Chapter 51
Baek Rak quietly stared at Yoon Seo Won’s lips, then suddenly made eye contact with him. When startled Seo Won shrank back, Baek Rak stepped closer and said.
“Do you know what your face looks like right now?”
“My face, why?”
He knew it was red from the heat. He could still feel the warmth, so he rubbed his face with the back of his hand, when Baek Rak said something like a bolt from the blue.
“It’s exactly like your face when you have sex with me.”
“……!”
“Here, when you held mine inside.”
At the touch pressing firmly on his lower abdomen, Seo Won caught his breath. His stomach really felt full, making him feel strange.
“Still not enough?”
“No! ……It’s not.”
He barely managed to deny Baek Rak’s words, but he could feel strength unconsciously entering his buttocks. To make matters worse, the sensation of being spread wide open at that time came to mind.
Thinking this shouldn’t happen, he urgently tried to remove Baek Rak’s hand. No, he tried to remove it. But the hand didn’t budge, and instead the guy’s face began to gradually come closer.
Seo Won ran backward to avoid Baek Rak’s face. Unable to make eye contact, he rolled his eyes this way and that. As he kept pulling his body back as much as the guy approached, he found himself half-lying on the floor.
The moment he realized this, the hand that had been pressing his lower abdomen climbed up and pressed down on his shoulder. In the end, he had to look up at Baek Rak while lying on the floor.
“…….”
“…….”
Baek Rak said nothing. He also didn’t know what to say. He just wished someone would do something about this suffocating atmosphere.
But there was no time to worry. Baek Rak’s face was approaching.
What should he do? Should he just leave it like this?
Just as his mind was spinning frantically.
“Baek Rak! Yoon Seo Won! Come eat meat!”
At Haru’s booming shout from far away, the subtly flowing atmosphere shattered completely. Baek Rak, who had been approaching, also stopped abruptly.
Seo Won came to his senses and quickly slipped out from under Baek Rak. Worried he might be caught, he sped up his steps as he fled to the platform.
Even though he hadn’t been running, his heart was pounding wildly. Seo Won barely exhaled and looked back.
Baek Rak was standing still, silently watching him run away.
Even while getting farther away, he didn’t know why he could see Baek Rak’s lips so clearly. Was it because of the second awakening? His vision felt clearer. The guy’s lips, which were unusually soft unlike his hard body, came to mind, making him shake his head quickly.
‘Crazy, I’m going crazy!’
Seo Won pulled at his hair while letting out a soundless scream.
Whether going crazy was contagious, he was no less out of his mind than Baek Rak. To think he was only recalling the sensation of the guy’s lips without even thinking of refusing. Even if his brain was broken, it seemed properly broken.
“Baek Rak! Yoon Seo Won! Where are you? Come eat meat! If you don’t come, it’ll all disappear soon!”
At Haru’s shout ringing out again, Seo Won couldn’t hide his agitation and yelled back.
“Coming! I’m coming!”
Today, Park Haru had accomplished great things in many ways. Did he know? That he had both pushed him into an abyss and also saved him.
Hoping Haru wouldn’t be curious about anything, Seo Won bounded up the stairs. Fortunately, during the short time it took to pass through the ticket gate and go outside, his reddened face regained its original color.
“Here! Come this way!”
Haru, gesturing for him to come over, looked innocently bright. Enviably so.
Seo Won laughed helplessly and trudged over. The smell of meat he hadn’t encountered in a long time was at least comforting.
Night had already fallen and the surroundings had darkened completely, but the shelter was brightly lit by the large brazier grilling meat and the lighting. Even the stiff and rigid people were rarely smiling and looking happy.
Seo Won stopped for a moment to look at that scene.
“…….”
Haru, who had shouted that it would take a long time to accept him, and Han Seong Hyeon, who had felt sorry about it, suddenly came to mind.
He hesitated for a moment, wondering if he could enter that circle while looking at Haru who kept gesturing for him to come over, when suddenly his body was pulled forward. Startled by the sudden step, he looked up. Then Baek Rak, who had arrived at some point, was looking at him.
“Why are you standing there? Not going?”
“…….”
This time too, Baek Rak took the lead and casually brought him in. Just like when he first set foot in Yeongdeungpo Station Shelter.
Wrapped in some indescribable feeling, he quietly looked at Baek Rak when the guy pulled on his wrist. When he took another step forward, he pulled again. Like that, standing next to Baek Rak, he began walking forward together with the guy.
Following Baek Rak, he soon arrived where Haru was.
“Did you two boil and eat earthworms? You’re really crawling over here.”
Haru grumbled, then put grilled meat in a bowl and handed it over. Seo Won took it with his free hand and quietly looked at it. Perhaps because it was freshly grilled, hot steam was rising from the meat.
“What are you doing? Not eating? If you’re not going to eat it, give it to me. I can eat three more portions.”
Haru, who had been looking at the meat together, seemed impatient and licked his lips. Seo Won laughed briefly.
“……What are you saying. Who said I’m not eating?”
“Then why are you just standing there when you should be eating hurriedly since there’s barely enough?”
“Appreciation. It’s been a while since I had meat, so I was appreciating it a bit. Anyway, you worked hard grilling it. I’ll eat well.”
Seo Won showed the warmed bowl to Haru as he greeted him.
Leaving behind the guy who was looking at him with eyes full of regret, he sat in an empty spot with Baek Rak.
When he picked up chopsticks and grabbed some meat, he thought it had really been a long time since he ate like this. Since he had always just held sticks and chewed them, the experience felt new. He ate slowly, savoring it little by little because it was precious. But because the amount wasn’t very much, the bowl was soon emptied.
Honestly, the meat was a bit fishy and dry because not all the gamey smell had been removed. But it was more delicious than any meat he had eaten so far.
Somehow, this taste seemed like it would remain in his memory for a long time.
***
After dinner and a simple face wash, Seo Won headed to Baek Rak’s house with him.
When they opened the door and entered, a familiar scene appeared. The open-plan studio had only a bed, sofa, and wardrobe. There was nothing else besides that. Beyond lacking a lived-in feeling, it was so empty that one might wonder if anyone lived there—that was Baek Rak’s house.
At least when the homeowner returned, there was briefly a human scent, which was fortunate.
While Baek Rak stood his two swords against the wall and hung his jumper in the wardrobe, Seo Won flopped down on the sofa. Since it was a two-seater sofa, his legs stuck out beyond the armrest.
“I wish the sofa was just a little bigger.”
It was only a sofa in name—it wasn’t fluffy, and the length was awkward, making it more uncomfortable than expected. It would be better if it were just a little bigger, but he couldn’t hide his disappointment.
While he was half-crumpled on the sofa grumbling, Baek Rak, who had finished preparing for bed, sat on the edge of the bed and said.
“You said it was comfortable there before.”
It was something he had said when he first came to Baek Rak’s house.
There was no guest room and only one bed, so worried the guy might suggest sleeping in the bed together, he had laid the groundwork by saying the sofa was comfortable. It was after what had happened in the bathroom, so he hadn’t let his guard down.
“Just…… saying that.”
But after experiencing the softness of the bed once, he felt somewhat regretful? It was like going from a large sedan to a compact car.
But it was also awkward to go to the bed just for comfort. No matter how much he had rolled around endlessly with Baek Rak, sleeping under the same blanket was something that needed consideration.
At first there had been the justification of “for awakening,” but now couldn’t they join bodies even without such things?
Because they were excited, because it felt good.
Since he had started enjoying such instinctual sensations, he had to be careful not to be too swayed by them.
The problem was, if only that were the issue, but he felt some subtle atmosphere. The kisses had become affectionate and the touches had become gentle. Even the look in his eyes had become a bit duller.
Looking at it this way, it wasn’t a bad change, but he couldn’t know when Baek Rak’s attitude might change again. He was just anxious to completely let his guard down. The guy was quite fickle.
Seo Won turned his body toward the sofa back. It was burdensome since Baek Rak kept looking at him.
Silence lingered for a long time in the darkness. Even though his position was uncomfortable, Seo Won couldn’t toss and turn, only sensitively detecting Baek Rak’s presence.
Then he heard a small rustling sound. The sound of lifting the blanket and lying down inside it.
Secretly relieved inside, he lay down again looking at the ceiling. While he was wondering what to do with his legs, Baek Rak, who he thought was going to sleep, spoke to him.
“If it’s uncomfortable, come over here.”
At the usual calm voice, Seo Won slowly rolled his eyes. Was he sincere, or just testing the waters? Just from the words, there didn’t seem to be any particular ulterior motive……
“No, I’m fine.”
No. If he was going to be tense anyway, it was better to just sleep here. Going over because he was told to come would be rather pathetic too.
Since he wouldn’t be staying in this house for long anyway, he was thinking he shouldn’t complain anymore in the future.
“Really?”
Baek Rak dropped it more plainly than expected. The guy rarely made suggestions in the first place. It was strange that he was being docile even after his suggestion was rejected, so he glanced back. The guy was leaning against the bed headboard, staring intently at him.
“…….”
“…….”
At times like this, he seemed like the Baek Rak he knew……
Author: Hyacinthus B
Hyacinthus
