[Seunghyun♡]
Originally, the name was saved as “Lee Seunghyun,” but Suhwan had secretly changed it to “Seunghyun,” and after they started dating, Seunghyun saw it and felt a bit hurt. Seunghyun had set Suhwan’s contact as “Darling♡.”
So Suhwan had cautiously added a heart at the end. He had been caught by Seunghyun long ago without knowing it, and the memory of secretly looking at it and grinning to himself now stabbed at Suhwan painfully.
What should he say to Seunghyun? He would definitely ask about the test results. Should he just repeat what the doctor had advised?
While he was deliberating, the call ended. And as soon as it did, he called back. Suhwan had no choice but to answer.
“Ah, Seunghyun.”
—Hello? Hyung?
“Yes, it’s me.”
—Did you go to the hospital?
“Yes.”
Seunghyun keenly noticed Suhwan’s listless voice. Seunghyun asked in a somewhat sharp tone:
—What’s wrong? Were the results bad? Is something wrong with you?
“No. They said I’m fine.”
—Then why…
He could tell what Seunghyun was going to say next without hearing it: why does your voice sound like that? At the moment, Suhwan couldn’t bring himself to tell the whole truth.
A normal relationship. Those words kept circling in his mind. Added to that was Hwalyeon’s talk about needing to have a child with dominant traits.
—Hyung?
“Ah.”
Suhwan snapped back to reality at Seunghyun’s call.
—Are you at the company now? I’ll come at closing time.
“No. Don’t do that. You need to study.”
—But…
“When I get home… I’ll tell you everything. Do well on your exam.”
—…Alright.
Seunghyun, who had been hesitating, answered as if he had no choice. He seemed to have sensed that no matter what he said, Suhwan wouldn’t tell him the truth right now.
After hanging up, he felt nauseous again. He vomited more stomach acid into the sink. Frowning, Suhwan turned on the water and sighed.
He couldn’t hide it from Seunghyun. Even if he wanted to, continuing their relationship without telling the truth might lead to bigger problems.
“Haah.”
When he looked up, he saw a gaunt-faced man. Suhwan sighed deeply as he looked at his tired face.
As soon as Suhwan got home after work, Seunghyun arrived too, somehow knowing. He said he would just talk and then head straight back to the study hall.
“So, the thing is.”
After hesitating, Suhwan finally shared everything he had heard from the doctor. When mentioning the problematic “normal relationship,” he even choked up a bit. After finishing, Suhwan bowed his head deeply.
He didn’t know how Seunghyun would react. If they continued their physical relationship for the sake of pleasure, their pheromone levels would become even more abnormal, potentially causing physical harm. To prevent that, they would need to switch positions from now on.
If they didn’t do that…
Should they break up?
As that thought crossed his mind, Suhwan became frightened. Honestly, if the side effects only affected his body, Suhwan felt he could bear it all. Even if it cost him his life.
But he couldn’t stand the thought of Seunghyun getting sick. Especially if it was because of him—he would never forgive himself.
“Seunghyun, I…”
“Hyung.”
“Yes?”
Before Suhwan could say anything, Seunghyun, who had been quiet, spoke up. Suhwan looked at him with wide eyes.
“Did the hospital really say that?”
“Yes.”
As Suhwan nodded slightly, Seunghyun frowned a bit. Suhwan gazed at him with an anxious feeling.
Seunghyun wouldn’t want to continue their relationship if it meant his body would be affected. But if they were to switch positions…
Would he agree to that readily? Or would he rather break up? Suhwan felt his vision darken. And at the same time, Seunghyun spoke again.
“Then it’s a simple problem, isn’t it?”
“A simple… problem?”
“Yes.”
Seunghyun nodded and smiled gently. It was an unexpected reaction, and Suhwan’s eyes widened even more. Seunghyun reached out, took Suhwan’s hand, and pulled it toward himself.
“You just need to top me, hyung.”
“…!”
Seunghyun stuck out his tongue and licked Suhwan’s finger. It felt like an electric current running all the way to the top of his head. Suhwan looked at Seunghyun with surprised eyes.
“I told you before. I don’t mind if you take me from behind.”
“You did… say that, but.”
“Just to be clear, I have no intention of breaking up with you over something like this.”
The intense gaze ensnared Suhwan’s body. For some reason, a corner of his body ached as if it was numb.
“Hmm? Want to try it?”
“…”
Seunghyun licked between Suhwan’s index and middle fingers while giving a sweet smile. Suhwan stared at him blankly.
***
Suhwan remained in a daze for several days. His eyes were on the computer screen, but the page he was looking at hadn’t changed for a while. Yunhyun, who had been watching him since morning, couldn’t hold back any longer and approached Suhwan.
“Mr. Suhwan, are you alright?”
“Ah.”
Suhwan blinked in surprise at the sound of knocking on his desk. His gaze turned to Yunhyun standing beside him. After looking at Yunhyun for a moment, Suhwan nodded and replied:
“I’m fine, Manager. I’m sorry.”
“Hmm.”
He said he was fine, but his face told a completely different story. In just a few days, he had lost more weight, his facial features had become more pronounced, and dark circles were visible under his eyes.
Yunhyun, who had been contemplating, glanced toward the break room. Perhaps because it was still morning, not many employees were using it. Yunhyun pointed to the break room and said:
“Do you want to take a short break?”
“I’m fi—”
He was about to say he was fine, but suddenly his head started ringing. Eventually, Suhwan answered that he would go to the break room and got up from his seat.
“Do you have something troubling you?”
As soon as the break room door closed, Yunhyun approached and asked. Suhwan bowed his head with a dark expression.
He did have concerns, but they were too embarrassing to share with Yunhyun. Suhwan unconsciously let out a long sigh.
“Haah.”
“Here. You can drink canned coffee, right?”
“Ah, yes.”
Suhwan reflexively accepted the canned coffee Yunhyun offered. Although Suhwan couldn’t drink regular coffee because he couldn’t handle bitter things, he could drink sweet canned coffee. He bowed his head to Yunhyun.
“Thank you.”
“Come on. Drink that and clear your head.”
“Yes.”
He opened the can of coffee and took a sip. The sweet, cold coffee slid down his throat. Though it was very sweet, the strong caffeine seemed to clear his head a little. Suhwan blinked slowly.
“Try talking about it. Brooding alone won’t help anything.”
“Well…”
Suhwan’s lips moved, but he couldn’t bring himself to speak. Through his confused mind, he recalled what had happened recently.
‘I told you before. I don’t mind letting you take me from behind.’
‘Huh? Want to try it?’
With those words, Seunghyun had released his pheromones fully. Just smelling his pheromones made it impossible for Suhwan to keep his wits about him.
Author: Hyacinthus B
Hyacinthus
