“Huuh, ah… ah!”
“Does it hurt?”
It seemed like he was focused solely on widening me, but Cha Jae-woo never stopped checking my condition. My body trembled under the unfamiliar sensations, unsure how to accept them.
I shook my head at Cha Jae-woo’s question.
“It’s weird, hng, but it feels good, hic, ah…”
I didn’t even realize how contradictory my words were. That confusion was exactly how I felt right now.
Cha Jae-woo swallowed my lips. The actions, spurred on by pure desire, grew rougher by the second, but I didn’t dislike it at all. Rather, the closer Cha Jae-woo came, the more desperate I became for him.
“Haa…”
‘You’re beautiful, Lim Haeyul.’
Even as I gasped for air, a breathless laugh slipped out. The vividness of his thoughts tickled my mind.
Between my widely spread legs, Cha Jae-woo’s hand moved relentlessly, and his lips wandered as if he wanted to kiss every inch of my skin.
I pressed my lips against the nape of his neck and murmured,
“You’re beautiful, hng… Am I?”
My voice, mixed with shallow, broken breaths, sounded embarrassingly needy even to my own ears. But I didn’t regret saying it at all—because Cha Jae-woo smiled so brightly while pressing his fingers insistently against my inner walls.
“You’re beautiful. Enough to drive someone insane.”
My feverish body tightened hard. The satisfaction gleaming in his eyes met mine. So this was what it felt like to have your heart filled to the brim with happiness.
“Uhuh, then, ah, please, ngh, do it properly now.”
Swept away by that overwhelming feeling, a fierce desire surged within me to completely become one with Cha Jae-woo. Hands alone wouldn’t be enough. Even though I barely understood what it truly meant to have him inside me, I couldn’t stop craving it.
“Mm? Hng, hurry, hurry up…”
“Not yet, ha.”
“I feel like I’m going to explode. Please?”
Cha Jae-woo shook his head immediately, but I didn’t give up.
When I reached for his cock again and shook it in my hands to pester him, Cha Jae-woo’s face twisted in strain. I grabbed a condom lying nearby, determined to put it on him myself.
“Don’t rush. We have to take it slow.”
His voice, trying to soothe me, barely registered. I shook my head stubbornly and stared at him.
Cha Jae-woo’s face showed the same barely contained urgency. Even while telling me to slow down, he quickly added another finger to stretch me further, proving that he wasn’t any different from me.
“Ugh, haah, hngh…”
My legs stiffened, and beads of sweat that had formed before now slid down my skin.
Cha Jae-woo licked every inch of my body. My vision spun dizzily—it felt like my brain would melt from the overwhelming excitement.
“Cha Jae-woo, ngh, you’re just as desperate…”
Even as my whole body trembled uncontrollably, somehow the words stumbled out of my mouth. I tore open the condom wrapper and fumbled to put it on his cock.
I had never used a condom before, so I struggled, fumbling under the endless waves of stimulation, making an already difficult task even harder. My shaky hands barely managed to touch either his cock or the condom, confusing even myself.
“Haa… Are you doing it on purpose?”
Cha Jae-woo teased, his voice playful. Every time my hand brushed him, his cock twitched. His face twisted in growing frustration, the teasing touches clearly driving him crazy.
“Hic, we don’t, need it… haa.”
The way I looked up at him while biting down on my lip was so lewd it was ridiculous.
In the end, I threw the condom onto the floor. Cha Jae-woo frowned for a moment but said nothing. Honestly, thinking about it, we didn’t really need it. Even if we did, right now, I didn’t care.
Resolving myself, I raised my legs. Cha Jae-woo’s fingers, which had been stretching me, slowly withdrew. He leaned down, lightly licking between my ribs as if intending to drench me in saliva.
“Let’s just, huh, do it already.”
The hole that had been spread by his fingers twitched emptily.
I grabbed Cha Jae-woo’s throbbing cock in my hand and looked up at him. I must have looked pretty determined—after all, I was ready to have him inside me at any moment.
“Ah.”
However, contrary to my intention of quickly sitting down and taking him in, my vision flipped in an instant. Cha Jae-woo’s shadow loomed over me as I lay on my back on the bed.
“If it hurts, tell me right away.”
There wasn’t even a shred of composure left on his face now. I nodded immediately. The moment Cha Jae-woo’s cock touched the entrance, my heartbeat skyrocketed.
Gripping his shoulders tightly, I braced myself. At the same time, Cha Jae-woo’s cock pressed firmly inside.
“Ugh, aah…!”
I hadn’t thought it would be perfectly fine, but even though only the tip had barely pushed in, the pain was incomparable to anything his fingers had done. My body twisted on its own, and a whimper, filled more with pain than pleasure, escaped my lips.
“I-it’s okay, hng, I’m okay…”
Afraid he might pull away at the sight of me hurting, I rushed to reassure him.
Cha Jae-woo’s face contorted as if it was painful for him to watch. He looked ready to withdraw at any moment, and I shook my head desperately.
“Ugh, it’s just, hng… I’m not used to it, ngh, that’s all…”
“It still hurts.”
“Anything, ha, the first time, hic, is supposed to hurt…”
It wasn’t just sex. Everything about first experiences was difficult and painful. Just like how my first love had been especially hard.
It wasn’t really the time to think about that, and the seriousness of my words felt oddly out of place. Realizing that, a hollow laugh slipped out.
“It’s not just painful… it feels good, too. Really, haah… it feels good.”
Though pleasure hadn’t sparked yet, it wasn’t a lie. Cha Jae-woo was finally holding me. This wasn’t a forced connection. We wanted each other, truly and wholeheartedly.
Because we were making love—because of that, I was overjoyed, overwhelmed with happiness. I didn’t want to stop. The closer he got, the more I craved him. I didn’t even try to hide my feelings.
“More… please?”
Cha Jae-woo lowered his head for a moment. Though no words came out, I could hear the curses he was grinding between his teeth loud and clear.
“Haa, ngh.”
And then, slowly, Cha Jae-woo’s cock pushed deeper inside.
My body tensed reflexively, finding it hard to endure the tight stretch. If someone asked whether it felt good to have flesh being split open like this, I would have honestly said no.
“Relax, Haeyul.”
“Uh, ugh… wait, ngh…”
He told me to relax, but I didn’t know how, so all I could do was flinch helplessly. Cha Jae-woo gently smoothed down my hair, pressing kisses slowly from my forehead downward. It seemed he, too, had lost the option of stopping.
For some reason, that realization made me happy, and I smiled briefly. I puckered my lips toward him, asking for a kiss. As if he’d been waiting, Cha Jae-woo covered my lips with his.
“Hngh…”
The strange, tingling sensation that spread through my body made me cling to him tighter. I thought maybe it would make me feel a little more grounded.
Guided by our joined bodies, his cock inched deeper inside. Though the sensation of him splitting me apart still wasn’t exactly pleasant, the fact that it was Cha Jae-woo—his lips endlessly pressing against mine, his hands smoothing down my body—made everything okay.
The insertion took much longer than I expected. Even with a face twisted in barely restrained desire, Cha Jae-woo exercised extreme patience. I tried my hardest to relax every muscle in my body.
“Haa…”
Though I was drenched in cold sweat, after what felt like an eternity, Cha Jae-woo’s cock was finally buried to the hilt. The moment I felt his balls press against my ass, my face flared bright red. Blushing so helplessly now made me feel foolish.
“Are you okay?”
It seemed Cha Jae-woo misunderstood the reason behind my reddened face.
He kissed my cheek, then the corner of my lips, and asked again. He was being so tender it made my heart swell painfully. The silly laughter that slipped out was because of that.
“Mm, I’m okay…”
Though the pressure, so much greater than fingers, was a little tough to endure, it wasn’t unbearable. Rather, the sensation of being so completely filled felt oddly good.
I never thought I’d ever enjoy this feeling, but it was because it was Cha Jae-woo. There was no way I didn’t know that.
“Should I wait a little longer?”
Even after fully sheathing himself inside me, Cha Jae-woo didn’t move. Instead, he kept kissing me, stroking my body tenderly.
