushed him away as if venting my frustration and left the room.
I hurriedly entered another empty room and closed the door, and only then did the sigh that had risen to my throat scatter out long.
In the end, early the next morning, unable to face spending two more days at the villa with Cedric, I got on the carriage without even properly packing my things. I asked the caretaker to tell him that there was a spare carriage at the villa, so he could take that when returning.
I was breaking our promise to play together for three days and running away selfishly, but right now I just wanted to run away from everything.
* * *
Seeing their son return after just one day, leaving his luggage behind, my parents were naturally surprised. They worried thinking something big had happened, but I didn’t tell them the details.
A few days later, Cedric came to deliver the luggage I had left behind, handed it to my parents, and left immediately.
It seemed my parents went up to my room and asked if I wanted to meet him once, but Cedric apparently declined, saying it was fine.
How truly upsetting.
I sighed endlessly every day, thinking about why things had turned out this way and where it had gone wrong.
…I wanted to reset our relationship back to square one.
More precisely, not square one, but back to the point where I was purely happy that our relationship was developing as friends, not just a facade.
How should I do that?
‘…Cedy said he doesn’t like Ret.’
The original plan to connect those two people couldn’t be used again. Especially since Riette also said she had no romantic feelings for Cedric.
When both sides don’t like each other, I couldn’t force them together, and besides, Riette was currently happy with her new boyfriend, so I didn’t like the position of interfering with that.
‘I need to make sure we don’t cross the line any further.’
I thought Cedric probably had the same feelings as me, wanting to brush off what happened as if it never occurred. But remembering what happened at the villa, that didn’t seem to be the case.
A definitive measure was needed.
‘Then there’s really only one way.’
For me to quickly find my match, and for Cedric to naturally find his match too.
If we both had proper partners, there would be no more casual touching between friends.
‘…Right, I have no choice. I should ask my parents to arrange a matchmaking meeting.’
Honestly, matchmaking wasn’t my preferred approach to romance, but… it was the best and fastest shortcut to finding a partner.
And who knows? I might get along very well with someone I meet at a matchmaking meeting and quickly develop feelings for them.
Having made up my mind, I brought up the topic with my parents that very day. My parents, who knew well that I was usually negative about matchmaking, seemed surprised but soon became happy and said they would look for a good opportunity.
While my choice was the priority and they would respect it, it seemed they had secretly wanted to arrange a good match for me through their connections if possible.
In noble society, this kind of gossip spreads quickly.
Before long, news of my matchmaking apparently reached both Riette and Cedric’s ears. A few days later, Riette suddenly came visiting, bringing Cedric with her.
Not wanting to show Riette that things had become awkward between Cedric and me, I received them in the salon.
Author: Hyacinthus B
Hyacinthus
