58.
#Not Drunk
“Go to your room.”
I grabbed his arm to support him. Because Hayun had a better build, his weight shifted onto me, making it difficult. But thinking he might fall if I let go, I tensed up and endured.
As we moved from the annex to the main house, a passing butler saw us and approached.
“Looks like he’s drunk.”
As he tried to support from the other side, Hayun waved him off.
“It’s okay. I’ll take him to his room.”
Even though Dawoon said it was fine, the butler hesitated, unsure what to do.
“Really, it’s okay.”
When I insisted again that I could support Hayun on my own, the butler finally stepped aside.
Supporting a staggering person up the stairs was not as easy as I thought. Having never supported a drunk person before, every time Hayun stumbled, Dawoon’s body swayed too. Thinking we might both tumble down the stairs if not careful, I became extremely tense. The butler, seeming to find our situation precarious, continued watching from the bottom of the stairs.
Arriving at Hayun’s room and sitting him on the bed, I let out a long sigh. I vowed never to drink with others to the point of intoxication. It was only because it was Hayun that I gritted my teeth and supported him this far; if it had been someone else, I would have given up halfway.
I looked down at Hayun, who was sitting with his head bowed, breathing heavily, and pondered for a moment. I definitely didn’t have the confidence to take him to the bathroom and wash him. Wouldn’t it be better to just lay him down to sleep?
“Hyung, don’t just sit there, lie down.”
I tried to push his shoulder to lay him on the bed, but Hayun grabbed my arm. With the strong pull, before I could be surprised, my back hit the bed sheets. In an instant, Hayun had flipped over and was on top of me.
I blinked, looking up at him. The person who could barely control his body until just now was now looking down at me with clear eyes.
“Hyung…?”
I thought he might not know what he was doing due to being drunk. Feeling the position was too ambiguous, I tried to push him away and get up, but he didn’t budge at all.
“Dawoon.”
His breath reeked of alcohol. Perhaps due to intoxication, his voice was deeper than usual. Instead of answering, Dawoon met his gaze. Looking into those pitch-black eyes staring down from right above made my mouth feel parched.
This is nonsense. I’m just being overly conscious.
Trying to ignore the rising anxiety, I turned my head away. Somehow, looking at his face made me feel not just tense, but breathless.
“Want to go all the way?”
He whispered so softly that I couldn’t hear properly. That’s why it took time to understand what he was saying.
“Let’s do it.”
Just as I thought I heard a low whisper near my ear, I felt hot breath brush against my earlobe.
“Hyung…!”
I didn’t have time to push him away in surprise. Hayun’s lips touched my ear, and then a hot, soft tongue licked inside my ear. The unexpected tingling sensation made my body instantly freeze.
“Don’t, hic!”
Perhaps due to the alcohol, it was excessively hot. Everywhere his tongue touched felt like it was burning. The wet sounds echoing in my ear made me dizzy.
“Hyung, you’re drunk. Stop!”
No matter how much I called out, Hayun didn’t seem to hear. His hand suddenly slipped inside my shirt. The feeling of him stroking my side made my body jerk up.
“Hyung! Please!”
I tried struggling with all my might, but he didn’t budge at all. As my shirt was pulled up, my bare skin met the cool air. When his large hand, moving from my abdomen to my chest, brushed against my nipple, my body reflexively stiffened.
Something’s different. Even though Hayun had touched me before under the pretext of not letting desire build up, this felt different from then.
“Hyung! Nngh!”
I didn’t have time to question further. Hayun bit down on Dawoon’s nape and started gnawing. When I let out a groan from the pain, he licked the spot where his teeth had been. The moment the throbbing changed into a different sensation, my hair stood on end.
Meanwhile, Hayun’s hands continued caressing Dawoon’s body. Every time his fingers scratched at a nipple, it felt like all my nerves were concentrating on that spot.
“Don’t do that…”
When I tried to push him away with my hands, Hayun grabbed both of Dawoon’s hands and pinned them down.
“Hyung…”
Meeting his eyes looking down at me, I couldn’t say anything. My body remembered the pleasure he had taught me. That scared me even more. I vaguely knew what was about to happen from now on. My eyes trembled enough for me to realize it myself.
Dawoon unconsciously shook his head.
No. This isn’t right. This… isn’t right.
Hayun was silently looking down at Dawoon. His pitch-black eyes seemed to glisten like a predator eyeing its prey.
“Hyung, you’re drunk.”
“…not.”
His lips moved, but I couldn’t hear well, perhaps due to tension.
“I’m not drunk.”
Realizing that Dawoon hadn’t heard properly, he spoke again. This time it was clear.
“If you’re not drunk, then why… ugh!”
Before I could ask why he was doing this, Hayun lowered his body and bit Dawoon’s chest. The feeling of flesh being sucked was strange enough, but when his hot tongue circled around the nipple, it drove me crazy. His tongue kept brushing past the nipple as it became increasingly erect.
“I don’t want this…”
I was saying I didn’t want it, but I wasn’t sure if I really didn’t. I was just filled with the thought that this shouldn’t be happening.
“Ahh!”
A high-pitched moan escaped when Hayun lightly bit down. I was more surprised by my own voice. I can’t believe I made such a sound… And to my hyung, no less.
My eyes widened in shock and fear. I thought I needed to get away from Hayun, but I couldn’t muster any strength in my body. From the waist down, Hayun was pressing down on me, making it difficult to even arch my back.
Hayun’s hand fondled the other nipple. With stimulation coming from both sides, my mind gradually went blank.
What is this? What does he want to do?
Even the confusion swirling in my head was gradually being overwhelmed by increasingly unbearable sensations.
The heat that had been sucking on my chest seemed to lift, and then his lips traced up my neck. He would lick long strokes with his tongue, then occasionally nibble, making it impossible for me to regain my senses. It felt like moans would keep escaping. Hating that, I gritted my teeth and turned my head to the side.
“Dawoon.”
Hayun’s voice resonated near my ear. When I stubbornly refused to look back, Hayun used the hand that had been pinning down Dawoon’s hands to grab my chin. Thanks to this, my hands were free, and I tried to push his shoulders away, but the moment our eyes met as my head was turned, I froze.
Desire. Even to Dawoon’s inexperienced eyes, that emotion was clearly visible. Until now, Hayun had never shown any emotion, always saying he was just helping relieve Dawoon’s urges. That’s why, even though it was hard to accept, I could take his words at face value.
But not now. For the first time, I saw Hayun’s desire. He was pouring out desire through his eyes, his expression, his entire body.
Could it really be…?
Even thinking about it was scary. Why would Hayun want to do this with me…
“No, this isn’t right. If you really want to do it, go find someone else anywhere…”
I couldn’t finish my sentence as my eyes widened. Hayun had pressed his lips against Dawoon’s as if devouring him, pushing his tongue into my mouth. I couldn’t regain my senses with the hot mass messily exploring inside my mouth. Even though I wanted to turn my head and avoid it, my chin was firmly held by Hayun.
Why…? Why was Hayun kissing me?
Even as my breathing became labored from not being able to exhale properly, that was the only thought in my head. This had nothing to do with relieving urges. Could he possibly be mistaking me for someone else?
That sudden thought made me feel like I’d been doused with cold water. Even though Hayun had clearly been calling my name, at that moment I was too confused and dazed to make a rational judgment.
“Stop, mmph!”
I barely managed to turn my head to the side, breaking away from the locked lips, but I was immediately caught again. He covered Dawoon’s lips as if swallowing them whole, and our tongues intertwined. I didn’t know what to do. Unable to properly accept or push away, I could barely keep up with my increasingly chaotic breathing.
Ugh.
When Hayun sucked hard on Dawoon’s tongue, a moan got caught in my throat. The base of my tongue felt numb, so I pounded on Hayun’s chest with my fist, and his sucking loosened. However, I couldn’t completely break free. Saliva that I couldn’t swallow in time flowed out between my parted lips as his tongue invaded again.
Everything’s a mess.
I was getting increasingly dizzy, and my body was losing strength to the point where even pushing Hayun away became difficult. As our lips parted, there was a provocative sound. While I was frowning at that sound, I felt emptiness below. Startled, I raised my upper body to find that Hayun had already removed Dawoon’s pants and underwear.
“Hyung!”
I called out to Hayun, but the shock left me unable to continue speaking. With one knee on the bed, he was unbuttoning his own shirt.
