Chapter 108
“I know… but I’m still going to do it.”
“Hngh! Hah!”
This time he set his teeth on the inside of my thigh, in the spot closest to my groin. It was a place where the skin was as tender as the perineum. Shame, pain, and pleasure mixed together as I twisted my waist and bit my lips.
He hadn’t even inserted anything, wasn’t caressing my cock or anus… yet the fact that I was this aroused was hard to accept.
The act of strongly sucking, biting, and pressing flesh to leave traces of having slept together.
I had already known during my adolescence that in Korean slang, this was called “jjogari.” Even if Taeyoon hadn’t taught me, I would have learned it myself through the peculiar curiosity of that age that was more actively triggered in vulgar areas. Just like words such as jaji, jot, ssibjil…
That word “jjogari” evoked redder and more sensual images than words like “hickie” or “lovebite” that my international school friends used, and had remained dimly erased from my memory for a long time afterward.
I thought I was beyond that age, and I didn’t have a relationship where we trusted each other enough to enjoy primal sex while leaving such traces.
While I had a relatively forceful relationship with Yoon Juho, it was completely different from him thoroughly understanding my inclinations and getting into bed. Moreover, since we were both actors, acts that could leave traces were thoroughly excluded.
This was the first time.
Wherever he buried his lips and hurt me, new sensations bloomed. That thrilling and vulgar pleasure was accompanied by guilt and a tightening of the heart, as if I was doing something forbidden.
I didn’t know I had such desires.
I thought I had only slightly unusual sexual walls, but that my sexual desire itself was rather plain compared to average.
When I was pressed against him, that wasn’t the case.
How many bite marks had formed around my groin by now?
As he changed the position of his lips and increased the number of traces, they were no longer individual wounds. They were one symptom that made my entire crotch throb and burn.
The more heat concentrated between my legs, the more my rigidly hardened reason melted away. Now I was unhesitatingly taking his glans into my mouth. I dragged my tongue along the prominent veins on his cock shaft.
The lewd friction sounds of us sucking between each other’s legs gathered stickily around us. I could feel his heat as he devoured me with wet eyes. Even without seeing, I could guess from the breath touching my skin, the heat of his lips, and the dizzying pain inflicted on my flesh.
For a moment, my buttocks flinched and contracted.
The fingers that had been cupping my buttocks and pressing down to prevent me from escaping began to fidget around my anus. The entrance, which had become moist and soft from long caresses, seemed ready to suck in his finger at any moment.
“Mm, mmm, mm. Mmph.”
I reached back with my hand to try to stop him, but it was useless. Having slowly pushed in his middle finger with a firm press, as soon as the base of his finger caught at the entrance, he immediately moved it back and forth rapidly.
Like someone who had surfaced from underwater after a long dive, I immediately gasped for breath after spitting out his glans.
“Hah, haah! Hng! Uh…”
While penetrating inside, he also didn’t stop the act of sucking flesh. The simultaneous stimulation didn’t just melt my reason—it drove me to the brink of destruction.
Having let go of his cock, I now flailed and clawed at the thigh in front of me. He wrapped one arm around my waist and pulled me down. Inside, his finger spun round and round. At that motion that seemed to tickle the unreachable inside of my belly, I shook my head and struggled.
“Hah, ha, haah! Hng! No, don’t, no, don’t… Hana, Hana… uh, please, just a moment!”
While saying no with words, asking him to stop, I too couldn’t stop the heaving of my buttocks. The fact that I was shaking my own ass while getting my anus penetrated in front of someone’s face… a fragment of reason remaining somewhere in my head made me feel shame at that ridiculous sight.
However, on the other side of shame, an even greater thrilling pleasure arose to liberate my hesitating self.
The sexual corruption of revealing everything to my partner and throwing myself into vulgarity was rather refreshing.
It was a bizarre pleasure I couldn’t understand, but pleasure was naturally more powerful the more unwholesome it was.
As proof, I was again gripping his cock and rubbing it against my face. Smelling it with my nose, pressing my lips to it, sticking out my tongue long to lick the sticky fluid.
From the male organ that gave off the scent of deep lust, invisible vapor seemed to rise. It was a smell that made my nostrils and the hole in back instinctively twitch. Like a dog in heat, I was panting and passionately caressing his cock.
Even the last fragment of reason had been destroyed.
The moment my waist twisted from the frustration of wanting to rub my cock somewhere frantically, he increased the number of fingers.
The long curved fingers scraped over my prostate then withdrew back to the entrance. He repeatedly drove me to the edge like that then pulled me back. I wished he would either press harder to make me come, or pull his fingers out. I felt like I was going crazy.
“Hng, hah. Stop, stop…”
Pleading almost like sobbing, I lifted my buttocks higher and higher. Having bitten the inside of my thigh, he raised his head and followed my buttocks. Supporting his upper body with his elbow, when I looked down upside down, I could see his jaw biting my thigh between my cock that was dripping precum.
The bodily fluid that had flowed down from my cock was glistening on his thick chest.
“Hngh! Hng!”
Like a sharp whip had stung me, I suddenly came to my senses for a moment.
His hand moving in and out of me increased its speed. It was almost a frantic pace. The insertion of fingers stabbing in had enough force to make my body bounce forward. My moaning voice trembled. Hngah, hng, hngh, hng… Saliva flowed down the corners of my mouth as I made beast-like sounds, forgetting all dignity. The sensation of climax surged up, and I couldn’t think of anything.
“Wa-wait… there! If you press there, I… I… haah! Hng… hngh!”
The inside of my thighs convulsed first, and my buttocks trembled greatly. The pleasure of climax achieved not from the front but from behind, from prostate stimulation, drew out cries like sobs.
Semen splattered onto his chest, lower abdomen, and groin. My body shook intermittently as if feeling cold. I couldn’t properly put strength into my limbs. The area around my lower back ached as if I had back pain.
“Haah, hng… hah…”
His fingers slipped out smoothly from under my collapsed, sprawled body. And soon his chest overlapped with my back. When he pressed down from above, I finally felt that my t-shirt was stickily soaked with sweat.
Putting his arms under my armpits to embrace me, he rubbed his lips against my earlobe. His cock, which had maintained its erection while I reached climax once, rubbed softly against my sensitive groin.
“Why are you so pretty even when you’re catching your breath after coming? Like someone feeling sorry for themselves after crying their heart out.”
Unlike me, who had completely collapsed after climaxing, he was in a dangerous state on the verge of explosion.
“Hng, hah… haah…”
My oversensitive body writhed and shuddered just from his breath touching my skin. I simultaneously feared and craved the next level of pleasure he was trying to inject into me.
He pushed one hand between our touching lower bodies and fiddled around my crotch area.
“Here, it’s become all red and purple like flowers blooming. Did it hurt?”
His voice was roughly cracked. The lips rubbing against my earlobe were as hot as the cock that was heavily rubbing between my buttocks. When I imagined the white tender flesh scattered with the traces he had chewed and made, my face also became hot.
Pretending otherwise, I reproached him.
“Don’t pretend to care now. You’re the one who made it.”
“But you liked it.”
When I pushed him away as if annoyed by his continued showering of kisses on my ear and cheek, he laughed and pounced again. And though no one was listening, he pressed his lips close to my ear and whispered.
“Isn’t it too lewd that only your crotch is getting hot? How much must you want it for it to get hot?”
Because of the finger fiddling with the soft flesh at the point where my buttocks began to split apart, I had to grip tightly onto his arm that embraced my shoulder across my collarbone.
“Hng, hng… hah.”
“Really… you’re so pretty I could die.”
He relaxed his body to press down on my entire body and hugged me even tighter. Burying his head in my nape, he rubbed his lips and tongue and deeply inhaled my scent.
“So, did you really decide to kill me? From the start, you’re being too… merciless.”
“Appearing with a man you slept with… glancing at me with a face that says you have lingering feelings, confusing people, hurting my heart… how can I kill someone I still can’t hate despite all that?”
Shifting his body lying on top of me, he grabbed his hard cock and rubbed his glans against my anal entrance. The glans was smooth as if oiled. It seemed like it would mercilessly pierce inside at any moment.
He pressed his lips firmly against my cheek and added.
“I shouldn’t kill hyung, I should kill that bastard.”
When I turned to look at his serious voice without any humor, he showed his teeth in a smile.
“Just kidding.”
“……”
“I’m really not angry at hyung about whoever you did what with before we became lovers. But… that doesn’t mean I don’t get jealous.”
It sounded like he wasn’t angry at me, but was angry at the people who had slept with me. Instead of asking questions to confirm, I reached out and stroked his cheek that extended over my shoulder.
“Did my lingering feelings show that obviously?”
Below, his glans was still eagerly rubbing precum around the entrance, as if it couldn’t stand wanting to go in, or as if marking territory.
He answered while sweeping my hair back from forehead to back.
“I wasn’t sure at first… but when I saw you come down to the basement on the day of the whiskey brand event, I thought ‘that’s right.'”
That was really behavior unlike me. All the behavior I showed after telling him it was over was behavior that betrayed my former self.
I was glad I acted unlike myself, and I was glad he noticed my lingering feelings.
If I turned my head just a little, his face was right there beside me now.
The heavy secret still sank within me, but sending him away wouldn’t make the secret any lighter either. I only learned that after experiencing it. If it was a secret I had to live with anyway, being with him was more livable.
After a moment of eye contact, I was the first to kiss his chin. Feeling his gaze as he looked at me with lowered eyelids, I overlapped our lips. Both lips, parched dry from the heat, were dry and equally hot.
I spread my legs a little more in my prone position.
“Go ahead and put it in like that.”
“……We haven’t used a condom yet?”
“I’m only going to do it with you from now on, so once in a while is okay.”
“……”
Right in front of my chest, he was supporting his body by pressing his left elbow against the mattress. After gently stroking his forearm below the elbow with my fingertips, I unfastened his steel wristwatch that was still on.
Author: Hyacinthus B
Hyacinthus
