#32
– Lee Chan
✉(1) [Today was so fun~haha Having dinner together too made it feel like we dated all day! You’ll come out with me again next time, right?]
✉(2) [Will I someday be able to end a day without thinking of you?]
[Your X has chosen you.]
– Han Jiwon
✉(1) [I was happy to build pleasant memories. I think you’re someone who has the charm to make people comfortable.]
[Your X has not chosen you.]
– Bae Taeseong
✉(1) [You must find me annoying today too. Don’t you?]
[Your X has chosen you.]
– Yoo Sanho
✉(1) [If you want to change and need room, I can become the reason for that. I think that’s why we both came here.]
✉(2) [I hope it was a comfortable evening.]
[Your X has not chosen you.]
[A participant who wants to ask about your X, ‘Yoo Sanho,’ has arrived. Please enter the chat room.]
(Q1) Why did you break up with Yoo Sanho?
(A1) Because no one loves forever, it was just time for us to end too.
(Q2) How long did you date?
(A2) Over 10 years.
(Q3) Do you have any lingering feelings after the breakup? If not, are you certain?
(A3) None. Firmly.
(Q4) If you were to see Yoo Sanho dating someone else, how do you think you’d feel?
(A4) If he meets a good person, I’d congratulate him, but is it possible? It would be a lie if I said I didn’t have doubts.
(Q5) Do you have any apologetic feelings toward Yoo Sanho?
(A5) What should I be sorry for?
[Q. Do you yourself have no lingering feelings after breaking up with your X?]
[A. I don’t really know either.]
[A participant who wants to ask about your X, ‘Yoo Sanho,’ has arrived. The chat continues.]
(Q1) If you were to define Yoo Sanho in one word?
(A1) Pretty, pitiful Yoo Sanho that only I know.
(Q2) Who proposed the appearance?
(A2) I proposed it to Yoo Sanho.
(Q3) What was the reason for proposing the appearance?
(A3) Since we had a long relationship, I thought it would be good if we could wrap things up well…… and we only have each other as Xs.
(Q4) What would you think if Yoo Sanho couldn’t sort out his feelings by the time he leaves?
(A4) It would be unfortunate. But I don’t think a broken relationship can be mended again.
(Q5) Why don’t you consider reconciliation?
(A5) Because I know we’d break up for the same reason.
[Q. Why are you particularly interested in knowing about Yoo Sanho?]
[A. To distinguish between interest and jealousy.]
[Q. Your X seemed very popular within the dormitory. How did that feel?]
Lee Chan: Sanho was always like that. It’s not like he catches your eye at first glance, but the more you see him, the more charming he becomes, I guess. So even during school days, there were quite a few kids who would hover around trying to talk to him somehow.
[Q. Then weren’t you anxious while dating? In a way, they’re like love rivals.]
Lee Chan: I wasn’t anxious. No matter what anyone did, I knew they couldn’t climb up to where I was. Sanho’s heart was always firm, and I think our relationship was irreplaceable by anything.
“Is that how it normally is when you date for 10 years?”
Han Dajeong, who had been looking at the screen, asked Juyeon.
“Juyeon-ssi has also been in a long-term relationship, so you’d know. How did it feel?”
Juyeon, who had been sitting with a serious expression, answered.
“It is firm. It’s true that you become unable to think about possibilities with other people. Because aside from the relationship as lovers, there’s also time built up as long-time friends. Especially if it’s a relationship that continued from your teens…… they’re childhood friends.”
“Ah, that’s right.”
“But separate from that, you can’t help but feel anxious. Of course, everyone has different personalities, but I was like that. There’s no such thing as ‘absolute’ in relationships. What if you get tired of the inertia-like relationship and start pursuing something new?”
“I agree.”
Kim Yeseok nodded.
“Just because it’s a long-term relationship doesn’t mean it absolutely won’t break. They also break up more emptily than you’d think, like meeting new people because they can’t overcome the period of boredom.”
“But it’s interesting how Lee Chan-ssi spoke as if he had no such anxiety at all. Even if Sanho-ssi’s feelings were firm.”
Juyeon said while touching his chin.
“I wonder if there’s a reason beyond emotions? Am I overthinking this?”
Soon the screen changed, and subtitles appeared saying that Yoo Sanho had rested for about a day from filming due to his heat cycle.
Scenes of each participant spending time at the dormitory, getting to know each other and hanging out followed in sequence. Perhaps because the second date in nomination format was approaching, there was a mysteriously excited atmosphere.
[Q. Is there someone you’d like to go on a date with?]
Kim Sehyeong: For me, it’s Jiwon hyung. Actually, I wanted to nominate Jiwon hyung for the first date too, but I was lucky to be able to go out together. I want to go out once more and get to know him better.
An Lei: I want to go out with Chan hyung again. I think we click well even in small things, so I was curious what it would be like to have a different date in a different place. (When asked if he wasn’t curious about others) I am curious. I think they’re good people. But I want to get to know them one by one for now. It’s still the first week.
But the atmosphere that had been soft like the day before a picnic completely changed as if it had never been that way, as soon as it continued to the next screen.
– You’re really a fucking bastard.
Due to the slightly distant and low-angled shot, the participants’ appearances weren’t captured properly, but it was still enough to distinguish who they were.
– Listen to me!
– …….
– I always just listened to you. No matter what bullshit you spouted, I always listened. But you can’t even listen to this?
Because Yoo Sanho raised his voice, those who were downstairs also detected the commotion and began gathering toward the rooftop.
The first person to realize that the two were fighting was Bae Taeseong. He blocked An Lei, who had come up a bit later, with his arm to prevent him from going out and shook his head. It meant not to interfere.
Anyway, it was their relationship. Fighting and making up were matters the parties involved had to handle themselves. Moreover, because of his personality, Yoo Sanho probably couldn’t get out what he wanted to say on time and kept it bottled up, so he hoped he would say whatever it was this time.
But the argument boiled more hotly than expected. When Yoo Sanho’s voice, close to a scream, continued, everyone’s expressions became equally serious.
– How can you and I become strangers? When you and I have seen each other for life.
– Then should I not even become a stranger for you now? Because we’ve known each other for 20 years? I always just watched your mood.
– Yoo Sanho, I don’t understand why you’re suddenly angry at me.
– Why are you asking me for that answer? You think about it. You can think about that much yourself. Why do you think I can never get angry at you? Because I always have? I’ve lived my whole life just watching your mood, so how is it that you never once watched mine?
Yoo Sanho’s voice, close to a cry of anguish, rang out.
– You have something to apologize to me for.
– …….
– You had something to apologize to me for, hand on your heart. How is it possible that you have nothing that pricks your conscience when it comes to me!
Then Han Jiwon urgently climbed the stairs. He strode up and pushed away Bae Taeseong’s shoulder, who had been practically blocking the door to the rooftop.
– Move, Bae Taeseong.
Han Jiwon, who had rushed onto the rooftop, came down holding Yoo Sanho in his arms. Yoo Sanho was crying almost as if screaming. It was completely different from his usual behavior of never raising his voice once, being slow and gentle in everything.
– Sanho, it’s okay…… don’t cry. Okay? Don’t cry. Good boy…….
The sound of crying out loud could be heard for a long time after that. An Lei and Bae Taeseong went up to the rooftop and talked with Lee Chan for a long time, while other participants exchanged anxious glances.
A strange wind began to blow in the peaceful dormitory.
Author: Hyacinthus B
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