“I did it because I was upset. I find myself wanting you more each day, but you don’t feel the same.”
“So, is your protest over now?”
Jae-young stared intently at Sa Gong-hyun as he tossed the coat he was holding behind him. He sat on the top part of the sofa backrest and wrapped his arms around Sa Gong-hyun’s neck.
In response, Sa Gong-hyun’s hands supported Jae-young’s waist. Their legs intertwined without space for even a sheet of paper between them.
“…No. I just came impulsively. Even though I thought I didn’t want to see you earlier, after turning away for a moment, I found myself wanting to see you again. I couldn’t resist.”
“I’m not sure whether to respond to you saying you didn’t want to see me, or to you saying you wanted to see me.”
“…What about you? Were you just angry that I left like that?”
Jae-young watched Sa Gong-hyun with concerned eyes. Though he merely asked if he was just angry, the underlying meaning was asking if he had reflected on his actions.
As Jae-young was examining his face, Sa Gong-hyun curled up the corners of his mouth. Then his lips began to move slightly.
“I was so busy thinking about how to punish you that I didn’t have time to consider that.”
Of course. It seemed wrong to lose the initiative. Seeing how he slipped away like a loach even in a minor battle of nerves, it was crystal clear.
“So, how did you decide to punish me?”
Jae-young narrowed his eyes as if upset and tightly embraced Sa Gong-hyun’s neck. Their eye levels, which had been equal just a moment ago, suddenly rose.
Jae-young, lifting his chin, gently lowered his eyelids. His pale lips were visible. They looked very soft. So moist and tender that if bitten, one would passionately explore those lips…
“Seeing your mouth open, it seems you already know.”
His gaze shot upward in surprise. …What was I about to do? He couldn’t believe his own thoughts and let out a short, empty breath. Though it wasn’t cold, he felt goosebumps for no reason.
Sa Gong-hyun’s eyes were relentless, as if he would devour Jae-young right then. In that brief moment, what should follow came to mind. This is it, he thought. Jae-young awkwardly moved his lips.
“…I want to kiss you.”
“If you want to, then you should.”
“I don’t know why something so simple feels so difficult to me.”
He cupped Sa Gong-hyun’s cheek with one hand. His skin was rougher than expected. It didn’t seem this rough when he touched it before. While thinking these pointless thoughts, Sa Gong-hyun spoke.
“You’re hesitating because you’re trying to attach unnecessary meaning to it.”
His voice lowered even more.
“When you think about it, it’s a very unnecessary thing. Humans are animals that move by primitive instincts, which means that even if you kiss me without reason, there’s definitely a basis that fits that action.”
It felt as if he was whispering intimately into Jae-young’s ear. Like a serpent urging Eve to eat the forbidden fruit.
Jae-young caressed Sa Gong-hyun’s cheek without responding. Regarding primitive instincts, Jae-young fully empathized with the idea.
He had lived more instinctively than most. If there was something he wanted to try, he pursued it without hesitation, and had lived with the satisfaction of attempting new things.
Come to think of it, Jae-young kissing Sa Gong-hyun was also something new.
Despite having lived as an unquestionable heterosexual until now, his kisses with Sa Gong-hyun weren’t bad. Rather, they were good. He had never thought he would respond to a man, but based on his experience, physical contact with him caused arousal.
Sex with Sa Gong-hyun was still painful and made him worry about his lower parts each time, but it wasn’t as repulsive as before. Considering the pleasure that followed, it was bearable.
I’m not gay. How can I feel this way when I’m not gay? Is this okay? It was a question for which he had never found a clear answer.
However, Jae-young decided to follow his primitive instincts, as Sa Gong-hyun suggested. Though he hadn’t yet found the right answer, he felt good after doing it. It wasn’t about kissing because he was homosexual, but simply an act faithful to his desires.
Jae-young pulled his straight torso closer and pressed his lips against Sa Gong-hyun’s. Sa Gong-hyun’s hand traveled up his spine and cupped the nape of his neck.
Their bodies collided, fitting together without leaving even the narrowest gap. The deepening of the kiss naturally followed. Unconsciously, Jae-young wrapped his legs around Sa Gong-hyun’s. While he was savoring the hot breath coming from Sa Gong-hyun, Sa Gong-hyun grabbed his buttocks.
“Mmm, ah…”
Though not particularly intended, moans escaped through his teeth. Jae-young fervently explored Sa Gong-hyun’s mouth as if trying to moisten his throat with saliva. What he vaguely sensed was that Sa Gong-hyun’s tongue was gentler than usual.
Gentle but intense. Leisurely yet deep. The kiss with Sa Gong-hyun now felt like foreplay typically shared before sex.
The reason this couldn’t be attributed solely to the passionate kiss was because there was force in the fingertips gripping his buttocks.
The breaths accumulating in his mouth, the hot body temperature, and the quiet atmosphere creating that mood were like stimulants to Jae-young.
Without even realizing it himself, Jae-young’s cock had become prominently erect. Sa Gong-hyun, who had been kneading Jae-young’s buttocks as if squeezing them, lifted him up in one swift motion.
“Haah…”
He felt like he might bite his tongue. Jae-young withdrew his tongue, which had been deeply entwined with Sa Gong-hyun’s, and tightly embraced Sa Gong-hyun’s neck. Since his body was lifted high without warning, he reflexively wrapped his legs around Sa Gong-hyun.
He noticed while wrapping his legs around him. That Sa Gong-hyun’s cock, which would be pressed against his left thigh, was erect. He felt his pulse throb at his inner thigh, which had briefly brushed against that explicit thickness. His lower part naturally contracted.
As his body, fully embracing Sa Gong-hyun, regained stability, Jae-young raised his head, which had been hunched. He met eyes and a calm face that contrasted with what would be a fiercely erect cock.
“Promise me.”
“Tell me. Let me hear what impertinent words you’ll say this time.”
Jae-young stared at Sa Gong-hyun’s lips as he heard the not-so-friendly words. Realizing that Sa Gong-hyun was firmly supporting his body, he cupped Sa Gong-hyun’s cheeks with both hands.
He moved his thumb, rubbing his shiny lower lip. After examining how the lips shifted under his touch, he recalled the sensation of biting them. He also unconsciously bit the soft inner membrane of his mouth.
“If you feel your feelings for me have gone beyond primal instinct, make sure to tell me then.”
Jae-young stubbornly caressed his lower lip. He gently raised his eyes.
“I want to sink deeper than I am now. I wish that my being by Hyun-ssi’s side… would become such an ordinary part of daily life.”
If you fall in love with me, make sure to tell me without hesitation. I’ll destroy you more thoroughly than anyone else. He swallowed those words.
His hand, which had traced the shape of his lips up to the corners, soon encircled his neck. Jae-young stuck out his tongue and licked Sa Gong-hyun’s lower lip. The act almost resembled a sacred baptism.
“Is that a request or a demand?”
“…It’s a request.”
“Then I’ll consider it.”
Sa Gong-hyun elegantly curled up one corner of his mouth. Judging by the overall color, it was quite an affectionate expression.
Jae-young smiled along with his smile, but it didn’t last long. Jae-young’s lips were suddenly consumed. Jae-young responded to the explicit kiss and tightly embraced Sa Gong-hyun’s neck.
#You can know ten fathoms of water, but not one fathom of a person’s heart
Consciousness hazily returned. While turning his body with his eyes closed, Jae-young lifted his eyelids.
He thought the light was on, but all that illuminated the room was a bright lamp. His eyes hurt, so he tightly closed and reopened them.
Jae-young raised his upper body while rubbing his eyes that weren’t fully awake. The moment he put weight on his body, a stinging pain spread from his lower back. Reflexively letting out a small moan, Jae-young patted his lower back.
Perhaps because he was only wearing boxer briefs and a long-sleeved round-neck t-shirt, his body shivered. It might have been due to the dawn chill, but also because there was hardly any warmth in the room.
Jae-young calmly surveyed his surroundings. It wasn’t a familiar room. He hadn’t recognized it during sex because he was so caught up in the moment, but the place where Jae-young was lying was Sa Gong-hyun’s bedroom. That room that couldn’t shake the impression of being excessively closed off.
Jae-young wriggled his hand that was resting on the bed. He swept the spot next to him, but felt no warmth.
Blinking slowly, he first scanned the ceiling. There were no cameras. Were they only installed in the hallway? Even after confirming with his own eyes, the suspicious feeling didn’t dissipate.
This time, he moved his gaze lower and carefully examined the interior of the room. There were no items that could be suspected as special cameras either.
Author: Hyacinthus B
Hyacinthus
