# Chapter 84
Jeongyun was so surprised that he couldn’t continue speaking. Having sex instead of Guiding? That seemed like something only couples would do. He and Domin weren’t that kind of relationship.
In that moment, Jeongyun calmed his racing heart and thought rationally. He came to the conclusion that Domin had mistakenly said “sex” instead of “Guiding.” There was no other explanation.
“Choi Domin, what do you mean—ugh.”
He barely opened his mouth, but because Domin was nibbling on his earlobe, Jeongyun had to swallow his words. His waist tingled with each increasing stimulation.
Unable to stand it any longer, Jeongyun finally turned his head sharply.
“Stop that.”
He tried to speak firmly, but his voice trembled with uncertainty. Since that wasn’t enough of a warning, he glared at Domin with forceful eyes.
Fortunately, it seemed to work as Domin released the wrist he had been holding. Jeongyun didn’t miss the opportunity and tried to create distance from Domin as his grip loosened.
But once again, Domin was faster. In an instant, his body was flipped over and somehow he ended up on firm thighs. Surprised, Jeongyun blinked slowly.
“Where are you trying to go?”
Domin asked with a bright smile, bringing his face right up to Jeongyun’s. When Jeongyun, who had assessed the situation, twisted his body to get off Domin’s legs, Domin frowned and quickly grabbed his waist.
“Stay still, you’re stimulating me.”
“…Ah.”
Only then did Jeongyun notice the unfamiliar sensation, and his face burned hot. Domin kissed Jeongyun’s chin as he fumbled, not knowing what to do, and slightly moved his leg.
“Let me get down, ah—”
“Jeongyun hyung, open your mouth a little.”
The dark eyes looking at him had lost their focus. Sensing danger, Jeongyun raised his hand to cover his mouth, but Domin approached without caring and kissed the back of that hand.
“Jeongyun hyung…”
When Jeongyun wouldn’t allow access to his lips despite repeated urging, Domin firmly grabbed the waist in his embrace and rubbed their connected lower parts together.
Feeling the noticeably intense heat, Jeongyun tried to escape, but Domin wouldn’t let go. Finally, Jeongyun lowered the hand covering his mouth and called out to Domin.
“Choi Domin, please let go… ah!”
Not missing the opportunity, Domin quickly kissed Jeongyun. Opening the soft lips and entering, he strongly sucked on the stiff tongue, making Jeongyun tremble.
His vision spun as Domin overwhelmed him without giving him a chance to breathe. His kisses were always quite rough, but now it was like a starving predator pouncing.
“Jeongyun hyung, call me ‘Domin’ like you did earlier. Okay?”
Domin whispered as he pulled away just before Jeongyun ran out of breath. But Jeongyun was too busy filling his lungs with air to say anything.
“Quickly, okay? Say ‘Domin.'”
“…I told you not to drop formalities, ah—”
Without realizing it, the hospital gown was half undressed. Domin buried his face in the chest that rose and fell with each breath, and his body trembled slightly. His exhaled breath was heavy.
“Shit…”
Having finished sooner than expected, Domin let out a harsh curse. Jeongyun glanced down slightly and tried to free himself from Domin’s hands, but as expected, he couldn’t even move.
“Please let me go now.”
“…No.”
Domin answered with a voice as small as his breathing and raised his head. And once again, without warning, Jeongyun’s vision flipped. When he came to his senses, his back was touching the soft rug.
Domin filled his shaking vision. The fireplace that had been crackling was now quiet. That made their breathing sounds even clearer.
“We haven’t even started yet.”
With that brief warning, Domin bent down deeply. He approached as if to kiss, and this time Jeongyun prepared himself by closing his lips tightly, but contrary to his expectations, Domin’s destination wasn’t his lips.
“Ah!”
Domin bared his teeth against Jeongyun’s delicate neck, leaving a clear mark.
After leaving a satisfactory mark on the white skin, Domin tried to go lower. He buried his lips between the open collar and headed without hesitation toward the sensitive area.
Whenever the hot breath brushed against his skin, Jeongyun’s waist trembled. It was gradually reaching his limit.
“I-I’ll do Guiding for you instead!”
Jeongyun desperately grabbed Domin’s cheeks and shouted. Domin paused momentarily as if surprised, but soon understood Jeongyun’s words and frowned.
“Why?”
“What do you mean why? Obviously…”
In Jeongyun’s common sense, sex was something couples did. But since he and Domin weren’t in any kind of relationship, what they should be doing now wasn’t sex but Guiding.
“Because we’re not in any kind of relationship.”
“We can’t have sex because we’re not in a relationship?”
When Jeongyun nodded, Domin exhaled deeply. He grabbed Jeongyun’s hand that was touching his cheek and turned his head. He kissed the palm with soft lips.
“Then, let’s be in a relationship.”
“…What?”
“Yeo Jeongyun just said it yourself. We can’t have sex because we’re not in any kind of relationship. So, if we become a couple, we can have sex.”
The “relationship” Jeongyun was talking about meant being lovers, but he didn’t know if Domin’s thoughts were the same. No, he was probably just saying whatever came to mind.
‘Damn, why did I have to be C-grade…!’
After all, there’s no way Domin would… like him.
‘That’s impossible.’
Realizing reality along with painful memories, Jeongyun felt endless misery.
Did he have no pride? It was just a month ago when he decided never to see Domin again. But making those resolutions meaningless, he was now helplessly wavering, attaching all kinds of meanings to Domin’s words.
He was still getting hurt all by himself and struggling alone. He didn’t want to do this again.
“I’m sorry. I don’t think I can do this.”
He tried to speak as calmly as possible, but his voice shook terribly because of the emotions welling up.
Jeongyun quickly raised his arm to cover his distorted face. As soon as his vision was blocked, the tears he’d been holding back poured out.
“…Yeo Jeongyun?”
“I’ll just do Guiding. Please let me do that.”
He could do emotionless Guiding as much as needed. It was strictly work. But sex, which required emotions, was impossible. His heart was already wavering, and if they shared body heat, it was obvious he would overflow even more.
Jeongyun still liked Domin. But he hated himself for not being able to give up on Domin like a fool, even though his wounds were so deep. If it was that painful, he should have let go, but he couldn’t.
“Try to calm down.”
He tried to calm down as Domin said, but the sadness he had been holding back all this time burst out all at once, making it hard to stop crying.
He didn’t understand why he had to suffer so much just because he liked Domin.
“I didn’t want to be C-grade either!”
Domin couldn’t figure out why Jeongyun suddenly started talking about grades while crying alone. He knew he should comfort him, but having never been kind to others before, Domin didn’t know how to console someone.
‘What should I do in this situation?’
The flustered Domin carefully patted Jeongyun’s trembling shoulders. It was a clumsy attempt at comfort, but strangely, the crying gradually subsided.
“Are you okay?”
When Domin asked cautiously, Jeongyun lowered his arm and nodded, slowly blinking his eyelashes that were soaked with tears. …Ah, only then could Domin breathe a sigh of relief.
“I don’t know what to say at times like this, but it’s not wrong that Yeo Jeongyun is C-grade… no, that’s not what I was trying to say.”
After dumping the complicated thoughts in his head, Domin chose his words carefully, then chose again. But he couldn’t figure out what to say to make Jeongyun feel better. It felt like solving a problem without an answer.
“I…”
Because he was a convenient Guiding battery, because he was someone easy to control, because it was troublesome to break the one-sided Imprinting. These excuses had lost their meaning long ago.
Domin hated seeing Jeongyun cry. He wanted him to always smile, and beyond that, to be happy. Even though there was nothing in it for him.
But now he knew for sure. Perhaps he wanted to be the “relationship” Jeongyun was talking about. A relationship where holding hands and kissing were natural, even without Guiding.
After a long struggle, Domin found the answer.
“I think I like you, Yeo Jeongyun.”
Author: Hyacinthus B
Hyacinthus
