You Want Me to Roleplay with My Unrequited Love? 98

#98. The Only Heart (5)

How could he help me like this?

My mind was hazy and my vision blurred due to the high fever. My whole body felt heavy and damp like wet cotton, making even the simple act of moving my head feel tremendously laborious.

Na Jihan, who had come to sit by the bedside, rattled a few items on the table. Soon he scooped fever reducer syrup onto a small plastic spoon and gently tapped my lips with the tip of the spoon.

“Let’s try just a little. Sorry.”

I wanted to cooperate as much as possible for his sake since he was worried about me, but not only my lips but even the inside of my mouth was parched dry, making it quite difficult.

When I barely managed to take the medicine but couldn’t do anything with it, just holding it in my mouth, Na Jihan’s brow furrowed deeply with a serious expression.

“You need to take it to get better. Does your throat hurt too much to swallow?”

“…”

“Wait a moment.”

Before I could properly grasp the meaning of those words, he leaned down. His face took over my entire field of vision and came so close that I couldn’t focus.

“…Mmph.”

Cool lips pressed against mine. When I squeezed my eyes shut in surprise, he stroked my cheek and gently soothed me.

My senses seemed to have gone strange due to the fever. I couldn’t gauge the temperature of the flesh stirring inside my mouth. Goosebumps rose on the back of my neck, making it seem cold, but the feeling that the touching parts were melting warmly made it seem hot too.

The sweet orange scent filled my nose to the point of stuffiness. It was a taste slightly sweeter, more artificial, and more stinging than the confession I had once swallowed secretly without being able to say to him.

Gulp. When I moved my throat with difficulty, his lips slowly pulled away. Praise saying I did well settled faintly by my ear.

“Let’s take a little more. Okay?”

“…”

“It’s okay. I’ll help you…”

He put the fever reducer syrup in his own mouth and leaned down again. His lukewarm lips covered mine, and soon began transferring what he had brought bit by bit.

My vision was still spinning and my throat stung as if I had swallowed a razor blade. It was hot, nauseating, and dizzy.

But Na Jihan was right. His actions helped. I clung to him and frantically swallowed what was in my mouth.

As I smacked my lips at the bitter sweet taste, he gave me a few sips of cold water. When I actively reached for it and drank, he even deliberately gave it to me slowly as if teasing.

“Seowoo-ya.”

With his cold forehead pressed against my hot one, Na Jihan whispered.

“Are you really going to stop liking me?”

Instead of answering, I wanted to say something completely different. That it was entirely his fault that I came to like him. No, that it was his fault. That this love being unrequited was definitely Na Jihan’s fault.

“I thought about it more. I still haven’t found a clear answer, but.”

“…”

“You’re different from other people to me. I also want us to be unique and eternal to each other.”

But it didn’t seem like love was necessary for that, Na Jihan said, adding that romantic feelings didn’t seem to be the type that would help with that. It was a tone like he was confessing.

“I don’t know. Measuring and distinguishing the type, size, and degree of liking someone feels difficult and overwhelming to me. It’s not that I don’t like you. The problem is that the way I like you doesn’t seem to be the form you want.”

“Then…”

It was words that ended in a faint whisper because proper sound wouldn’t come out, but fortunately Na Jihan understood. We were close enough distance for that to be possible.

“It would be most convenient if I didn’t like you after all.”

“Yeah. That would be the most convenient.”

Na Jihan’s voice sank low.

“But I don’t like that you’re trying not to like me.”

“…”

“I know. It’s probably selfish and irresponsible talk. Sorry.”

It was a puzzling feeling.

He said he didn’t dislike kissing me. He said dating to accept my feelings was worth trying. Even when I confessed, he might have been flustered but never showed rejection.

Yet he says he doesn’t want me to stop liking him. Even if the way we draw each other is different, he hopes that much won’t diminish.

Those words sounded exactly like you like me too, but you’re scared because you don’t believe in love.

Cowardly, I feel hope in this moment. If that’s the case, when you come to believe in love, won’t you like me in a similar way to how I do, I want to harbor such a wish.

“I’ll think about it a little more. About the relationship between you and me.”

I nodded drowsily and thought. Our hearts are puzzling like unsolved riddles, and confused and hot like seasonal fever that medicine doesn’t work on.

My slowly blinking eyelids grew heavier. The medicine he had given me seemed to be taking effect.

Na Jihan’s cool hand wiped away the sweat that had formed all over my face. I chewed on the orange taste remaining on my tongue and fell fast asleep.

* * *

[2N1224 Arcus first rookie award congratulations (photo) (photo)]

[(Video) Finally returned to 5-member formation ㅠ_ㅠ))) Look at the baby bunny being proud after finishing the stage and go… It was really nice to see them in person #ARCUS #CongratulationsOnRookieAward]

[Arcus rookie award acceptance speech Ahn Haesol (SOL) direct shot (3/4)]

[The effort of going around like a wasp uncle encouraging streaming and voting all year was worth it ㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠ Really really congratulations I love you, I’ll stan Arcus forever]

[We Hopes also worked really hard wanting to bring good news at year-end, and it seems like our Arcus kids knew that fact too, so I’m really happy… Why am I crying too when the kids are tearing up]

[Describe the feelings of Hopes when he was holding the trophy tightly with a teary face and then opened his mouth stammering, and the first name he called was Hope (100 points)]

[“There were so many people’s efforts to give us this shining moment. We think we have a duty not to forget that. Thank you for being Arcus’s hope.” Ahn Haesol this guilty leader… I’ve never heard such praise in my life]

[Yoon Seowoo crying hard (photo) (photo)]

└ He’s totally a water dumpling bunny ಥ_ಥ

└ He cries hard every time, my heart feels bitter but also secretly thrilling,, this baby bunny,, I wonder what it would feel like if he cried at a concert

└└ This is how you ask for a solo concert, the exam variation is tough ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ

[Seowoo lost too much weight, I’m really worried ㅜ His leg was injured so his exercise amount must have decreased, but he didn’t gain weight?]

[I’m also really concerned about what Lee Seon said on Whisper recently, that Seowoo’s condition wasn’t good so they spent year-end quietly among members… I used to stan a girl group member who had condition problems during promotions before, so I’m more anxious ㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠ]

[Let’s see you for a long long time kids please]

[But let’s not worry too much! (photo) Seowoo said on Whisper that he’s in recovery now and will rest plenty in January ㅇㅇ He said he’s doing well and eating well]

└ Thank goodness the members are taking good care of him ㅠ

[It seems like there was a lot of work and busyness around year-end, but they completed all schedules without missing any and perfectly handled the 5-member formation without a single mistake, it’s really good S2… Seowoo fans collective emotional moment for real]

[Arcus kids are always bustling during lives ㅋㅋㅋ The meaning of individual live broadcast seems nonexistent]

└ Even when one person turns it on, you always see two more people in the back

[New Year Hapil birthday live ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ Rice cake soup on the birthday table is so funny]

[Wow but didn’t the rice cake soup look really unique? I’ve never seen tofu put in rice cake soup]

└ Huh? Why don’t you put tofu in rice cake soup?? It’s super delicious when you put kkumi on top

└└ Kkumi…?

└ No that’s not kkumi… Kkumi is when you stir-fry meat and tofu separately and put it on top, but here they just cut it into cubes and boiled it together, and they put oysters in too

[Hapil likes seafood so they made it according to Hapil’s taste!! Since he’s today’s main character]

[But meanwhile Na Jihan rustling around next to them ㅋㅋㅋ As expected, he’s scooping rice cake soup into a small pot and cooking something else]

└ I thought if I make something he likes eating, he might take one more spoonful < Really, Yoon Seowoo’s love reaches the sky

└ Ugh ㅋㅋ So annoying to watch (+)

[Seowoo really can’t even smell oysters… Why is it so funny that he sits far away ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ]

└ Jihan’s eye is really accurate… He only touches exactly his portion and doesn’t even look at cake, drinks, or snacks ㅠㅠㅠㅠ This is why you’re not gaining weight Seowoo!!

└ But I’m glad he’s eating at least that much

[(Video) What is this?]

└ Really ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ what is this?????

[Jihan hyung! Do you want more rice cake soup? > No > Are you full? > Not really, so… I was also making the same expression as Hapil wondering why a kid who eats well is only eating that much?]

└ But I didn’t know that meant he was waiting because Yoon Seowoo would leave food… He expects him not to finish eating and eats the leftovers?

└└ (Photo) Hapil’s expression ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ

└ Big brother expression = my expression

[Today too JihanSeowoo stocks pierce the ceiling]

[No, I don’t even do that with my NAMCHIN… What? Really? Are you two dating??????? Did you really decide to date?????????????? What are you!!!!!!! Do you like Yoon Seowoo!?!?!??!?!?!]

└ Even the person involved is shocked and can’t look away, is this right???????? Tell us honestly, did you two actually agree to date without us knowing?

└└ I prefer the side where > confesses and < accepts

└└ Sorry but I prefer the side where < clings and > worries

└ Whatever it is, if it tastes good I’ll eat it. Give me everything.

[JihanSeowoo preference poll

Na Jihan had unrequited love

Yoon Seowoo had unrequited love

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