“Wait, just a—ah..
“Hyung, I think I need to block it here, it’s leaking too much.”
His breath was ragged between words. Before Sa-yoon could argue that there was no need to block it, Shin-jae began moving. Instinctively, Sa-yoon tried to close his legs, but strong hands held them apart.
“Hey, you said you were blocking it, so why are you moving!”
But Sa-yoon knew it was hard to stay still once inside. Giving up resistance, he relaxed, and the cock slid in completely, thrusting deeply.
“Ah! Wait, wait, right there, now!”
“Hyung, when I go in here, your insides tremble so much…….”
Do you feel the spasms? Shin-jae whispered, his lips against Sa-yoon’s ear, sucking on the lobe. Above, the wet sounds of kissing; below, the slick sounds of their joined bodies.
“Ah, hyung, it feels so good…….”
Shin-jae embraced Sa-yoon tightly, his excitement palpable. The sensation of his member being squeezed and released was almost unbearable.
Oblivious to Sa-yoon’s struggle, Shin-jae continued with shallow, teasing thrusts.
“Ah…… not like that, faster…….”
Deeply. At Sa-yoon’s words, Shin-jae thrust hard. The second entry was easier than the first, the cock pushing past the tight passage, eliciting a moan that sounded like a sob.
“Ah, yes, so good……..”
Though exhausted, Sa-yoon’s body responded eagerly to the renewed stimulation. Each thrust sent waves of pleasure, making his hips buck and his body tremble.
Feeling Shin-jae’s hot breath on his face, Sa-yoon pulled him into a kiss. The second round was less intense but more persistent, leaving Sa-yoon feeling thoroughly ravished. His thighs trembled from exertion, and both their bodies were drenched in sweat and other fluids.
“I’m dying…….”
After finally cleaning up, Sa-yoon collapsed onto the fresh sheets, groaning. Shin-jae had changed them while he was in the shower.
“Shin-jae.”
“Yes, hyung?”
“Don’t touch my chest.”
As Sa-yoon stroked Shin-jae’s hair, saying he couldn’t take any more, Shin-jae complied verbally, but his hand remained. Still, the touch was more soothing than arousing, so Sa-yoon let it be and continued speaking.
“When we’re together, I might not always show you my best side.”
Shin-jae slowly lifted his head to meet Sa-yoon’s gaze, his eyes wide with surprise at the sudden topic. Sa-yoon smiled gently and patted Shin-jae’s back.
“Like I said before, I think it’s important for partners to see each other’s flaws. It makes the relationship stronger.”
Exhaustion made Sa-yoon’s eyes heavy, but he felt compelled to share this after understanding why Shin-jae had avoided sex.
“What if you see me at my worst and get disappointed or tired of me?”
“Would you feel that way if I showed you my flaws?”
“No. You’re always amazing and handsome.”
“Same here. Even when you’re annoyed or crying, you’re cute and lovely to me.”
“……That can’t be true.”
“If it weren’t, I would have left when you hid behind the curtain.”
“Really?”
“Why waste time trying to talk to someone who doesn’t want to listen? It’s not worth my energy.”
You wouldn’t be cute to me if you weren’t, idiot. Sa-yoon added, hearing Shin-jae grumble softly about not liking being called cute.
Sa-yoon gently tapped Shin-jae’s slightly pouted lips and continued.
“I didn’t forgive you lightly. I still think you lying to me was deceitful.”
“But after we broke up, all I could think about was you. Did you eat well? Were you skipping classes again? I found myself walking by the business building, hoping to catch a glimpse of you.”
He told himself it was just for exercise, but really, he just wanted to see Shin-jae, even if it was just in passing.
“I never thought I’d go back on my word.”
They had fought and made up before, but never broken up and gotten back together. At the time, Sa-yoon thought it was truly over.
“And I wasn’t sure if I could accept your lies. So I kept agonizing over it, and then you came to me.”
The shoulder in his embrace trembled. Sa-yoon gently rubbed the tense spot and continued.
“When you came to me crying, all my doubts disappeared. I just…….
wanted to hold you and kiss you and forgive you.”
The memory of that day was still vivid. Shin-jae, waiting in the rain, clutching a birthday cake, trembling as he offered it.
“I love you, Shin-jae.”
Sa-yoon intertwined their fingers and kissed each one gently as he spoke softly.
“I’ll try to understand you as much as you’ve shown courage. I know you don’t want to show your disappointing side to your lover, and that you tend to think and avoid problems on your own. I want to accept and love all of that about you.”
Once he decided to follow his heart, the decision came easily, making his previous worries seem trivial.
“But… we might fight again because we don’t match up. We might make up and repeat the cycle.”
“Hyung……..”
Looking down, Sa-yoon saw Shin-jae with a puzzled expression, like a child facing a complex question.
“We might even break up from fighting. But isn’t it better to fight and have a chance to resolve things, rather than letting misunderstandings build up until it’s irreparable? At least with fighting, there’s a possibility of making up.”
“I don’t want to break up. I’ll never break up with you, Hyung.”
“Actually, today, I thought maybe you didn’t care about me anymore, or maybe it was because I’m a man. I had all sorts of thoughts.”
“That’s a misunderstanding. There’s no way that’s true.”
“Right, so let’s talk about these things together when they come up.”
“Okay. I’ll…… try harder.”
“But no lying.”
Emphasizing the one non-negotiable point, Sa-yoon saw Shin-jae nod.
“I’ll never deceive you again. I love you. I love you so much. I don’t want to break up with you. I’ll do better…….”
Hyung, I love you.
A tearful voice escaped from Sa-yoon’s embrace. The usually hidden feelings poured out like a broken dam.
Looking down, Sa-yoon saw his lover crying. He had been holding back tears while listening, and now they streamed down his cheeks.
“…….This is trouble.”
“Huh?”
“I mean, you’re too cute. It’s trouble.”
At that, Shin-jae burrowed into Sa-yoon’s arms, murmuring, “Keep saying I’m cute. I’ll listen to you, Hyung.”
“Crying twice in one day. At this rate, you won’t get any presents from Santa this year.”
“I’m not that much of a kid.”
“If I do this with a kid, I might get in trouble.”
Shin-jae’s lips twitched, trying to hold back laughter after crying. Seeing this, Sa-yoon laughed out loud. Embarrassed, Shin-jae hugged him tightly and made a fuss, but Sa-yoon just kissed him on the lips.
“You taste salty. Are you a salt candy?” he teased, then got tickled in retaliation.
They rolled around on the bed, tangled together, laughing and playing for a long time.
“Ah, I surrender! I surrender! You’re going to kill me, hyung.”
Exhausted, Sa-yoon raised his hands in surrender. The tickling had made him laugh so much that his stomach ached.
Shin-jae easily freed his wrist from under Sa-yoon’s knee. Though Shin-jae was holding back, it was clear he wasn’t using any strength at all.
Sa-yoon clicked his tongue and laid down on Shin-jae’s broad chest. Shin-jae quickly moved beside him, offering his arm as a pillow.
“Hyung.”
“Hmm..”
After exerting himself, the delayed drowsiness returned. Sa-yoon habitually patted Shin-jae’s back.
He didn’t expect one conversation to change everything. Their upbringings, values, perspectives on problems, and solutions were all different, so they would likely clash many times in the future.
But maybe they could work it out, even if they bickered, cried, or got angry. Like parallel lines that eventually meet and become one. That was Sa-yoon’s conclusion about love after much thought.
“Let’s be together for a long, long time, Shin-jae.”
As he murmured in his sleep, he heard Shin-jae’s immediate reply, “I will.”
The rhythmic patting slowed and finally stopped. Shin-jae carefully embraced his lover and kissed the top of his head.
Soon, their soft breaths became each other’s lullaby.
