I clung to Woo Tae-seon, who was busy sucking on my fingers. I begged and pleaded.
“…That’s enough now, huh.”
“Everything about you is pretty, teacher.”
“Unhh, please stop. Okay?”
“But your back view isn’t so great, so don’t show it to me. Understood?”
“Please. Let’s go…”
“If you do that again next time… Hmm. I might not feel like making an effort then.”
I found it laughable that he considered this a major concession on his part, while I was still completely tense.
“Earlier I was about to flip you over and just take you.”
I wasn’t trying to escape Woo Tae-seon blindly. That day, I didn’t leave him behind alone. Even with regrets, time wouldn’t turn back. As always.
* * *
With my barely gathered senses, all I could think of was that I needed to retrieve my bag left alone in the faculty office.
Unlike usual when the parking lot was packed full, there were only a few cars left from where I had rushed directly from the faculty office. Of course, among them was the familiar-looking sedan that was surely waiting for me. It meant quite some time had passed.
“Senior!”
As soon as I flung open the passenger door of the idling vehicle, refreshingly cool air conditioning rushed out into the humid outdoors.
“Song Jae-yun, you bastard!”
“I’m sorry, did you wait long…?”
“Where have you been until now? Not answering calls either. I thought my neck would break from waiting.”
“There was an issue at the broadcasting room, so…”
The excuse I barely managed to come up with while running here was the broadcasting room. My voice, which I had struggled to produce, grew smaller and slower, trailing off. Even though my senior probably wouldn’t believe it, the curt voice seemed to blame me.
“It was urgent, so I didn’t have the presence of mind to call…”
Yet my excuses continued on without stopping, becoming more and more rambling. The more I rambled, the drier my mouth became, and my swollen throat stung.
“Why are you so dejected? I’m just joking, joking.”
I felt drained. I couldn’t pinpoint whether it was due to the laughter that finally burst out after holding back, or the palm that stroked my head as I stood awkwardly without sitting down.
“Get in quickly. You should still get home before 2 AM.”
I hurriedly sat down. The senior’s car started before the warning sound for the unfastened passenger seatbelt clip even stopped.
After driving for a while, the scenery gradually became familiar. As we got closer to home, I habitually fiddled with my phone. Since there had been no further contact, I thought I could go straight home and rest well today, and my tense body began to relax a bit.
I cleared my throat with a fake cough, soothing my hoarse throat. While thinking it was fortunate not to be called more than twice a day, I contemplated what to have for dinner. It was an obvious deliberation within limited options, but I still pondered it deeply.
“How can you control students when they get stubborn, Jae-yun?”
“Huh?”
When I turned my head toward my senior after emerging from my thoughts, he had already turned his gaze back to the road ahead.
“You get so intimidated by a slightly lowered voice that you can’t even speak a word.”
“Ah, that’s…”
Only then did I realize I hadn’t said a word. I was just too tired, too drained to speak. It was difficult even to breathe as my throat seemed swollen in every corner.
But I couldn’t tell my senior that. I could have changed the cause, but a bitter taste rose from my stinging throat as if to block me, seemingly gripping my vocal cords tightly.
“Kids these days are so perceptive. They’ll try to dominate you if you show any weakness.”
I quickly turned my gaze to the right, to the window where I didn’t have to look at my senior’s face, where I didn’t have to show my face. My senior seemed too focused on driving to notice my rapidly crumbling expression.
“So you too, even though I know it’s difficult with your overly kind personality, you need to raise your voice at students sometimes.”
It was my fault for feeling guilty about an ordinary conversation that anyone would have agreed with without particular thought. My senior was talking about the students, but I was thinking of only one among them.
“You shouldn’t listen to everything the kids say.”
The words of that student I had no choice but to nod to.
It wasn’t because I was kind or timid. I was the one who wondered why things had escalated this far. Was it just because I looked easy to push around? Thinking about this, I considered the situation surrounding me, the cause that created it, and Woo Tae-seon.
“Yes, I’ll be firm from now on…”
Could I do it? In front of him, all I could do was beg him to spare me.
“Good. Anyway, we just need to wait for the vacation, so hang in there a little longer, Jae-yun.”
But I couldn’t tell my senior everything, nor was there any need to, so I nodded as if nothing was wrong. Especially thanks to my senior who started grumbling about how much he hated supervising night study sessions, I could easily blend into the atmosphere with simple responses.
“By the way, Jae-yun.”
“…Yes?”
I met my senior’s eyes in the rearview mirror as he was staring at me. His eyes narrowed slightly as if sizing me up.
Somehow it felt like silence had fallen. Had I been nodding too mindlessly? My blinking slowed gradually at the unexpected chilly silence.
“Did you eat two ice creams earlier?”
Mmm, why? I nodded slowly. My senior, who had been staring at me, grinned.
“Your lips are all stained. Really red.”
Red lips. I rolled my lips inside my mouth. I carefully brushed my swollen lips with the tip of my tongue. The redness of my lips wasn’t from the red food coloring of the ice cream.
It was because of one person. I recalled the menacing pillar that had mercilessly thrust into my mouth, stretched open until my lips felt like they would tear.
Even while hearing my senior’s excited voice saying we could finally have a proper date, my mind was filled with someone else. The reason for the twitching down below was also because of that other person.
* * *
Woo Tae-seon, who used to call me to wherever he was, had now started seeking me out.
“Teacher, I can’t solve this problem.”
Just as it wasn’t strange for a teacher to stay in the staff room all day, no one would find it odd for a student to frequently visit. Especially for Woo Tae-seon, the Class 5 monitor who had everyone’s trust, there were no obstacles.
“Tae-seon seems to really like Teacher Song these days?”
“Ah… He must be struggling with math lately.”
Moreover, since my subject was mathematics, Woo Tae-seon had more than enough legitimate reasons to come to me.
Still, I felt safe at least when I was in the staff room, thinking that since Woo Tae-seon was a student, he wouldn’t act the same way as when we were alone.
“…Which problem is it?”
When Woo Tae-seon pointed to the problem he had chosen, I picked up my pen. Then he would naturally move his body closer to mine. Though his eyes were directed at the problem my pen was pointing to, Woo Tae-seon’s purpose was elsewhere.
“Teacher.”
“For this one, you need to find the expected value of the random variable first.”
“Do you remember how many times you came yesterday?”
I never knew it could be so difficult to pretend to be calm when such words were whispered in my ear.
Woo Tae-seon pressed against me with his firm forearm. Since my seat was in the corner of the partition, if Woo Tae-seon blocked my left side with his broad shoulders like now, it would be difficult for anyone to notice the blind spot between us unless they came very close.
With our upper bodies pressed together, Woo Tae-seon’s right hand, hidden from view, gently stroked my tense thigh.
But I couldn’t shake off the persistent palm on my leg, push away his solid shoulder, or jump up from my seat and shout at him. A warning was all I could manage.
“…Get away right now.”
Rather than heeding my warning, his hand grew even bolder, no longer respecting boundaries. Caressing me over my pants was just the beginning. Nothing held Woo Tae-seon back.
The palm that had been firmly massaging my tensed thigh suddenly slipped inside my pants just as someone approached the opposite partition.
“…Hah!”
“Not hard yet?”
Startled eyes met disappointed ones. Woo Tae-seon stared at me intently while squeezing my soft dick in his grasp, and I couldn’t hold back a groan that escaped.
“Haah…”
“Look at this. Acting like you’ll squeak with pleasure as soon as I touch you.”
The presence from the opposite side quickly disappeared, but my heightened tension didn’t subside.
I pulled Woo Tae-seon out with me. As soon as the door to the male teachers’ lounge closed, I let go of his wrist as if tossing it away.
Taking another step away from Woo Tae-seon, who was standing obediently behind me, I blurted out at once the words I had swallowed many times.
“Stop coming to the staff room.”
