Chapter 64
“I don’t know how this will sound… but, I enjoyed it.”
“……”
“When I said I didn’t like it, that… that wasn’t sincere…”
Although he was half-raising his head to look this way, he seemed unable to believe the acquaintance’s words.
The acquaintance was also at a loss for how to explain. Until just moments ago, they had been in a highly excited state, thrusting into that place… and the heat they had felt through that place hadn’t disappeared anywhere and was still pooled on the bed.
The acquaintance, who had been moistening his lips and constantly brushing back his hair, adjusted his sitting position. He brought over a pillow with a pure white cover to hide his front and handed one to him as well.
“Let’s… cover up and talk, shall we?”
“……”
As if he hadn’t even been conscious of his erect cock, he blushed at his earlobes as he received the pillow.
The two sat diagonally facing each other on the bed. The acquaintance sat cross-legged, with his right toes almost touching his left knee.
“Somehow the words came out that way, but I really didn’t dislike it. So you don’t need to feel sorry about that part.”
“I… couldn’t hear what you were saying.”
“……”
“No… I heard the words saying no and saw all the rejecting gestures… but I couldn’t control myself.”
So those words and actions of rejection weren’t sincere.
The acquaintance rested his arms on the pillow placed on his knees. His face, unable to look this way, still seemed confused.
The words about getting strange.
He had guessed it simply referred to a state of sexual excitement, but the thought that it might not have been gradually gained weight. Perhaps he too might have similar concerns as himself…
If that were the case, the request not to stimulate him too much and his excessive self-restraint would be easier to understand. He would have wanted to prevent his dark instincts from breaking out.
Just as I had always done until now.
The acquaintance, who had been lost in thought while rubbing his mouth, let out a short sigh.
“I’ve never told anyone this…”
Even as he began, the acquaintance couldn’t believe what he was about to say. To think he would confess his innermost thoughts, which he had never told even Taeyoon who claimed to be into BDSM, to a traveler who would leave in a few days.
“I like it when my partner treats me roughly and is a bit forceful.”
“……”
“Some people think it’s strange, and I’m not particularly proud of it myself… anyway, that’s my preference… so I didn’t dislike what happened earlier either. So don’t feel self-loathing.”
“……”
“Seems perverted, right?”
At the last words added with a chuckle, he shook his head very firmly. And he said in a stern voice:
“The one who wants to pin down his partner so they can’t move… and make them accept his desires completely in that state… the one who feels that way is the pervert. You… are not.”
“Have you ever forced yourself on someone who genuinely disliked it?”
“……”
His face finally turned toward the acquaintance.
“You haven’t, right? Even earlier, you stopped immediately when I said I didn’t like it.”
“That was…”
“If wanting to overpower someone with force and pour out your desires makes you a pervert, then wanting to be the target of that isn’t any less perverted either. That’s what people would think, right?”
The acquaintance lightly placed his hand on the back of his hand that was loosely clenched into a fist on the pillow.
Was it because he was someone who would leave soon? Because they were in a relationship where they wouldn’t leave any responsibility for each other? Or was it because his desires and his own had the same color, just different directions? The story that until now he couldn’t bring himself to tell even if it killed him flowed out with strange comfort.
Fiddling with his fingers, the acquaintance whispered:
“It’s not strange.”
“……”
“If we both want it, agree to it, and are satisfied with it… who could say that’s strange? We’re not harming anyone.”
Taeyoon’s discourse on BDSM, which he had listened to with one ear and let out the other, had been helpful. But these weren’t excuses – they were sincere. Words for him and also words for himself.
Starting from the back of his hand, tapping on the skin with his fingers like playing piano, he moved up his arm. Then he sat closer and buried his forehead on the edge of his shoulder.
“I don’t want to… hurt you or use violence… it’s not like that.”
“Me too. If someone tried to really force themselves on me against my will, how could I enjoy that? I want a kind of role-play in a mutually agreed situation.”
“Since I seem to be worrying too much… you’re not just going along with me on purpose, are you?”
He lifted his face to look at him. Traces of confusion still remained, but it was better than before. Breaking free from self-loathing, he was gradually holding heat again toward the acquaintance in front of him.
The acquaintance playfully pressed his shoulder with the tip of his chin.
“Do I seem like such a goody-goody person?”
After staring silently for a long time, he deeply lowered his head and kissed the acquaintance’s lips first.
“I hope that’s not the case.”
A pitifully small whisper followed.
For some reason, the acquaintance’s body heated up at that voice. Biting his lower lip, this time he slid his hand down from his shoulder. And he lightly intertwined fingers on his wide, darkly tanned hand.
“Let’s set a safe word. That would work, right?”
“……”
Though he seemed to vaguely understand the meaning, he didn’t seem to know exactly how a safe word would be used in this situation.
“Um… if I say ‘darling,’ you immediately stop all actions. You understand what that means, right?”
“Ah…”
It was a decision recalling Taeyoon’s advice that safe words should be chosen from words not usually used, or words that would never be said during sex. But unlike the examples Taeyoon had given – police, broom, traffic light… he didn’t want to shout such words.
No matter how much it was a safe word to stop sex and break the flow, it seemed like it would completely shatter all the prior excitement and afterglow.
“Conversely, until I say that word… no matter how much I resist, it means I don’t really dislike it.”
“……”
Instead of answering, he firmly gripped the acquaintance’s fingers intertwined between his own.
The acquaintance led that hand between his legs. He pressed his lips against the upper part of his extended arm, the bulging bicep, and bit on the skin. He pushed his hand, which he had brought down under the pillow, between the sheets and his buttocks.
“It seems open now, down there.”
He embraced his head as he lowered his upper body toward his chest. Licking the complex cartilage that formed his ear with his tongue, he whispered:
“Can you feel what’s leaking out?”
“……”
He didn’t answer, but his penetrating hand was feeling around the hole area under his buttocks. The oil that had been trickling out even while they talked spurted out every time he pressed the flesh.
The acquaintance, while sitting, twisted his waist to stimulate his hand that was pressed underneath. The breath exhaled from his embraced face was getting rougher.
“Earlier… it really felt good… the position was good, and when you thrust hard inside… I was almost about to come.”
As if unable to bear it, he gripped the bottom tightly using his entire palm. The acquaintance embraced his neck more strongly and completely buried his lips in his hot ear.
“……You were good at it.”
He pushed the acquaintance’s body like ramming, making him fall onto the bed. Instantly covering his body and pinning the acquaintance’s wrists to the sheets, his shoulders heaved. There was still hesitation in his eyes.
The acquaintance kicked away the pillow that was ambiguously draped over his lower body with his legs. Then he bent his knees and rubbed his thighs with his feet. While maintaining eye contact, he lightly tapped those thighs.
“Don’t.”
“……”
He lowered his body while breathing heavily. He buried his lips where the acquaintance’s neck and collarbone connected and sucked strongly enough to leave a bruise. Even while wrapping his legs around his waist from the stinging pleasure, the acquaintance feigned a nonchalant voice.
“Stop it.”
“……”
He completely lowered his body and pressed his cock between the acquaintance’s legs. Whether it had been like that throughout their conversation or whether it had ignited again from the thrilling contact just before, his cock was in a hard state. As his excited cock rubbed against his crotch, the acquaintance’s lower body also instantly became hot.
Releasing the acquaintance’s wrists, he gripped the base of his cock for insertion. The slippery, thick glans repeatedly touched and separated from the softened entrance, like kissing.
“I said I don’t like it?”
Hiding his dry-mouthed, burning impatience, the acquaintance deliberately shook his head exaggeratedly. With a voice mixed with laughter, he pushed away his shoulders.
“No. I don’t like it. Don’t put it in. Beast.”
He, who had been looking down to align his position, looked up at the acquaintance with a completely reddened face.
“You’re teasing me, aren’t you?”
At his grumpy, blunt voice, the acquaintance smiled and pulled his shoulders.
“As if.”
The glans was pressing firmly against the entrance as if it would thrust in at any moment.
“To help you get used to… hearing me say no… hng, mm…”
He had thought he was somewhat relaxed from the foreplay before their conversation, but the inner walls were tightly clamped from just inside the entrance. Just when it seemed to swallow a little bit, it suddenly expelled the hot, slippery intruder.
However, he persistently attacked again and again. Soaking his cock even more in oil, he ignored the inner resistance and penetrated.
“Ugh.”
Perhaps feeling pressure as if he might be cut off, his brow and nose bridge were deeply furrowed.
“Ha. Hah, hng… hng.”
Now the acquaintance no longer had the leisure to joke either. Once he broke through the muscle with the strongest elasticity near the entrance, what followed became slightly easier. But only very slightly.
The sensation of being forcibly spread below was too vivid. It was incomparable to fingers or sex toys. While it was true that he had a magnificently swollen glans, it felt like something much thicker than reality was forcibly crawling between his legs. In the anxiety that he wouldn’t be able to accept it unless he spread his legs as wide as possible, the acquaintance unconsciously kept spreading his crotch wider.
Once the glans penetrated enough not to slip out, he released the hand holding his cock and lay down on top of the acquaintance’s body again. In that brief moment, his entire body glistened with sweat.
“Is it difficult?”
He, with sweat beaded on his nose bridge, asked the acquaintance with a worried face. Wrapping his moist, smooth neck with his hand and pulling, the acquaintance rubbed his lips against the tip of his chin.
“When I was looking at it… I did think it was sexy. But now, it would have been okay if it were a little smaller…”
Author: Hyacinthus B
Hyacinthus
