Chapter 73
As if entranced, I cursed inwardly while looking at the impulsive KakaoTalk message I had sent.
Shit, Joo Kwon-oh, you crazy bastard. Go die. Why did you suddenly ask to rub lips?
However, even though I could clearly see Ryu Jeong-ha rolling his eyes in confusion and biting his lower lip, I didn’t feel like canceling the message I had just sent.
Rather, once I became aware of it, I became more curious. About the taste of Ryu Jeong-ha’s lips.
And now I think I understand why it had been bothering me all along.
Maybe I want to press my lips against those lips. Maybe I want to moisten those small pink mounds with my tongue instead of the candy that was stickily wetting his lips.
But can guys kiss each other?
I’m attracted because Ryu Jeong-ha looks like that, but I might be disappointed if I actually do it.
Well, anyway. He’s the one chasing after me saying he likes me. I think I need to try it once to satisfy my curiosity.
I didn’t even consider the possibility of being rejected. Honestly, this is a game with a predetermined outcome.
He’s gay and likes me, so if I ask to kiss, he’ll readily agree, right? Surely he won’t refuse? It’s just rubbing lips, no big deal.
I expected he wouldn’t back out.
[Me: The 3rd floor of the Art College building is used by the Painting Department, but there are hardly any students in the studio on weekends. The storage room next to the studio will probably be empty on Saturday or Sunday morning. Around 10? Even if there are students, we’re unlikely to run into anyone if we’re careful.. Let’s do it there and leave. When we’re done, I’ll go out first and check if there’s anyone in the hallway, then you come out and leave, and no one will know. There’s no CCTV in the storage room, so don’t worry]
I didn’t expect him to be this enthusiastic.
“Are you crazy? Hahaha! What’s he saying?”
I read Ryu Jeong-ha’s KakaoTalk message several times.
Did he seriously type all that out and send it?
I was wondering why there was no reply for so long. I couldn’t help but grin imagining Ryu Jeong-ha with his head buried in his phone, racking his little brain to send that message.
“Ah, he’s so damn cute.”
“What? Who’s cute?”
At that moment, Choi Kyung-won poked his head out and pointed at the phone I was looking at.
Ah. This was the library study center. Realizing where I was, I put my phone away and wiped the smile off my face.
“What.”
“You just said someone was cute.”
“When did I? Are you hearing things?”
“You said with your own mouth that someone was soooo cute. Who are you chatting with and grinning like that?”
“Who’s grinning?”
I hardened my expression and flipped off Choi Kyung-won. Choi Kyung-won gave a knowing smile with a smug look.
“Sure, it’s a good time for you.”
I gestured for him to get lost, hating that expression. Then I made eye contact with another classmate sitting nearby.
He seemed curious about what was going on, having overheard Choi Kyung-won speaking loudly for no reason. I ignored him, pretending not to notice, and lowered my head to take out my phone again.
Ah, by the way, this guy is so damn frustrating.
I snickered for a long time looking at the optimal kissing route Ryu Jeong-ha had designed. Unlike me, who was thinking of casually bringing him to my place or trying near a bar in the evening, Ryu Jeong-ha was meticulous and detailed.
He made such a thorough plan, I can’t not follow it. I have to agree no matter what.
But… is this really okay? All the guys with dicks I’ve seen looked like they’d stink. Did I go too far without thinking of the consequences?
Now that the date and place were set with no way out, I honestly felt a bit nervous.
But do I want to cancel? Not really. I’m so frustrated because I don’t even understand my own feelings.
By the way, no matter how pretty he looks. What if it feels totally wrong when we actually do it? Should I push him away and leave?
Honestly, I have no idea how it will feel. It seemed possible when I saw him with my own eyes, but…
I stroked my chin, turning over in my mind how this kiss might play out. But it was still puzzling.
Well. Let’s just do it and get rid of this damn curiosity. Then this strange feeling will probably disappear quickly and things can go back to how they were before.
My hopes were all nonsense. There’s no point in trying to predict anything when it comes to Ryu Jeong-ha. No matter how much I rack my brains, it all goes sideways.
Shit… Ryu Jeong-ha was a peach incarnate. I thought only his looks were soft like that. But his lips, the skin that wrapped around my hand, even his breath – it was all like a juicy peach.
Kiss?
“Ha, shit. I can’t understand. Your lips…”
They were amazing. Unbelievably so.
I was so absorbed that I forgot for a moment whether we were at school or at home.
There’s a peach that doesn’t wear out no matter how much you bite, lick, or suck it – shit, how can I leave it alone?
It was so cute I wanted to bite him – the way he hesitantly fidgeted with his hands, unsure if he could touch me, while receiving the kiss.
I even got turned on. Just from a kiss. Me, Joo Kwon-oh, outside. And alone. With a guy.
This is absurd. It was the moment when all the confidence I had built up about myself crumbled.
Was Ryu Jeong-ha that good at kissing? No, it’s the opposite. He didn’t know what to do at all, just offering his tongue and lips without knowing when to breathe. He had absolutely no skill to speak of.
For a very brief moment, I regretted asking Ryu Jeong-ha to kiss. It felt like I had opened Pandora’s box that shouldn’t have been touched.
With this, it was revealed that I’m someone who can kiss guys too. Shit.
After sending Ryu Jeong-ha out of the storage room first, I ran my hands through my hair roughly. No matter how much I panted and tried to divert my thoughts elsewhere, my damn lower body wouldn’t calm down.
Am I really crazy? Now I’m getting turned on by a guy.
I couldn’t accept this reality easily.
It wasn’t my first time kissing outside, but it was the first time my lower body reacted outside.
Shit! Was it too similar to kissing a woman?
No, not that either. Not at all. No matter how white and soft Ryu Jeong-ha was like a peach, a man is a man. The feeling of holding him in my hands and the lines of his body were not much different from mine.
It couldn’t be more different from a woman’s slim waist and full curves.
But why the hell am I getting an erection?
I looked down at my waistband and sighed with a curse. If this had been at home, I would have grabbed my dick without hesitation and jerked off shamelessly. Using the warmth still left on my lips as a side dish.
[Ryu Jeong-ha: Did you get out okay earlier?]
[Ryu Jeong-ha: And can you return my notebook that you have..]
A private message came from Ryu Jeong-ha in the evening. Of course, I checked the content in the preview as soon as the KakaoTalk came. But I maintained the unread status.
When I didn’t reply even after several hours, Ryu Jeong-ha sent a message to the liberal arts group chat. It was an obvious ploy to check if I was reading the group chat or not.
I read the group chat first without much thought. I had no intention of moving according to Ryu Jeong-ha’s wishes. It would be troublesome if he acted like something had changed between us just because we kissed once.
I only asked to kiss once out of curiosity, I didn’t want to become anything special with Ryu Jeong-ha.
Just because a guy looks cute doesn’t mean I can become gay too. I need to cut off this curiosity here. Even if that curiosity has gone beyond and made me incredibly turned on.
Ryu Jeong-ha isn’t completely clueless, so he should have understood what my actions meant.
As expected, after that, I never received another private message from Ryu Jeong-ha.
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[Jung Han-min: Kwon-oh what are you doing this weekend]
[Jung Han-min: Just one last time cover my shift on Saturday….]
[Jung Han-min: Please save me this is really the last time]
[Jung Han-min: Hey? Hey??]
This bastard’s at it again. As soon as the KakaoTalk notification popped up on my phone, I went in to find useless messages from Jung Han-min.
I was eating lunch at the school cafeteria, so I put down my spoon and tapped on the chat window.
[Me: Get lost ㅗ]
[Jung Han-min: Come on pleaseㅠㅠㅠ]
[Jung Han-min: You know that stray cat that comes there often??]
[Jung Han-min: She had kittens. Look at this]
[Jung Han-min: (Photo)]
[Jung Han-min: Aren’t they super cute?]
[Jung Han-min: If you work the shift you can see the cats too]
[Jung Han-min: The manager said if he’s getting a replacement it has to be you, he said the other kids can’t do the job so it has to be you]
He still doesn’t get it. There are cats all over Korea University.
This time I read the KakaoTalk but didn’t reply. Then I skimmed through the other accumulated chats.
Club group chat, study group chat, a message from a girl I barely remember, class rep announcements, and so on. Among the various chat windows, I couldn’t find Ryu Jeong-ha’s name.
It seems Ryu Jeong-ha properly caught the message I wanted to convey. So I was relieved at first. It would be troublesome if he suddenly clung to me or persisted.
However, the sense of relief disappeared quickly. Ryu Jeong-ha seemed to have caught the message so well that he decided to completely ignore me in real life too. I noticed this intention during the liberal arts class.
Even when our eyes clearly met in the lecture hall, Ryu Jeong-ha passed by as if he hadn’t seen anything. He no longer sat close to me, moving to the very back row instead. So I basically had almost no chance to see his face.
At first, I thought he might be feeling unwell because his expression seemed a bit more rigid than usual.
