Chapter 106
Eunseong locked eyes with the man looking up at him and frantically touched his cheeks and hair. When joined with him, it felt as if the wolf tattooed on his neck, shoulders, and chest writhed and devoured him. Though beautiful and strong even without any markings, Yoo Siwoon’s naked body, overlaid with that savage beast, felt even more like steel and excited Eunseong further.
“Haa, again, again?”
“It’s conception day today. Haa, you, ungh, you told me earlier.”
“Ah, ahh, con-conception day? Mmm, ungh.”
“Yes, conception day. If we do it on conception day… haa, we’ll make a baby, right? Is that true? Hmm? Eunseong, is that really true?”
Yoo Siwoon made this playful joke in the midst of their situation. Eunseong’s expression contorted strangely as he felt both pain and pleasure. Siwoon’s hands gripped Eunseong’s buttocks, kneading them firmly while simultaneously touching the sensitive protrusions that triggered his arousal. His tactile senses were heightened to even the slightest stimulation on his rear. The same was true when he rubbed his lower body against Siwoon’s, their body hair brushing against each other. With his hips twitching, Eunseong breathlessly cried out in excitement each time Siwoon lifted his weight and lowered it for deeper penetration.
“What if, haa, mmm, ungh, what if I really, really get pregnant with your baby, ahjussi, then, haa, what would you do?”
“…Haa, we’d, ungh, raise it well and beautifully. Like you.”
“Ah, ahjussi, ahh, it feels good. I love you, ahjussi, ahjussi.”
Eunseong wrapped his arms around Siwoon’s neck and clung to him. His hips moved quickly, swallowing and releasing the man’s dick. His practiced movements seeking the point of pleasure made Yoo Siwoon’s chest burn hot.
Siwoon was falling uncontrollably into something he had sworn he would never do.
When Siwoon’s fingers pressed hard against the bluish scales, Eunseong let out a moan that was almost a scream. They focused intensely on each other while caught in the frenzied moment. Their bodies moved together like waves, their breathing rising to the same peak.
“I’m coming… ah, ahh, mmm, I’m com… ah, ahjussi, aah, ah.”
“Haa, Eunseong, ungh, ungh.”
Eunseong’s movements quickened as well. Siwoon’s breathing was becoming increasingly rough. Eunseong’s lower body, which had been moving rapidly on top of him, suddenly stiffened. Unable to hold back, Eunseong’s fluid spurted up to Siwoon’s chest. While holding the trembling Eunseong, who was intermittently twitching, Siwoon also held his breath as he thrust vigorously from below.
“Uh, kuh… ungh.”
Siwoon rested his heated forehead against Eunseong’s chest as he ejaculated. Whether illusion or reality, Eunseong felt the hot sensation of his release deep inside.
“Haa, haa, ah… ah.”
“Haa, haa, haa, Eunseong.”
Siwoon tightly embraced Eunseong’s bare waist with both arms and let out a murky breath. The sleek, slender upper body trembled in his grasp. The pulsating heartbeat of climax traveled through their flesh to Siwoon.
Lying together on the narrow recliner, Eunseong stared blankly. He fumbled for the arm that had come across his chest and held hands with Siwoon.
Eunseong was gradually learning what happiness and comfort meant. Siwoon had promised him both present and future. He jokingly called Eunseong his partner and referred to their relationship as a marital bond. Eunseong didn’t mind these strange and whimsical terms.
He glanced back to check if the man using his arm as his pillow had fallen asleep. They were lying languidly, covered only by a blanket over their lower bodies. Not wanting to let go of the sensation of their touching skin, warmth, and softness, Eunseong laid on Siwoon’s arm like a lazy child, deliberately not getting up, and Siwoon felt the same way.
“I thought you were sleeping.”
“I did doze off briefly.”
To prove he wasn’t lying, Siwoon briefly twisted his upper body, stretched, and exhaled deeply.
“That dog collar on top of the bookshelf…”
Eunseong’s eyes were fixed on the memorial stone and dog collar placed on the bookshelf.
“Yes.”
“What was its name?”
“Seolgi.”
“Was it white?”
“A white dog. He was incredibly smart.”
Siwoon closed his eyes and smiled faintly, remembering Seolgi.
“When did you have him?”
“From middle school.”
“…When did he go to doggy heaven?”
“Not long after I graduated college.”
Siwoon answered Eunseong’s questions gently. Perhaps it was his imagination, but Siwoon’s voice seemed to have dropped.
“I’ve never had a dog, but… I think it must have been sad.”
“It was sad. I should have taken him to America. Should have lived with him even one day more. You have no idea how much I regretted it later.”
As if he didn’t want to feel such regret again, Siwoon tightened his arm around Eunseong’s waist. He held him close. Eunseong, pulled into his arms, asked:
“Have you had any dogs since then?”
“…No.”
“When Seolgi went to doggy heaven… did you cry?”
Eunseong felt Siwoon nod slightly behind him. Eunseong gently patted Siwoon’s arm that was wrapped around his waist.
“Thinking about you crying over a dog… it’s strange but it makes me feel sad for you and think you’re cute.”
“I’m human too.”
It must have been around that time. After finishing school and returning to Korea, Siwoon saw Eunseong playing in the playground for the first time. After the departure of his beloved pet, Siwoon couldn’t properly explore the feeling of having a hole punched in the middle of his heart. He felt the same way when he saw Eunseong playing alone earnestly, sweating in the darkening playground as the sunset faded at dusk.
Eunseong also had a face with a hole punched through his heart. The pity Siwoon felt seeing ten-year-old Eunseong then, the guilt he felt toward a child who had lost both parents because of Siwoon’s family and had to grow up lonely and empty under the care of someone who had ultimately driven his parents to death.
He intended to repay it all. He intended to fill him, make up for everything, and love him to overflowing. Rather than living with the constant anxiety of losing Eunseong to someone else, this was his only struggle and resistance. Just as with this house he built, where he only felt safe here, Siwoon decided to confine Eunseong within what he considered a safe protective shield.
Siwoon knew he had become corrupt. He knew that his pledge to protect Eunseong had been perverted. Falling in love with Eunseong, desiring him like this, was not part of his plan.
With a determination etched in his bones to never let go, Siwoon turned Eunseong’s shoulder, making him roll over. Eunseong squirmed as he turned to face Siwoon.
“I couldn’t help but love you.”
“…”
“I think that was… difficult for me.”
“…”
Sometimes Eunseong misunderstood his self-reproach in his own way. He thought Siwoon was tormented by self-blame for failing to fulfill his responsibility as a relative adult who should protect and care for him.
“Can’t we go to New York soon?”
He wanted to leave this land that gave Siwoon various contemplations. Now Eunseong was nothing without Siwoon. Nothing made him as anxious as Siwoon feeling guilty. Even though they were lying naked together, he was afraid that one day Siwoon would suddenly push him away and distance himself, saying they shouldn’t be in this kind of relationship. He was scared Siwoon would reject him and recoil from their physical contact.
“We will go.”
Siwoon had already made the decision and now strengthened his resolve.
“Let’s wrap things up here and leave.”
“…Completely?”
“Yes, completely. Let’s settle everything… and leave together.”
“…”
Siwoon’s eyes were resolute. He had already anticipated this outcome the first time he embraced Eunseong. No, perhaps he knew this would happen when he first decided to bring Eunseong in, which is why he had kept his distance for so long.
Eunseong’s eyes widened in surprise as he looked at him, becoming watery with emotion. It sounded like Siwoon meant he would abandon everything else to be with him.
“Just the two of us, somewhere no one else is, where no one can come. Don’t think about anything else. Living as a loving couple like that.”
“…Yes.”
“Would that be okay with you?”
“As long as I have you, ahjussi. I… as long as I have you, I don’t care where we are.”
Those eyes, full of complete dependence and trust, painfully pierced Siwoon. They touched his conscience and the faint remnant of reason flickering like a weak candle flame, but Siwoon extinguished that flame.
If he didn’t possess Eunseong, there could be no valid reason for anything in the world. Everything else was meaningless and nothing more than an empty echo. Siwoon acknowledged no other answer than this. It was their destiny for him to have Eunseong, to meet as life partners, a truth that no one could damage.
Author: Hyacinthus B
Hyacinthus
